Are you ready? I'm nervous. Not a good start.
Not plan. Not plan to be matching.
All right.
What's one thing you're deeply proud of but you would never put it on your resume?
I know what's the answer to this. Oh, I want to know. What is it?
No, you tell first. No. I don't wanna give you the answer. Oh goodness.
I feel like I've literally made a comment about this the other day
of a skill that I had and I forget what skill it was.
Oh, you actually used to put this on your resume.
I used to put this on my resume? I think.
Was it an actual job I had?
I'm going to tell you I'm not going to give you
This is your question.
I'm deeply proud of our YouTube channel
and what we've built from it and how far it has come. Do you put YouTube in your resume?
I wouldn't put YouTube on my resume. Oh, I'd totally do it. Would you? Oh, heck ya.
No, I wouldn't put that on my resume. Why not?
I just feel.. I don't know. I feel like...
It's a huge achievement. It's a huge achievement but
I feel like our Youtube channel is such like a special like family thing
and I know we have so many people that watch it
Its just the same thing as thousands of people watching
Yeah, but I don't share it with my co-workers like most of them don't know.
I didn't share it until they found out.
Yeah, most of my co-workers are still in the dark.
It's something that I'd like keeping a little bit more special and not like..
Okay. You know. So and so from HR have seen my videos, so.. That's a good answer actually
That's fair.
I wouldn't put on my resume but I'm deeply proud of our channel.
I have nothing to be ashamed of about our YouTube channel.
Good to know. But I want to know what was it? Professional fairy. Oh, that was on my resume?
Yes. Exactly. It was on my.. It's still in my resume?
No, it's probably not on my resume anymore.
Yeah, I think I told you to take it out.
Yeah, I am deeply proud of that and I would keep it on if my husband didn't make me take it off.
It started some really good conversations about my work life.
I loved being a fairy. That was great.
What was the most agonizing hour of your life?
Whoa. Oh, man.
I could probably think of something better
but this immediately came to my head.
When you were in labor with Zaden.
That was agonizing for you? It was.
It was torturous to watch it, seriously
and I think the most difficult part about that was I'm not able to help you.
I'm not able to do anything. Physically, yeah. Physically and even like mentally too.
Sometimes like you know, you're down, you're said, I can talk with you..talk with you.. and encourage you
I couldn't do anything. I felt helpless. I'm always like I got the solution. I can find a solution. I can fix this.
I can make this better but I couldn't do anything at that point.
Especially when Zaden came out and he had breathing problems.
I was like I'm a parent. I'm worried for my child right now you know and so it was a rough
couple of hours. Yeah. You know, waiting and.. Yeah. Yeah.
Okay, I'm glad that the most agonizing hours of my life were also the most agonizing hours of your life.
Very similar.
Mine were agonizing for a completely different reason. For physical pain?
Physical pain. Probably mental too. Yeah, it's all. It's all.
But the mental part with it was like rewarding at the end you know. That's true. That was like fulfilling
In your mind though, you're going through worst case scenario of like..
Oh my gosh like I can't do this. I'm going to get a ceasarean.
Yeah, I was worried about that too because we were so close. We were so long into it.
Yeah, 23 hours of labor.
3 hours of pushing.
We were so close to the C-sec. Yeah, thankfully we made it.
What do you most look forward to about getting old?
Not being in a pandemic.
Honestly I look forward to most of just becoming my own person more and more
and just being very secure in who I am
and not having to feel like I need to adjust myself one way or another to please other people.
I just.. I love the picture of like an old man on his lawn like "Get off my lawn"
and just kind of like doesn't care what other people would think.
Do you just want to be a grumpy old lady on the lawn?
Well, no but I just love the idea of just living your life
and not putting a whole lot of stock in what other people think
but I also love the idea of having time because we look at older people and we see that they're retired.
They don't have a lot of things to do and just being able to invest that time in my family. Yeah.
I know we've talked about this a lot of both of us when we get older
we want to be able to live with our kids and our grandkids and just.. If they want to keep us.
Yeah. We don't know about that. Or we'll just sit in a retirement home. Together. Together.
I think that's another part too is that I know no matter what we're going to be together when we grow old.
Yeah. We're just going to continue.. Without a doubt. Yeah. Like that's the plan. That's the plan. Yeah
As long as both of us healthy then everything stays well.
Just being able to go through that the rest of our lives together
and each year we're together... It's been almost seven years of marriage now.
and each year honestly gets better and better. Yeah.
Do you feel like that pleasing people like you said
that's something you look forward to at the end of your life or when you're old?
Just not care about what people think. Just don't care about what people think.
Do you think you will get there? I think so
Yeah? I think so. Okay. Yeah. I like that. I like the confidence. Yeah
Do you think you're currently operating at 100% capacity?
Oh, without a doubt a 120%. Maybe 150%. I don't know. Elaborate on that
I think the Youtube channel, maybe. Definitely took it to a whole other level and having Kyren.
I think that's really.. I mean it happened at the same time. Pretty much. Yeah, you know.
We started a YouTube channel 3 months before Kyren came. It was 3 months.
Yeah and then Kyren was born in August.
Yeah and then you know started getting serious with the channel
We had Kyren so like I cancelled my Netflix subscription you know. What else can I say?
That means I just don't have time anymore
Netflix is like.. which household doesn't have Netflix you know?
It's true. So yeah.. Just day in, day out. Just there's always something to do.
There hasn't been a time where I'm like "Okay, I can just chill and what can I do in my free time now"
Yeah, it's pretty much every free moment not spent doing our day job is spent doing our YouTube job.
On the weekends, we shoot videos. On the weeknights, we work on all the video stuff
and let's throw in some parenting in the middle of all that. Parenting. Throw in you know..
Taking care of the house. Everything. Yeah. It's a lot.
It's a lot. 120% capacity that's what you said? 120.
Okay, next one.
If you have children, which we do.. Two of them. Two.
How good a job do you think you are doing raising them?
How did I get this question? I love it.
Oh, man. I feel like my answer would change like 50 times a day.
For example, today Zaden and I made scones and in that moment when it was just the two of us.
Kyren was napping. It was just me and Zaden.
It's kind of a spontaneous decision to bake together and in that moment I felt like I was an A+ mom.
I felt like I was so chill about him getting flour over the place. I let him knead the dough.
We were having fun. We were laughing. We were playing.
I came in halfway and you guys seemed pretty happy.
Yeah and the scones turned out great. Also after a good long nap too, so..
Oh, I had gotten a nap this morning. That could have helped a little bit.
It did help. When I have sleep, I'm a better parent. Yes, I'd noticed.
I got scones. You got scones. You got a nap.
It's a fair trade. That time with Zaden this afternoon was so precious and I felt like an A+ mom
and I felt like I was doing great
and then Kyren this evening was having a rougher time. He was not eating his dinner with the solids.
He was just playing and puttering around.
He's teething, so he kept biting me when I was nursing him
and I just yelled at him and I'm like "Why am I blaming this poor seven-month-old baby?"
and there I felt like a D- mom.
I think it just comes and goes in these waves of these special perks where
I've always wanted to be a mom ever since I was little. Yeah.
But when I imagined being a mom, I did not think about all the highs and lows
and how it's not necessarily even like some days are good, some days are bad.
It's like the days are a roller coaster like there's higher points and there's low points
and there's higher points and low points.
Just because you have a low point doesn't mean you're a bad mom
and just because you have a high point doesn't mean everything's great. So yeah.
You're really passionate about this topic.
You kept on going.
I love being a mom. Yeah, I know you do.
That's one of my greatest joys. That's one of the things you asked me a lot during our marriage.
For babies? Yeah. Well, I did but I wanted to finish grad school first which I did.
Yeah,and then you're like "Babies, now I want babies"
No, it's not wrong. You dreamt of being a mom and that's your goal. Your dream.
You have it now.
It's challenging? Yeah, absolutely. Highs and lows? Yup.
Are you perfect a mom? No. Sorry, the answer is no. Oh, I will tell you that firsthand.
But are you the best mom for our kids? 100%
Thank you. You know, so regardless of the highs and lows
I think a big part of it is us putting our expectations on them
like we want to shape them a certain way we want them to be.
They're just kids. Yeah. It's hard. I get mad at him sometimes. Which one? Zaden? Zaden usually
and Kyren and I'm a little bit like cried or whatever you want kind of deal but with Zaden I'm like dude
I hold him up to a really high standard sometimes. I'm like he's just a kid you know, so yeah
Let's make mistakes as a parent as we go and let's learn from it. Yeah.
Parenting's hard. Pretty hard
What is something you probably should do but never will?
I probably should do but I never will?
I really want to know your answer
Get rid of a lot of my shoes.
I expected something way deeper than that.
You have so many. You got rid of like 9 pairs a couple of weeks ago though.
Oh. You know what, that probably should that I probably will not like my older clothes.
I still have a lot. Yes, I agree with that. Why are you so attached to these?
I might get fat again. That's the problem like seriously.
I might put on weight and that's the reality. You were never fat. You are just more slim now.
I was larger. Your size medium and now your size small. That is hardly a big jump
but I can make that switch back pretty easily, I feel. Then just buying new clothes in
Those clothes are out of style now, anyways. That's true.
I believe in you. You're fit. You're active. I think you are the size you're gonna be for a long time.
Let's get rid of it. Okay. Yes, guys. Yes. Got this on camera did we? We did.
Okay
I'd like to ask you this question because you asked me and Zaden a lot this question.
Almost every day. Oh, goodness.
What was the best part of your day so far? I do. I am saying this every night. You do.
You ask me sometimes too. You never asked me. I don't. I probably should ask you more.
Yeah, I think you'd like that. I do like that.
I did have asked you a couple of times. Not as many. No. Not as many. Rarely. Rarely.
But I feel like I already talked about the best part of my day was making scones with Zaden.
That was pretty special. That was really special and the 1.5 hour nap this morning was really great too
Close second. Close second but I did wake up super early so.. yeah. You deserve the nap.
The scones making and then the nap that is the second place.
I asked Zaden what was his best day and he was like playing puzzles with daddy.
Oh, not even the scones for him? Not the scones.
He's into puzzles. He is really into puzzles. That's probably why. Yeah.
Maybe we have to make some puzzled cookies or something.
Okay