It's not simple to say
That most days
I don't recognize me
That these shoes and this apron
That place and its patrons
Have taken
more than I gave them
It's not easy to know
I'm not anything
like I used be, although it's true
I was never
attention's sweet center
I still remember that girl
She's imperfect
but she tries
She is good
but she lies
She is hard on herself
She is broken and won't ask for help
She is messy
but she's kind
She is lonely
most of the time
She is all that,
mixed up and baked in a beautiful pie
She is gone
but used to be mine
And you're not what I asked for
Sometimes life
just slips in through the back door
And carves out a person
and makes you believe it's all true
And now I've got you
And you're not what I asked for
If I'm honest I know
I would give it all back
For a chance to start over
And rewrite an ending or two
For the girl that I knew
Who'd be reckless
just enough
Who gets hurt
But who learns how to toughen up
when she's bruised
And gets used by a man who can't love
And then she'll get stuck
And be scared
of the life
that's inside her
Getting stronger each day
As it finally reminds her
To fight just a little
To bring back the fire in her eyes
That's been gone
but used to be
mine
She used to be
mine
She is messy
but she's kind
She is lonely
most of the time
She is all of this mixed up and baked in a beautiful pie
She is gone
but used to be
mine
*sniff*
*sigh*