Hello? Good. Hello, and welcome to my kitchen corner. I created this kitchen corner
About a month ago, and it's very quickly become my favorite place in my whole entire apartment
I spent five hours this morning reading Harry Potter in this very corner, drinking coffee eating some oranges
I enjoyed it so much so that I accidentally was 40 minutes late to my meeting. Good Conan, so good. Great. Good.
So good. I was so embarrassed. Anywho, today I thought I would paint- Ah, no! Conan! Um the cap is off
Let me just uh
Anyways, what I was saying before that happened, I thought I would paint my nails today
It has been a hot second since I've painted my nails, and I've gotten lots of suggestions on what colors
I should paint my nails and stuff like that
Let's give it another go, I've had a very very very busy week also so I didn't really have much of a plan on what
I was gonna do and I thought I would just sit down and chat with y'all
I'm planning on painting little like shapes and things on my fingers
I'm not really sure from what I have collected from the comments and from Simply Nailogical videos. You can use tape in order to
Mask and kind of like make shapes and stuff, so I'm gonna give it a try. We'll see what happens
I really want to do like triangles and squares and circles, but more than likely it's not gonna work
But you know a little babadababap you know what I mean
Okay, I've had a very long week. I can't even talk. I'm gonna do some blue and some red and
Maybe a little white. I'm not sure we'll just try. Also I have no clue how I'm gonna do my other hand
Today I kind of want to talk a little bit about mean people and my
Experience with mean people and how I stopped caring about mean people
And how I got to a point where now I can paint my nails on the Internet in front of hundreds of thousands of people
And not even blink an eye. I can't blink for the rest of this video
First up I'm going to make a square on my thumb because I feel like there's a lot of real estate
On the thumb when it comes to nails and I think a square will fit nicely
So for those of you who are not aware, I was not always this cool and relaxed and chill and
Amazing and popular. In fact, most of my life
I was very very viciously bullied. Pretty badly, to a point where I almost had to leave school
It was pretty bad. I can look back at it now and laugh, but it was very very bad
I was bullied a lot in school, and I think a lot of people have similar experiences
Let's try to put this square together on my nail. Aha! This is already hard, and I'm already tired
Can you see that? Can you see my thumb? It's covered in tape. Let's do a blue square. My whole life
I was bullied a lot by the kids in school
Everyone just hated me for some reason. I didn't even talk so I don't know what they had to hate me for
I was just really dweebish I was also like the only Asian in my whole school cause I went to school in the middle of Texas
so I was just weird and they wanted someone to pick on and I was chosen as 'The One'
I think that worked. It needs two layers because this nail polish sucks. No offense miracle gel, but your pigmentation could be a little better
I remember very distinctly
Getting bullied a lot and then going to my parents or going to an adult and wanting to get their help
But always kind of getting a similar answer which was "Get over it"
It's really hard for a kid to just hear the words "get over it" and just get over it
It doesn't really work like that
You don't just get over
Getting locked into the bathroom with the lights off and not being able to see anything and running into things and like all these boys
Surrounding you like you just don't get over that kind of stuff and so I always felt like nobody even
Cared that I was going through terrible things. But as I've gotten older
I've realized that in that really crude saying, "get over it", There is a tiny bit of truth
Just a tiny bit not that much. I'm just trying to make light of the situation here. As I've gotten older I've realized
People are always gonna be mean. There are mean people
everywhere. For as long as you exist
There's always mean people. Even now as an adult
Who lives in his own apartment and has a job and goes to school there are still mean people that are just mean for no reason
I think that when adults told me "get over it"
It wasn't really like "oh you're just being weak stop being so childish just get over it"
I think it should be more of like a "Oh, you'll get over it. You'll get past this era of your life"
Where people being mean to you matters
There was this really big campaign that was going on while I was in school
And it was this campaign named "It Gets Better"
Sorry, I have to do a second layer now. According to Miss Simply Nailogical
I'm supposed to take off the tape while it's still wet so I'm praying right now. Please work
Hey, not that bad. Not that bad. I can clean that up. Yeah, not that bad. Okay. I'm satisfied
Okay, everything's fine. So in this campaign named It Gets Better
I remember seeing these campaigns and thinking wow being an adult must be amazing
No one's ever mean to you! It gets better! But then as I was getting older, I was like "it's not getting better"
"Everyone's mean and everyone hates me"
"Why isn't it getting better?"
But the truth is it doesn't get better. People are always gonna be mean and that's just the sad truth
But they aren't lying in the campaign. The bullying, the people being foul and people being rude, people being ignorant
It doesn't get better, but what does get better is you being able to handle it
and it's you being able to realize that people being mean are just dumb, are just sad and
Have nothing better to do with their lives
It doesn't get better. Bullying doesn't get better. You get better and that is very very true now
I'm gonna try to do a triangle on my pointer finger. Very fitting because you point at things with this finger. Puns!
I found that making videos was a very very massive
Stepping stone in me realizing that what people say about you
Just doesn't matter. Oh, no not decent at all, that's totally like not the center of my nail at all, whoo
That's very red. Oh
and that's bleeding
It's really ugly
*insert meme music*
Okay, I'll fix it I'll fix it later. I have nail polish remover everything's fine
I don't even remember what I was talking about. By making videos online, I realized that no matter what I did
It didn't matter if I was
Flipping off the whole world and kicking puppies
Or if I was feeding the homeless. It didn't matter what I was doing which I've done neither of those things on a video before
Didn't matter what I was doing there were always people
Giving me their opinions on what I was doing whether that was good opinions or bad opinions
They were constantly all this information about hey, I think that that thing that you did
I think this about it, and it was really overwhelming. It was like okay, I didn't ask for your opinion, but that's cool
Thanks, if it was a nice thing, but then if it was a terrible thing like
Hey I hate you go die in a hole
I was like "oh, I uh-huh sure if you say so there" were just constantly these opinions
And I couldn't get away from them
then eventually after so long of doing this I've been doing this for 10 years now the
Information just flies by me so in a way
I have gotten over it. I have gotten over that part of my life
where what people said to me mattered and it does get better because I've gotten better at being able to take a hit and
at being able to realize that hurt people
Are the ones who like to hurt other people and sad people are the ones who like to make other people sad
I don't hate my bullies. I think I've learned a lot through them, and it's just a shame that they feel like they have to
Inflict pain on other people in order to make themselves feel better
In a crooked, twisted way it doesn't get better, but you do get better
*loud car honking it's horn outside Conan's window*
Oh that car thinks so too. There's no way I'm gonna finish these nails in one day
This is like a nine-day nail project that I need to be fully invested in
So far we have two nails, and it's been 20 minutes
I saw this quote somewhere that really just made so much sense to me. I think I have it on my phone
I think I do. Here is the quote I don't know who said this quote
It says to avoid criticism say nothing do nothing be nothing
And that's the truth if you don't want to get criticized if you don't want people getting in your face if you don't
Want people who are just gonna go up to you and say hey I hate you, you can very easily do that by just not existing
By just being invisible and saying nothing and doing nothing and not even being a human
maybe being an air molecule? That might work? People are always going to be saying stuff about you. So in a way it just
Can't matter because if it does matter too much
Then you're never going to be able to function. So since they're gonna be mad no matter what
Why not just do whatever you want? Why not just live as
Unapologetically as you can? Why not be completely yourself? Because I've been to both sides of that spectrum
I have hidden and been as tiny and blended in as I possibly could be and I've also been as
Loud and proud of who I am as I can be and on both ends of that world
I was always getting criticized. I would much rather
Someone say hey, I hate you, but me be living a good life where I'm like living
I have friends than someone be like hey
I hate you and me being like wow I hate me too because I'm not who I am. I don't feel like myself
It's a very easy thing to say and a very hard thing to do to just ignore people being mean to you
And I totally realize that. I don't want to
Come off as insensitive by saying oh why not because it's a really hard thing
And I totally understand that it took a very very long time for me to be able to actually be like oh why not
And although you may think right now
Oh, why not don't worry if it takes a very long time for you to just actually live like why not because it's hard
I'm gonna finish up these nails probably while I'm watching a movie because this is taking a very very long time
It was a much larger endeavor than I realized
You can't even see
They're so cute
*insert more meme music*
Ok, bye. Thank you so much for watching this video if anyone has anything to say about
Being bullied or about how your perspective on people being mean has changed
I'd love to hear it in the comments below
And I think that people who are going through it would love to hear it as well
It does get better because you get better and I got better and if you're being bullied right now
I promise that it will get better
That is all I have to say I'll see you guys in a couple days with a brand new video
There's tape on my thumb. God bless and goodbye
Pyoom