- Yeah she's like an angry girl and some that.
I want chicks to rock out to in their bedroom.
And to dance to and to cry to
if they feel sad.
That's how I feel when I listen to this song.
And that was very different to when I wrote it.
Which makes me happy because I guess
writing it was sad but the outcome made me happy.
And that was what I wanted.
When I have like bursts of overwhelming feelings
Like I have to do something to myself
whether its you know
something bad or something good.
And if it's a lucky day I make a song.
I think I was just frustrated um about things
Like I don't remember
what I was frustrated about.
But I just remember thinking
about past experiences in my life.
And how it kinda still affects me to this day.
And how that's so frustrating for me
and I you know do
I do therapy.
And they have to go back
to that situation constantly.
So, I guess writing about it
and writing about my feelings just help me.
You know, take out of my brain,
organize it a bit.
I grew up, you know,
watching 90s movies and listening to 90s music.
My mom showed me 90s bands like the Cranberries
the Cardigans through Castle.
Like just all these amazing bands,
and I guess it just slips its way
into my music somehow
without me realizing at times.
I'm talking to everyone in that line
when I say maybe it's time to cooperate.
Cause I haven't delved into that situation,
in my life and it was the first time.
I have to and you know,
I'm getting into that period of my life
where I have to get over this bump
so I can be okay.
It was time to get people to understand
me by explaining what happened.
And yeah that comes from my boyfriend
that goes to my friends,
like to my family to everyone you know.
The one thing I go to when I need
to forget about something.
When I need when it gets hard,
You always have to speak to a friend.
I always have to try and speak to a friend.
Or always write a song about it.
It's really easy to do something bad
when you feel sad.
So I'm coming into terms to understand
that it's best to to do something good,
to forget about something.
What I meant was that I don't want
you to feel sorry for me or just to you know,
treat me like a baby.
And try make me feel okay
cause you're never going to understand
what I've been through
unless you've been through it yourself.
I just need you
to put the effort into understand.
The chorus the way it's repeated
is just me finally telling them you know.
Telling everyone that this
is what I actually need, you know.
And it's the frustration I felt
during the time.
When I wrote the song I wanted a chorus
that was obviously super catchy.
But like, I was trying to do those things
or I just stop.
So I be like care, care.
But the guitars and all the instruments
and I know something nostalgic about it and fun.
Yeah, it's just fun
to rock out when I sing that chorus
um because it means so much as well.
I guess this second verse is quite similar
to the first verse.
But I just wanted to explain it
in a deeper way you know,
instead of talking about it.
Actually I never went back into that situation
that I've been through and lived in it.
And I have to do that in order to get over it.
I have to think about it, you know,
and I need to communicate to someone you know.
Like cooperating with someone
to help the situation is one thing.
But you have to talk about it,
to get it out of your system.
It kind of puts emphasis on how things
can really affect you.
So like if it happened to you
when you're really young.
And how that can really put like
just change your whole entire life
without even you realizing.
I guess it was the right move
because I knew it would help people out you know.
If I was the more honest I am,
the more people can connect to me in my music.
And the more they connect,
the more better they might feel.
I'm not trying to make everyone feel better
but you know if at least
one person can relate to it
a bit or can feel something from it,
then that makes it worth it.
I was very angry when I wrote that line.
I was like yeah, I guess you've had it rough.
Cause I guess me accepting the fact
that you have had a crappy beginning.
People who know that about me
kind of tend to use that as an excuse
to why I lash out sometimes.
And I get frustrated.
I'm like yeah because I've had it rough.
Deal with it dude,
I'm trying to go over it.
It sounds as if I'm taking
the piss out the other person.
Are you still the same?
Because I'm still the same.
But in reality,
I would rather not be the same.
I would rather just move on from the situation
and be a different person so I can feel better.
And the fact I'm saying I'm still the same
means I just haven't
I'm still stuck in that bit
that I'm trying to get over.
Who I'm telling are you the same
to is the person you hurt me
but who I really love.
And it's everyone who reminds me of that person.
It's a delicate line,
even though it might not,
It might not sound like it
but it's a delicate line.
I guess it was one of my favorite lines
and I wanted to repeat it
And musically I wanted to complement those words,
you know every key change
every guitar twiddle.
My producer and I really thought about that.
And he really brought that to life
and my guitarist Jacob
he really brought that to life.
This was the first time I kinda
I was writing a song that was very vulnerable
and very personal.
But I also wanted it to be just such a banger.
You know, with loud guitars and stuff
and I guess I was like you know
I'm gonna repeat.
Like everyone's like oh,
I just hate repetitiveness.
Like yeah, I don't care.
I'm gonna repeat the word about seven times.
Just so I can do that one key change
and do that one guitar twiddle,
because it's cool.
I had really bad writer's block
when quarantine happened.
I just couldn't write at all.
And then there was a week
where I managed to write all of the songs
for the next release.
So it's all
its all good now.