stay right there
you're not gonna jump off, right?
no, of course not
so, you don't mind if I come closer?
whatever, man
alright, who is the lucky girl?
oh, okay, okay, okay
I'm sorry. no lucky girl
Don't call anyone!
I don't even have service
Probably if you joined my carrier, you would've jumped a long time ago
hey, guess what!
last week I got stuck in the bathroom
for two days ..a whole weekend
because my carrier decided not to give me signal
hmmmph
that's deep!
I don't think I could do it either
is this about a girl ?
yeah, isn't it always?!
yeah
it is her favourite color
when they find my body
she is gonna know how much she broke my heart
mine never did
she loved me
she loved me so much
in fact
she even loved me more than I loved my self
I proposed to her at this very spot
it was the best place to start my life again
never thought it would be the place where I would end it
I miss her so much
I wish I could just...
hug her
see the irony
I came here to meet her,
but I know if I do this,
I'll never, ever meet her again.
I wish I'd never met her
let me tell you something
about me
I'm obsessed with video games,
you know why ?
because you can always hit restart
no matter how much you mess up,
you can always start again
she always wins, though
not this time
don't waste your life on any girl
mother
I miss you so much
God,
please forgive me
and mother,
today I live for you
*someone knocking at the door*
so I guess this isn't your last letter
I can't explain to you guys what it felt like to receive that letter
because you feel like there is certain people that would never contemplate suicide, or ending their lives
but sometimes when something happens to you that rocks your boat
and then all of a sudden
things that you would've never thought about
you start thinking of
and especially when it comes to losing someone that you love
even the prophet -pbuh-
losing Khadija , losing his uncle Abo-Talib
that's the year that's known as the year of grief
not the year that the prophet -pbuh- was boycotted ,
not the year that he was oppressed
or forced into those ghettos
but the year that he lost khadija and Abo-Talib
why? because even when he was oppressed before that
he could go home and he could find that comfort in khadija
but he didn't have that anymore
he didn't have the physical comfort from Abo-Talib
and that's something that we all face in our life at times, and the thing is that
either you'll live to see your loved ones go,
or you'll go before your loved ones
and it's important for us to keep things in perspective when that happens
and imagine if Zeyara would've actually went forth and ended his life and committed suicide
then, he would have ruined his own life, his own hereafter
and he would've also ruined the opportunity to do more good deeds for his mother
and so here Zeyara decided to be his mom's last good deed
because he gives her now a source of everlasting
blessings and good deeds
because he can give charity on her behalf, he can supplicate for her, he can spread knowledge in her name
now he can do things for her
and that something that we have to realize
that when we are alive and the beloved ones, people that lived for us where they were alive,
leave this world,
now it's our turn to live for them and to do things that will benefit them in that situation
and also understand this
that Allah knows your pain, and Allah knows what you're going through
and if you seek reward for that pain and that patience
the reward that you would get in return is better than having that beloved one with you
and that's why Abdullah-ibn-Abbas
when his father Al-Abbas the uncle of the prophet passed away
a bedouin came to him and he said:
that the reward that Allah will give you for your patience
as you grieve your father
is greater than having him with you
and Allah is better than you for your father
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