when you don't get to hold your baby you
know that they're yours but they don't
feel like they're yours because you
can't do all the usual things they cry
but you can't pick them up and you can't
you can't hold them and it just goes
against everything that you feel you
should be able to do as a mother I feel
like I'm holding my breath I was
thinking about booking a holiday for
next year but I won't because I don't
know if I'll book it for four people or
five
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this is the most helpful to solve ever
felt as a father it's just you can't do
anything your your lives literally in
the doctors and nurses hands and you've
just got to sit there and wait and it's
excruciating
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she's born at this Sarris
she might have a matter of days to live
and they were you'd have to say goodbye
to her
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she's safe in there I just have a an
overwhelming sort of you know sense of
I've got to be strong even though it's
hurting me as well I've got to be strong
to keep her together so at one point
eight that's really good news yeah all
those times that you've just been sat
there looking at her wishing that you
could hold her and then when you get to
it just it feels right it really does is
is the best thing
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being able to just hold her and talk to
her it just makes everything worth it I
rely a lot on hope and faith I have
faith in her she's she's a fighter
she really is
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