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- Ugh.
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This gets, this gets difficult to do sometimes you guys.
If you are a subscriber,
if you follow my channel closely,
you'll know I didn't post anything last week,
frankly, I just needed a break.
I was a little burnt out
and just didn't really feel like filming anything.
And frankly, I still am kind of burnt out,
don't really feel like filming anything.
But alas, here we are anyway.
You know, I mean the fact of the matter
is that sometimes when, not even when we're running
our own business just in life normally,
things can get overwhelming or you can start to feel like,
what's the point of this?
Why am I doing any of this?
I don't wanna do this.
And that's kind of the head space I've been in lately,
particularly just 'cause of all the bullshit
that's been happening in the world and in the United States,
you know, it just it feels like everything's
kind of on the wrong track.
And like, what's the point of me
trying to go down the right track or do one thing
if it feels like everything around me is working against it.
I mean, really, quick story time.
I was in Washington, D.C. in the beginning of May
for a conference, for a trademark conference.
It just so happened, serendipitously,
the timing worked out that I was in Washington D.C.
when the Supreme Court opinion leak came out
where it's contemplated that the Supreme Court's
going to be overturning Roe versus Wade
and Casey versus Planned Parenthood.
If you aren't aware of what that is, go Google it.
But a Supreme court opinion draft was leaked the day
that I was in Washington, D.C.
I decided to skip that day of the conference
because since I was there
I wanted to go be a part of the protests
that were going on in front of the Supreme Court there.
And so, I did just that.
I blew off that whole day at a conference
and just hung around, took in the whole environment.
I just felt like that was a much more
useful and important way of spending my time
while I was there,
was to be a part of what was happening there.
And really, since that day,
since I woke up that morning and saw the news,
I've just been just pissed at everything, at everybody.
I mean, not everybody,
but really just pissed off at the world.
Like, why am I doing this shit if my rights as a person,
as a woman are going to be taken away from me?
Now, of course, it was just a draft opinion.
It's nothing official yet.
I guess there is a small chance
that something could change and that won't happen,
but it's pretty, I mean it's pretty well expected
that the Supreme Court will be overturning these two cases
that are very important and vital
to a woman's right to choose what she does with her body
and make decisions regarding her own healthcare.
So, there was that.
And then of course, a few weeks later,
massive school shooting, 19 kids died.
And then, I mean, every day, since then,
I woke up this morning and on the news was talking about,
I think it was the 13, 13 shootings
that happened just over this past weekend.
I'm not here.
I'm not doing this to like debate these topics.
I'm not gonna be engaging
in any debate of them in the comments
unless someone says something really stupid
which I'm sure will happen,
then maybe I'll respond with something,
but that's not totally the purpose of this.
I do wanna make it very clear that I am very much
in support of women being able to make their own decisions
for their bodies and their lives
and their own healthcare decisions.
And I am also very against kids getting shot
and other people getting shot
in senseless, ridiculous, absurd shootings.
And I think it's absurd that people in charge are not only,
in my opinion, not doing things to help,
they're doing, you know,
they're just making it worse, frankly.
If you disagree with that stuff, you know,
that's you're prerogative.
Everyone's entitled to their own opinions on things.
But when, you know, when kids are dying
and when rights are being taken away from people
and now we're seeing a lot of fallout
from the the potential of Roe V. Wade being overturned.
And you know, it's not, it's obviously not just women
who are being affected by a lot of this stuff.
I mean, it is mostly women
but particularly lower income women,
women who really need
more support and access to certain things,
people of color, the LGBTQ communities,
it just feels like everything is under attack right now.
It, I mean, it doesn't feel like that,
a lot of things are under attack right now.
I recognize that I'm fortunate in a lot of ways.
And I live in California,
which is a pretty liberal, democratic state.
And so, you know, at least for the time being,
access to abortions, isn't going to be affected, at least.
I'm also very fortunate that I am in a position
where I can take a break from things,
take a break from work, take a break from whatever I need to
if I have to.
And I recognize that
that's not the case for a lot of people.
And it's just very, it's very sad.
It's very frustrating and disheartening, disenchanting
that people who need the most support
are the ones who are gonna be the most impacted
by all the things that are happening right now.
And so, again,
it all just kind of brings me back to like,
what's the point?
Why is none of, you know, why is this?
This isn't important.
There's a lot of other important stuff that's happening
and what am I doing any of this for?
But I remind myself that I know a lot of you guys,
a lot of people, get a lot of help from my videos,
my content and stuff.
And I try to keep that in mind that, that's the purpose.
That's the real purpose
is I'm trying to help a lot of people
who are not otherwise able to access information
or access resources, access legal help, legal information.
And that's ultimately why I keep doing what I do.
I try to relate everything, any video that I put out,
I try one way or another to relate it back to business
because that's what this channel's about, business,
you know, being empowered to do your own thing,
do what makes you happy, do what makes you,
gives you freedom, gives you money, let's be frank.
You know, empowering and encouraging people
to do what they need to do
to make their life what they want it to be.
And so in this, the best way I can relate it is that
if you find yourself,
whether it's right now or at some point in the future,
whether it's because of outside things that are going on
or things that are going on in your personal life,
you are going to encounter moments where
you just don't like, wanna do it anymore.
You just don't wanna do anything, or you're just burnt out.
You wanna shut everyone out.
And so hopefully someone, at least someone
can relate to this and know that it's okay.
Know that you can take a break if you're, again,
if you're able to, I know that that's not possible
for a lot of people.
But it is okay, you know, to feel frustrated
about yourself or about your business
or about your circumstances or your world, whatever it is.
But ultimately, you know,
you have to do what you have to do for yourself.
Ugh, fuck.
I don't know what else.
I don't know what else to say about it, you guys.
Someone told me once,
I haven't talked about this a lot on my channel.
I think I've mentioned it once or twice
here and there in random videos,
but my husband passed away three years ago
from brain cancer.
And after that, I obviously was grieving
and it was extremely difficult to get any work done,
get anything done.
I, again, didn't feel motivated to do anything.
And when I did feel motivated,
that motivation would last for maybe an hour at best.
And when I was going kind of in the height of all that,
a friend on, I think it was on a Facebook group,
commented or said something to me that
the best you can do is the best you can do.
Or all you can do is all you can do,
which I took to mean
that whatever you can do is whatever you can do.
And so, at the time,
whether that was taking a shower that day,
if that was the best thing I could do
then that was the best thing I could do in that moment.
If I felt up to it and had enough energy
to get a little bit of work done, respond to a few emails,
even if it was pretty minimal,
that was the best that I could do.
And that was the best that I could do.
And I've carried that, that bit of advice,
that phrase with me since then.
Any time when, you know, the grief hits me again,
or when, again, when shit's just crumbling around you,
it feels like the world's falling apart.
I don't force myself to do things
that I don't feel like doing
or feel bad about myself for not getting as much done
as I would've wanted to.
Because again, the best I can do is the best I can do.
And right now, this is the best I can do,
sit in front of this camera and kind of just ramble on,
trying to find words to say
that might hopefully be,
I don't know, relatable or helpful,
or at best, I don't know, inspirational or something.
This right now is the best I can do.
And if whatever you're doing right now
also is the best you can do, then I applaud you for that.
Because again, whatever you can do is what you can do.
I think that's it for now, you guys.
If you're stuck around this long, thanks for watching.
Next week, I will be back
with my regularly scheduled programming, probably,
who knows?
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But I don't know, I might not.
I might feel like not doing it next week.
We'll see.
All right.
That's all I got for you guys.