Hello and welcome to day 4 of Vlogmas
Today I am showing you something, there's a lot of noise in the background
but trust me it's worth it.
I know a lot of you live in places that it's always sunny and there's no snow.
So I wanted to show you a little bit what's happening outside today.
Also my windows are wide open and I'm fucking in my underwear, I am freezing, but I am doing this all for you.
So I'm going outside today so I'm gonna try to film a little bit outside if it's still snowing
You know what sucks though, what really sucks is that you know how I bought my new shoes yesterday
If you watched vlogmas number 3
There right here, there beautiful, right down there. Can you even see, whatever.
They're good, they're very like minimalisty, but um its fucking snowing and they're thin.
So, I mean I have to wear, I have these socks. I'm just gonna show you everything.
I got them right here, they're Feetures. OK of course I don't have one, there you go.
They're made out of merino wool. Yeah, yeah not vegan, whatever.
Lets see if they work well. Look minou so curious about the snow.
Minoublito! I'm scared that he's gonna try to like
touch the snow, when he's
He's a thick boy
He's a very thick boy
So I'm scared that he would actually fall through the screen
So I'm just gonna close that.
Minoublito, I love you but I'm sorry
Also my window is literally disgustingly dirty. I need to clean that.
Hey minou.
People want more cats. They think beauties in it too much. Oh no, they said you were too much.
Maybe I should just go find beauty then.
My room is a disaster, whatever, you love me
Beauty
Where is she?
She's probably under the bed, that's usually where she hides.
So because I'm having like a typical morning today. Which I feel like is rare and I haven't had in a long time.
I made my usual breakfast. So I make this smoothie every single day
and yes while I was fucking making it, I was like why am I not filming myself making it.
I don't have the answer for you. I'll do it tomorrow.
Um, and then I take my meds.
I take vitamin D, vitamin B-12, and then a whole bunch of other medication that I need. Like real medication.
Not that, whatever.
Um, and now today I've decided instead of like waffles and maple syrup.
I have oatmeal and it looks like just a pile of bananas, just because
I just literally put an entire banana in this oatmeal and put a lot of maple syrup.
I like oatmeal but I feel like it's so like bland and I need some sugar
So get that natural sugar in there, get that maple syrup because Im so Canadian the I have that shit every day.
It's so expensive though, it is literally eight ninety nine for just like a normal can like that.
You think this is game.
So now Im gonna watch TV. Im really in the mood to watch Mama Mia. Like...
very weird but like really in the mood
but Im just gonna watch Family Guy instead just so that I have like something mindless and
Then Im gonna clean up a little bit and that's gonna be my day today.
Im doing some really exciting stuff though so Im excited to bring you around with me but
um
Whats that, isn't there a website like rabbit or something, rabb dot it
Where I can like stream a movie on Netflix and we could all watch it together.
If thats a thing like or if you know something better, I wanna do that, I wanna watch Mamma Mia with you guys
and I wanna watch Bee Movie with people, cause like y'all are my little bees.
That's what Im calling you guys cause I love you.
Ima eat now so leave me alone
So I just got my new shoes yesterday and if you didn't see vlog number 3 where I bought them you should go
Um, right now Im about to go outside and try them
I wish I could film that but I am not bringing this baby outside cause it's still snowing
Peppa
Whats whistling? Oh, that's bee, there you go.
Can you tell this is one of my favorite places to
lie down, I just feel like cause it's right besides the window.
Anyway, so I just came back from my run and honestly I feel like...
shit because I haven't run in over two months now.
Like real running.
What had happened was that I did the Montreal half marathon and it was amazing.
Not my best time for like a half distance but best time in a race.
It was really fun.
and I don't know, I don't know. Like it was great but I was still in my train for the marathon.
When I was gonna do the New York marathon on November sixth.
So I go back to my training normally and I do a tempo run like three days later.
Now I shouldn't have done that because I think I pushed a little too hard during half
and its supposed to be a long slow distance.
You know, LSD.
Literally what we call it by the way in the running community.
and
um
I did a tempo run, which is a run that's faster than your usual run.
So I did a five k.
It was amazing. My best five k time. I think I did like...
twenty six minutes or something. It was great.
twenty seven maybe, I don't know.
Twenty seven. Twenty seven thirty three, I think thats my time.
The next day my knee started to hurt and then I couldn't walk and then I had to walk with a cane.
Long story short, I wanted to go to the physio one time and I wanted her to give me exercises.
I've gone like six times but I'm really glad that I've gone.
At first I was like, she just wants my money, she just wants me to keep going but it's been...
amazing, I actually feel like the things that I'm doing are helping and I am sticking to my exercises, doing them.
Like six times a week. I should be doing them every day but...
sometimes, like yesterday I was, whatever.
um
but yeah, so I
I feel good about the run today. So today i had to walk for five minutes.
and then I had to do a run for one minute and a walk for one minute, ten times.
and then another five minute walk afterwards.
I feel like Im not doing anything but today I ran with my new shoes right
the ones that I had just bought, the ones I just showed you.
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and
I feel like for the first time in my life, I have like a real running form,
because I'm a heel striker, not a good thing to do.
and now I have a minimalist shoe, well kind of, its a four drop.
If anybody, like y'all probably don't even know what the fuck I'm talking about
but anyways
I feel the ground. I feel everything.
and I wasn't even tempted to run on my heel because the shoe is so thin
that my automatic instinct is I feel like I'm barefoot which means Im gonna run on the forefoot or middle of the foot.
Which is exactly, exactly what you should be doing when you run.
So it felt really good.
So right now Im gonna go do my exercises. Im not gonna film cause you saw them in day two.
You know, me humping the air, rolling my t-band, and like crying a little bit cause it hurts.
Actually it feels a lot better now. After rolling it for like three weeks, like it feels great.
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So yeah. So I'll see you. I'll see you right after I torture myself.
So I have mad anxiety about vlogging outside
but like
not that because its like people watching me, I mean thats part of it
but also more because this is an expensive camera and I don't want to happen to it.
but Im taking you on an adventure. We're gonna go on the metro today. So you get to see all of that
and you get to deal with the fucking noises of living downtown.
so
Lets get into the metro, we're almost there.
Why is the lighting in here horrible?
Jesus Christ
The lighting in here is absolutely horrible.
I am at the bus depot on the south shore. My friend is coming to pick me up.
I dont wanna put my camera up. There is like people behind me and like.
My camera is really intimidating, anyways.
If only it would ever focus. I need to figure out why this shit doesn't focus as well as it's supposed to.
because like its getting really annoying
So that's a pizza place right there.
I used to live on the south shore, like I grew up here.
And its like the pizza place to go to.
Sometimes we would just take the bus to the terminus just to eat the pizza.
There are children around, shoot me.
So apparently she's here. What the fuck.
It's all lies.
but I knew there was going to be people around me.
I never remember what color her car is.
There's my ride.
Hello, I thought you were like here for a while and I was like oh my god I'm not replying to your messages.
[No,no, like clear the way. I even turned my radio off. I don't know if it's on but I figured you'd be copy righted.]
Aww look at you thinking about me.
Oh my goodness, are you hungry?
[I'm ready to eat if you are?]
I'm so hungry.
[I don't care]
I'm so hungry.
[Cause clearly you made bad decisions.]
On my way here I was really hungry.
cause I went for a run.
Well when you watch this vlog you'll see the beginning.
[Oh I'm watching this vlog.]
You don't wanna watch, you're in it.
This is my friend Mandy.
She's driving so don't look at her.
[Lets definitely not kill us.]
[Otherwise you know it's a great vlog to put up.]
Oh my god, click bait, no I'm kidding. Oh shit.
Wow LGB.
Wow, forget the T? Eh
Fucking transphobic ass Quebecers over here. You're trying not to laugh.
She's like, she's really trying not to laugh, not to disturb my video.
[Yup pretty much.]
This is my favorite restaurants.
Right here, that's where we're going. If it would ever focus but whatever.
Oh shit that looks good.
oh shit
Oh yeah, Im zooming in on it.
Can you see the zoom like moving part?
oh shit
Oh my goodness gracious I'm dying. It was so good.
Are you good?
[I'm good]
Was it good?
[It was delicious.]
It was delicious. Now We're gonna do our fortune cookies.
Im in here.
[You're not even here.]
Im in it, I'm in it, I'm in it
[Lies, all the lies.]
keep your feet on the ground.
[Or, you know, spit at Mandy.]
Keep your feet on the ground even though friends flatter you.
Aww, like the internet.
It's a good story, listen to this story.
[So I was. I can't look at the camera, its too awkward to me. Can I look at you?]
Sure.
[So I was at Harvey's.]
[Texting you or on your instagram. I think it was on you instagram]
[and this guy was over my shoulder and he's like]
[oh that's Chass Ross, you know him?]
[I was like, you know him?]
[and then I texted you.]
I don't want this, you have a garbage in here? Your cars usually a little messy, I can put this in a cup.
[Excuse you.]
There's no cup to put this in.
[My car is not messy.]
[If your desires are not extravagant they will be granted.]
Rude, you can have all the fucking desires that you want.
No, no, they love french though.
[*Speaking French*]
Ok and mine na, my my na.
That's on camera.
*Speaking French*
What is the word, flatten.
[Flat]
[Flat is to like pet someone.]
When your friends flatten you. Does this friend make me look flat.
There's puss here.
[He's running away.]
Pussy, pussy pussy.
aww, yes
yes pussy
yes
I like your cape.
[yes]
[wait]
You look like, um, royalty.
[I am royalty.]
Why are you putting, what is that?
[If Im gonna get decked out.]
Oh my god wait, are those real socks?
[No]
I did this tee.
I did it.
Its crooked but I did the thing.
In the arms of the angel.
In your picture frame there's a woman and it looks like one of those Walmart woman thats like a default.
[All of them are.]
Are you serious?
[Only one thats not.]
Why?
Why did you do that?
[Why not?]
Ok, Christmas me.
Im the tree, I can't do anything anymore.
*humming*
[That is so scary.]
Oh my god. These lights are fucking hot on me.
Do your balls hang low.
[That's not bothering your lip?]
No I'm good.
[The nose one doesn't look as heavy, but...]
This is how you do christmas when you're metal.
These lights are getting really hot on me for real. Is that dangerous?
[I don't think so.]
[You put them on the christmas tree. Its not like they catch on fire.]
[It totally fits.]
Oh hello!
A little christmas strip tease for you.
a la da de
I need to take this one off its making my lip like.
loose
Which lips.
This is when he gets laughed and thats when he becomes grinchy.
Oh my god this puss just scared the shit out of me.
[My cat?]
Yes, it just like.
Sniffed my ear and I was like what is that.
I look so blurry cause of this mirror. Oh my god.Im going home now. Im tired.
So I know that todays been like a great day and like...
maybe its like...
depressing that Im not feeling good but I just wanna talk about something that just happened.
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Its really affecting me. If you are on twitter then you probably saw it and if you have me on face book.
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but
so
I really, really, really wanted to get my nipple pierced, ok.
When I was thirteen I went and I wanted to go get my nipple pierced.
I know. It was my dads girlfriend at the time or some shit, whatever. She did piercings.
Thats why I have all these piercings cause I got them all like for like ten bucks
and she had told me that my nipples were too small. So instead I got my tongue pierced
when I was thirteen or fourteen or something.
thirteen
and then
um
When I was getting ready for top surgery. I was getting really excited cause
I knew that one day the one day I would be able to get my nipple pierced.
After surgery I asked Garramone and he said usually a year after surgery is a good time to get your nipple pierced
and he looked at my nipples and he said they were fine.
And I even saw Garramone this year cause I went...
with my friend Parker and my friend Aaron
Why did I say my friend, you know who these people are.
and
um
I told Garramone that I would like a revision on this nipple cause I don't feel like its perfect.
Where as my other nipple. I really like.
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Waite you can't really see, whatever.
And he's like I wouldn't even do a revision on that and I was like oh shit, ok. I guess its like fine.
but
He said it was fine. So anyways. So I wanted to get my nipple pierced as part of vlogmas honestly
Its one of the things that I was like oh my god I should do this cause Ive always want to do this
and its a perfect time to do it at the beginning of the month.
So I just went to a piercing place near my house.
That was recommended to me by three people.
That I know. Friends that I know.
And I went and I talked to a guy.
And I showed him my nipple. The bad nip here, ok.
and he
he said
You don't even have a nipple.
So that made me feel fucking fantastic.
And he's like we could never do that and I was like ok what about the other one?
And he was like, no. And I was like, really. Like even the good nip?
And he was like honestly Ive never worked with this type of nipple before.
So I don't really know but let me ask someone else. So another piercer came in and he said the same thing that.
If he even pierced the good one. Even if he tried. It wouldn't heal properly cause there's not enough
The barbells or something could reject and honestly the thought of that makes me want to fucking puke
cause I paid so much money for this. Anyways point is I feel like fucking shit ok.
I know I shouldn't feel bad and if I was cis I could have nipples that weren't pierce able and it could happen.
But I still feel like shit and I still feel like.
like
Like well never know because Im not cis. I'll never be cis. I never was cis. I'll never know.
So I just feel like shit right now. I feel like I like totally hate my body and totally hate that Im trans
and I know that I shouldn't but I do. So my feelings are valid.
I don't know. This is like a horrible way to end a day.
I was feeling very anxious today as well and a very weird low but.
Now this like just fucking cherry on top of a fucking weirdo mental day.
Anyways, end of day four.
so
Sorry about that but I had fun being a christmas tree, that was great.
Hopefully tomorrows a better day.
I will see you around. Please don't forget to watch all my other videos for vlogmas.
Im having fun doing this even though I am crying and depressed in some of my videos but
you know what if you wanna follow me around and know what my life is, this is what my life is.
Ups and downs all the time. Anyways. I feel like shit.
I really wanted my nipple pierced. Like, I really, really, really wanted my nipple pierced.
And there's nothing else that I want pierced. I have everything else that I want pierced.
That I would want. Whatever. Have a great week. Have a great day.I'll see you tomorrow, bye.