A similar thing happens in our spiritual journey also
We get so mesmerised with certain experiences and we like to deepen that experience
but I think it is good enough that we have a glimpse of it and move on
The entire process of meditation moves us from where we are into something unknown
So the trajectory of each individual
moves towards that unknown in a very
I would not say in a very common way, but most of us do feel
suppose in the very first month of meditating you had some experiences where you could feel,
you could intuit, and have a very light feeling in your heart or sometimes lucid dreaming
it is okay. I personally do not pay a lot of attention to what I see on the way.
My purpose, my goal is to reach the destination.
Of course, we all do enjoy the scenery as we pass through
When we are travelling in a train we enjoy it sometimes,
and some other times, “Oh, it is too dull and too dry. Let us close the window.”
It happens even in spirituality that sometimes the experiences can
discourage you but that is part of spirituality.
There are ups and downs. Nothing moves without a circle
I mean ups and downs are always there
there is a positive experience and there will be a negative experience
and this positive and negative is our own interpretation actually.
When electric current moves with the positive and the negative, you know
what we call cathodic and anodic movement in an electrical wire, is it good or bad?
I think none of the qualities can be attributed to the movement of electric current.
Our consciousness based on our preconditioning keeps on judging the experience.
Suppose a sanyasi who is a celibate, and he sees a lucid dream of mating with someone
he will go crazy perhaps, he will lose his sleep and say, “What the hell has happened to me?
I never thought of sleeping with someone and now I have lost my celibacy”
But that’s what happens; most dreams are something you keep on repressing all your life.
But to a romantic person, he will welcome such a dream of mating with some strangers perhaps
So, dreams also depend on our own personal interpretations of what you really want in life.
So I generally discard all sorts of experiences by simply writing them down in my diary and move on
Because the moment I pay attention to it I get drawn into it and I would be wasting a lot of time
It is like when you are going from New York to Disney World, Florida
It is at least eighteen, nineteen, twenty-two hours of car journey. On the way, you know
you are taking your children and they see McDonald’s and they see all kinds of stuff on the way,
“Dad, dad, I want French fries.” and they see ToysRus
When will you reach Disney World? And somebody says, “Oh no, I need to use the bathroom.
I mean these are all legitimate needs
A similar thing happens in our spiritual journey also
We get so mesmerised with certain experiences and we like to deepen that experience
but I think it is good enough that we have a glimpse of it and move on
So I would remain dispassionate about the whole thing; observe and without making judgements, keep moving