( desparate sigh)
Hi its 2 A.M
what the fuck am I doing?
*nervous chuckle* okay
I am ready for bed.
I got all my shit goin on
I got my like, pimple cream on
I got...
you know what I mean?
I'm ready for bed.
but plot twist - im not going to bed
*dramatic drum thing*
I... pull all nighters
like.. A LOT
probably too much, like an unhealthy amount
I'd say at least once a week if not like, TWICE
not like more than twice because like if I
do more than two in the week, like I LOSE IT
like I'm talking about like maniac behavior
I'm talking about call the social security number...
that didn't make any sense
this is so ironic like I'm literally pulling one right now, it's 5 am, FIVE AM
(puts down phone) *tHuNK*
(sighs)
I need help
but I can't go to bed tonight
and let me tell you why
well...
I spent the past four hours watching a crime documentary
on Netflix
it's actually called "Evil Genius" - this is not partnered with them although I wish it was
netflix - eEughhH
it's like a four-part documentary with four episodes
and it is CREEPY AS FUCK
and I'm SPOOKED as FUCK
but here's the problem, right? normally when I watch scary shit at night
I usually follow it up with something fun and light-hearted
to kind of like, take my mind off things
and make me a litte bit like less anxious or whatever
tonight, that wasn't an option
MY WIFI JUST DIED
died
I don't know what's going on, I'm very concerned and worried
and my ability to watch a funny and heartwarming video before bed
was TAKEN AWAY FROM ME AND RIPPED OUT OF MY HANDS
and now I'm all freaked out
I tried to like lay in bed
but my heart was like BEATING
like I literally can't go to bed like I -d- I CAN'T
*SPOOKED*
I had the idea to pull an all-nighter
and when I usually pull all-nighters it's to edit
because I have to get a video done
(cheery music)
this time its different
because I don't have anything I need to get done tonight
well, I do but I'm just not gonna do it.
I was like, why not turn this moment of anxiety into CONTENT
*cheering*
first thing that I think we need to do is - we need to make a coffee sis
don't be silly here, now
I'm also not taking off my pimple cream, I don't care what anybody says, like these zits need to go away
great...
for our first all-nighter activity, we're just gonna get hyped up on coffee
because that's always the best way to start a video
and the only way in my career, thus far
that I've started a video
I'm really excited because i bought these cool vanilla coffee pods
for my espresso and they just taste absolutely phenom(enal)
soOoo
been really digging that lately
also got these mini little... espresso... jars...
that I can use. ALSO PHENOM(enal)
does anybody really care about the stuff I'm talking about right now?
I mean I hope not because that would be kind of sad, like imagine if you cared about my coffee pods that's like depressing
but I mean if you do care... bless your soul baby
also, something really funny happened to me the other day
and I thought I would share
I decided that I would be a conscientious health queen for not only my self but also for the Earth
and thought that I would start buying reusable straws
because...
so I decided that I would order some reusable straws off amazon
and care for my planet.
I don't know I wasn't really thinking
I just literally added the first ones I saw to my cart
and then called it a day
they show up to my house the other day.
okay
and look how fucking long they are
WHAT?
like?
(pretends to sip from straw)
like what the fuck is this?
and I ordered like 40 of them
like why would I
I don't know wha-
I don't know why I
couldn't tell you
maybe I'll use it today... that'd be kind of funny
would you laugh if I used it?
(crash)
this video
you would think like
oh all-nighter like wow
this is gonna be a lit vlog
well you're wrong.
because there's literally nothing to do at night
I don't know what to do
maybe we could fold some laundry
(crowd booing)
maybe we'll go to the store
might go to the store and buy Cheez-Its
I dont know
lately I've been really into Cheez-Its
*bubbly slurping*
this is the stupidest thing i've ever seen
i literally can't believe myself
but im kinda into it
*more bubbly slurping sounds*
wait is this lowkey like...
really bomb as fuck
like this whole thing going on here
like the coffee tastes great
the straw is actually a great distance from my head
i can do it without hands
im kind of fucking with this
WHY AM I NOT MAD AT THIS SITUATION
THIS IS SO AGAINST ALL SOCIAL QUEUES
I thought i'd do a little laundry folding life update
because honestly you guys have a lot that you need to be updated on
also the camera's crooked
is that better?
nope
but, whatever
*sighs*
A lot has happened
i moved to LA
i live here now
do i like it?
yes
am i having an identity crisis?
yes
let's not lie about it
i had my whole routine down at home
you know, i have my friends, i had my life
i had everything like figured out
and then i moved here
and all of that is changed
my entire youtube life career
all started and existed-- when i was at home
and so know im trying to like adjust
here, and like figure out a new routine
because i dont have a routine down right now
none of this probably makes any sense and im probably going to cut all of this out, but like
its alot
anyways so now that im admitted to the internet
that im having an identify crisis
let's talk about some fun things
oh, one fun thing that everybody is just DYING
to know about
is why i moved here, cause i remember i said
a little while back, that there was this whole
big scary reason that i moved here
that i moved here, and there IS
but i know realize
, and I talked to my parents about it
and they agree. it's not
the best idea safety wise
to talk about it , yet
because my mom still lives in the apartment
that i used to live in
and i go home and still visit there sometimes
so talking about this situation
while i still return to that
same home, sometimes
its not a good idea
yeah like I don't wanna die
.... actually i kinda do
I can't tell the story yet, but once
my mom moves, which i
dont know when she's gonna move
might be in a year, might be in six months
might be in five years
but you have my word, that i will tell you
the story, its a little sketch
and it will be really good clickbait
i kinda got you guys excited about that
for nothing, then my parents will be like
"Emma, you can't tell the story yet
cause it's not safe."
and then I was like
*high pitched "Oooh"*
I think those were the two big elephants in the room
Lets try to think about things that aren't disappointing
Uhhh-
Wow, can't really think of any
hmm
That's... upsetting
Well, I mean, some good news would be that my apartment's coming along QuitE nicely
Feeling REALLY good about that
You know what? We're having fun with the process
I'm getting really JAcked
from having to move things everyday
Furniture and big boxes so that's really good for me
and also me looking like a boy more than before
Which is upsetting because we are still single
and we are still looking for love
more desperately than EVER
EVERRRR!!!
what else is going on?
wow, really running out of stuff
ummm..
*tsk*
really starting to get desperate here
In other news, I haven't shaved my legs in a month
I look like a Chinchilla
and it's not good
and, I'm not okay with it
I can feel my leg hairs static-ing to my to sweat pants right now
and I'm NOT okay with it, I'm not
and I don't want it to be that way and I never wanted it to EVER be that way
- I -
this isn't what I wanted
I'm not gonna hate on myself because I..
do my best and I..
am just living in the moment and doing me
*booing and fart sound effects*
ok I'm done folding my laundry I have nothing else to do with that
..so now we have to figure out another activity to do
so that you guys don't get bored umm..
*fast paced action music* comment down below if you guys think this video is super f*cking boring
I think we're gonna go to the grocery store and buy cheese-its
do I need to do that?
NO
did I have pizza today?
yeah, I did and I ate like four slices of it
and I also had breadsticks and garlic bread
and I'm feeling very thick
But I really want Cheese-ITs
you have to follow your gut and what is my gut saying?
Its saying "Cheese-ITs. NOW."
*slurping sound effect* I love that for me
*slurping sound effect* mmm... That is hot...mmm
This cream I probably should wash it off Cause it kinda looks like cocaine
People in LA are very judgemental
When you are going in publlic, even at night, late at night
You never know who you are going to see
THATs worrysome
I don't want to be judged.. for who I am BUT in LA, you are judged for who you are
whereas at home I can go around looking like a piece of ass
lets rephrase
I can walk around looking like ass
no one really cares, but here, you get stared at
It's like... (sigh)
I find myself trying to look good when I'm here because everyone else looks good
Its like weird for me because I'm very used to not giving a fUcK
But here I'm kind of like more like "oh shit maybe I will put on a little more concealer today on my under-eye bags"
(voiceover) you know what that might not be a bad idea
There's nothing wrong with putting a little effort in