- We went into the pandemic, we were in quarantine
I got sent back to Canada.
They were like, "Tate, we need a music video."
I was like, "How am I gonna do this? Like I'm in Calgary
at home with my mom and dad like,
what am I gonna do?"
So me and my friend. We went up to this rooftop
and I was like on my mom's car like,
we're like driving around.
And I got like two tissue boxes and put it in
the front of my mom's car and then taped my phone there.
You know Video Star that like,
everyone uses when they're like seven.
That's what I used cause I didn't know how
to like, film anything.
So, we got like one take. I sent it to the label
and I was like, "This is what I got. Work with it."
The most important thing about writing an emotional song
is that there's good people in the room.
When we walked into this session, I don't think any of us
were really expecting to like
go into a deep place like that.
Surprisingly this was the first time I'd met like both
people in the room.
So, well, Victoria, I met her once before, but
Blake was the first time I ever met him, super chill guy.
We were like sitting in his apartment like eating cookies.
I didn't realize how talented he was until we actually
like got the song back two months later cause
at first it was just a piano he laid down.
And then once he put to production,
I was blown away by how talented he was.
At the end of the session I don't think any of us really
thought that we had a very emotional song.
Two months later I got the song sent back to me,
I was like, "Man, that's kinda good."
When you tryna like be very descriptive and
talk about a person. You obviously don't know
their perspective cause you're not in their head.
But sometimes I like take characteristics and traits
from myself and like try to translate to the other person.
I am so bad about talking about myself.
I actually, it's like kind of, it's ironic
cause I'm like, always doing like,
YouTube videos and singing and stuff like that but.
The one thing I do stand by is, you know?
I'll always be honest and straight up
with how I'm feeling, like, no matter what.
Even if you're not very vocal with things
and you're, you're not, like you're not really like,
"Aw, I can't really speak about my emotions?", you know?
You have to be straight up.
You can't just do them dirty and leave them hanging, like.
That's just like, you gotta be a good person
and just be straight up with your emotions
and not play with their hearts.
You know, I feel like, when someone isn't respond to you.
The first thing, at least my brain does
is create excuses why their not responding.
When they really just not responding, you know?
They're like, aw their phones off, they're out.
And I'm not a very clingy person like,
I'm not gonna interrogate this person
and get into their life
and get into their business but, you know?
They're always gonna think about excuses
and I feel like that's kind of ridiculous
and a lot of people let themselves do that
for a very long time.
That's the worst thing ever
because it can take so long for a person
and move on from something.
And actually like, recover
and like become, like happy.
When someone like, tries to crawl back
in after longest time.
It's just so selfish, you're like,
Alright man, you could have done this
like 5 months ago, first of all.
And second of all,
like what gives you the right, you know, like.
Why aren't you taking it from my perspective?
I've been taking it from you're perspective the whole time
and putting myself in your shoes
and you got to take it from my situation
and how I'm feeling too.
Honestly the biggest thing about toxic relationships
or any situation when you're with
someone you once loved or you still love.
It's so hard to see that there's anything wrong
with the, with the relationship, you know, like.
For you to actually realize it takes a lot of time
and you try to convince yourself that everything is okay
and that you're doing the right thing always
and that they're not treating you any differently.
At this point in this song I was kind of describing me
and the whole point where you're like, you know?
Every single time I would help you
when you were at your low.
You just kept this cycle going and keep treating me
like shit and you know?
And there's nothing I can do about that except
just like move on with my life.
I feel like everyone goes through that
and everyone knows they go through
but hate to admit it.
Who do you think you are?
And like any person in the entire world like,
you can't treat someone like that
and then just expect them to.
Welcome you back with open arms.
It's so weird, it's like this weird feeling of emotions
when I talk about these lyrics
because they are so personal to me.
It's so greedy and so selfish and so like,
just unaware of not putting yourself
in someone else's shoes and not understanding
what the other person is feeling.
And also, recognizing your self worth too.
That was the kind of what the chorus feeling about was.
I took so long to get over you
and now it's like, no matter how
hard you try to get back in.
I kinda know who I am now and I know what I deserve
and I know that you don't need to be back in my life again.
My friends are the best friends in the entire world.
And they always sing this song in the car
at the top of their lungs.
And I know some of these girls have gone through some
serious situations, like serious heartbreak
and they just screaming at the top of their lungs
because you know, it's all about how much they know
what they deserve and how much they know
that they've moved on and that
they don't deserve them anymore.
It is painful to watch someone move
on quicker than you.
Because you know in the back of your head, like,
"Yeah, I'm moving on too."
And you both tryna like prove it to each other.
But it is so painful when you see someone
who's going on with their life and looking happy
and finding another person.
And that is not a great feeling to experience.
Especially when they put you through so much
and they can just brush it off.
When you're both in a situation
if something is gonna end
you're gonna see the other person go on with their life
and see other people and you know?
With social media
and watching people's every single move.
It's not fun and it is a hard thing to get over.
I think blocking is so petty.
In my opinion, 'cause I always feel
I'm like, "Oh God."
They're gonna look at this
and be like, "They are not over me."
Whereas like me on the other hand,
I'm like, "I am so over you, bud."
You know, like.
Whenever you get over someone, I just try and
ignore the fact that anything happened.
What did you actually think
was gonna happen after all this happened?
Like after, after you skirted me out, you know?
What did you think, did you think I was,
just gonna be chasing after you for so long.
And it's like, I don't think you ever gonna realize
that you're not gonna get this back
and you're not gonna get to experience
this relationship again.
It's a bittersweet feeling too
cause you know you love a person but also,
once they've done damage to you,
it's ...you're not gonna crawl back in their life.
I feel like, you're worth more than that.
You're good on your own.
You don't need anyone else to be with you.
You don't need anyone else
to support you or put you up.
Everyone wants to like find someone.
Everyone wants to be in a relationship.
It seems like the ideal thing to do.
But you know? I feel like people need to understand
that even without them,
you're just as good as when you started.