let's play a quick game raise your hand if you decided to start taking your creative passion
super seriously because the thought of turning it into a job or a source of income
made you super excited like that's the dream right but once you started doing it that seriously it
kind of sucked the fun out of it and it stopped feeling like a creative thing and it started
feeling like a task that you just had to do like any other job so now you have a hard time doing
anything that's creative because if you're gonna be doing something that's creative in
the first place it should probably be the thing that you're working towards
so now you find yourself feeling stuck and uninspired and wondering what's wrong
because on social media it seems like every other creative person is not really having that problem
something that you may not know about me is that i've always loved to paint i was in art classes
i did little art camps i have just always enjoyed it and as a kid i
kind of thought that it was gonna be like what i was gonna do but then i found acting
and i found like theater and all that kind of stuff and it became quickly very obvious that like
painting is not what i was gonna end up doing this is glitter paint
yo but another thing you might not know about me is despite loving painting i
refuse to call myself a painter or an artist because if i'm being honest i feel like i already
have enough things oh yeah that's just straight up glitter that doesn't even have a color to it i
feel like i have enough things in my life that are creative that have a lot of pressure put on them
acting once a year singing creating stuff like this i want to make sure it's good i want to
make sure it's worthwhile but painting is the one thing that i refuse to put pressure on i refuse
to care if i'm doing it right i refuse to care if i'm even doing a remotely correct technique
i just refuse to care because to be honest i rarely give myself the space to just like freaking
put a bunch of bs on a canvas i think that being a creative person comes down to this seemingly
impossible balance of creativity inspiration and discipline like we all know that we need to be at
least somewhat disciplined in order to succeed if you're trying to be a creative person that is like
working and like doing it as a job or whatever the issue is is how do you stay disciplined and how do
you like keep up when you don't have inspiration when you like can't freaking think of anything
like how is that even possible so in order for me to stay disciplined and i've talked about this a
bit with like my working from home stuff is i need to give myself deadlines i need to give myself
goals and i need to give myself a game plan of how to like work towards those things because if
i don't i just get like lost so that's kind of the simple way to describe that but how like how when
it comes down to it like how do you actually do it so it has been a hot freaking minute since i ran
out of like creative ideas the way that i do it and i feel like this is just gonna be like a long
ass story okay a massive part of it is i started practicing like extreme non-judgment of myself
of my creative projects and of others it started a few years ago dang like four years ago now damn
so like back in high school i feel like it was the norm to just be like super judgmental
of everyone like i was in theater i was a massive theater kid no one would let anyone else
just live but then after high school i entered into an acting studio that completely and utterly
changed my life and what i learned and i think like one of the things that i want to just like
freaking scream to the entire world is that once you start being less like
judgmental of others and more like accepting of others and you start being more accepting
of yourself and not so hard on yourself and you just allow yourself to play and have fun
that is when the breakthroughs freaking happened it was required reading to read the artist's way
by julia cameron that [ __ ] changed my life like i have such a harsh inner critic
the minute i realized that in the minute i started trying to shut that up everything changed when it
comes to my creative projects i'm not sure if i've talked about this in a video or not
but i like to think of all my stuff as an ugly baby i think pixar or something has this like rule
where if an idea is in its infancy you can't call it ugly because you would never call
a little baby ugly to its face because that's just rude so when you have an idea or a project
that's in its infancy you can't judge it you can't like start trying to like refine it too
fast you just have to see where it goes you just have to like start on it you have to give it the
love you have to give it attention you have to give it like the time to just grow and develop
another massive part of it is giving myself plenty of creative things that have absolutely
zero pressure like painting we don't need to always be putting pressure on our creative stuff
oh my god you might look at this and be like what what the hell is she doing right now
what the [ __ ] is that gonna be i don't know we're gonna find out and i think also that if you
allow yourself to have creative things that don't have any pressure you start to feel
like there's a little bit less pressure in your other creative things as well at least
that's what i found i'm literally just like hitting my paintbrush on the canvas
also a huge thing is letting go of perfectionism which kind of goes along with non-judgment i mean
it's all under that umbrella if i ever waited until one of my youtube videos was perfect
in order to post it i would literally have never made a single youtube video you can't
just write out of the gate be the greatest you just have to freaking try a bunch of different
things you have to experiment and the more you experiment the more you try different things
the easier it'll get the better you'll be the more you'll learn whatever but you can't just like put
super unrealistic expectations on yourself that means also not like comparing yourself
to other people and [ __ ] like that it makes me think about for how long i just limited myself
and i created these invisible kind of
walls and limits of what i couldn't couldn't do and what makes me sad about it is no one was
telling me that it was me who was telling me that
it made me realize that if it's me who's doing that then i can also
take those down make a bad piece of art just make it
and even if it ends up playing bad if you enjoyed the process then that's all that matters so
earlier today uh shayna the purple palace posted a video and it was like almost to the point where
i mean it was to the point where it just like brought me to tears because i was just like
in shock at how meaningful it was and i don't know how much it just spoke to me
because i feel like so much of being a creative person is like
it's like not letting yourself take up space not letting yourself be bad at things
you're allowed to take up space
take up space
take up space i don't know it's just my feelings about it
what the [ __ ] girl what the [ __ ]
i'm such a cry baby oh my god there's one thing i took away from it it's like it's okay to be
bad it's okay to like be bad at something like why don't we let ourselves do things
that we know we might not like succeed at because like you can't get better at something
unless you fail and that's kind of one of the reasons i like to paint but that brings me to
some of the other things that i enjoy doing when i want to be kind of creative and inspired
one of those things is obviously painting which i mentioned but another one of those things is going
on walks and just being outside especially this last year because i haven't really been able to
go anywhere i haven't been able to travel i just will walk as far as i can i'll explore different
streets i'll go to different places i think one of the reasons that at least i don't i i feel
almost like uncomfortable doing things that i know i'm not like necessarily good at it's because it
feels really vulnerable so it's like starting a youtube channel starting a tick tock like all of
that kind of feels really horrifyingly vulnerable because it's like i'm opening myself up to
judgment but at the same time like who cares just to kind of reiterate what shayna said in her video
you're allowed to take up space you're just allowed to there is space for you you're
allowed to take it so your homework is going to be to go to shayna's video and leave a 500 word
essay in her comments please tag me i will be grading them um this is not up for discussion
these colors are so pretty miracles