Satsang with Mooji
[music]
The Fire of Self-Discovery [with subtitles]
Surrender the Surrenderer
[Mooji] Sometimes when you are deeply touched in satsang,
maybe whatever has been hiding,
lurking in the shadowy place, some private place,
once that has been somehow caught in the inquiry or perhaps exposed,
then sometimes it is like some big noise comes.
Some big noise comes. I say it like this,
sometimes you have been punched in satsang,
you have been stabbed in some place,
in the very solar plexus of your being.
You have been mugged. You are shot. You are attacked.
You come under attack, meaning your ego sense comes under attack.
And now a big, big, big tsunami of feelings is coming.
Then what to do? Many people are trying to rescue themselves.
The mind comes and it is trying to understand, to analyse,
'What went wrong? What is happening to me? What should I do now?'
I say, Shut up. Just keep quiet. Surrender to it.
It is so important,
that you recognise the significance of what is happening to you.
Now it is in the hands of grace.
Something has been held in secret,
because ordinarily in our minds, we are trying to protect.
The ego is trying to protect itself,
to perpetuate its existence, of course.
And to that extent you are feeling that you are a victim.
You are enslaved by these tendencies,
and they are effectively holding the beingness hostage.
Because you, the beingness, forgot your original freedom,
and you are clinging to these identities,
and these identities are making you feel very insecure.
So now in satsang, when Truth comes,
the light of Truth exposes all of this mess. And everything is coming up.
It's as though the beingness is now vomiting, burping up all this stuff.
And it's not a pretty feeling. It's not beautiful, it's not sweet.
And sometimes the mind has all kinds of resistance
and rebelliousness, like, 'Whoa, this is not supposed to happen!
You are falling apart. What is going to happen to you?'
But you must not identify with this 'you'.
You the consciousness must be very clear.
It is very difficult in these very strong pulsations to keep your calm.
Who is keeping calm?
Meaning, do not identify with what is arising. Simply surrender it.
And actually, change the outlook from self-pity to self-surrender.
Surrender to it. If it feels like your whole being is on fire,
you are going to be blown up, you are torn open, then be torn open.
Be willing to go through this. Because this is your ...
When I say to step into the fire of self-discovery,
and that this fire will not burn you, it will burn what you are not.
And that which is screaming and yelling in this fire is not what you are.
It is just what you have imagined yourself to be, and it is on fire.
So, please surrender. You are strong enough, you are old enough,
ripe enough, if you want to say, to face this inner burning.
Don't try and escape. Don't try and salvage anything!
The one who is on fire is not you. It is only one's self-image.
And that self-image is really, what is somehow eclipsing
your intuitive recognition that you are the freedom itself.
So I am very happy to have this opportunity
to again remind everyone, don't panic, and don't identify.
It is very difficult in those moments to not identify,
because that is exactly the reflex that happens in those moments,
strong identification arises there.
[Questioner] I feel this, because fear also arises.
Because when I feel that I am starting to surrender,
then comes the thought, 'Yeah, but then ...'
[Q.] Then comes fear. [M.] This is why you have to include ...
[Q.] I am going to lose everything.
[M.] You have to include in the surrendering, the surrenderer itself.
Because, it's as though, if you don't surrender the surrenderer,
then the surrenderer is trying to make a deal.
He is saying, 'But if I surrender everything,
then what is going to happen to me?' So this one who is bargaining,
who is talking about surrender is also the ego. It is not the truth.
When that ego is exposed and thrown out,
then what is really always here, not coming in from somewhere else,
but what is always here will reveal itself.
This voice of the self-image, the idea we have of who we are,
that is still very much within the operation.
It is still unclear, that you are not that.
It is such an intimate voice,
but you are aware of this voice.
You are aware of the anxiety that comes up with this voice,
with the feeling of threat or fear that comes up.
So you are witnessing a phenomenon.
You have to hold on to that witness,
who is beyond the personality.
It is like pure intelligence. Pure perceiving.
In the moment when the fire is burning most fiercely in the body,
the whole body, and the mind are on fire,
I am reminding you, Keep quiet.
Your surrendering is being accepted. You are surrendering.
You are still surrendering. It is being accepted.
It is in the process now of burning all that is untrue.
Don't try to salvage anything.
Nothing is worth salvaging of what is screaming or burning.
Just be open to it.
Grace is taking charge of all of this.
Don't try to crawl out of the fire, so to speak.
Be in this fire. It is a great moment!
Change your attitude from feeling sorry for yourself,
to being very grateful,
that you are picked up by life in such a powerful, ferocious way.
Now you are in the tiger's mouth.
They say that once you are in the tiger's mouth, you cannot escape.
Anything that is in the tiger's mouth cannot escape.
You are lucky to be in the tiger's mouth!
Because if you are in the chihuahua's mouth,
you are going to have a lot of trouble.
If you are in the dog's mouth, you are going to have a lot of trouble.
But if you are in the lion's mouth,
if you are in the tiger's mouth, then it is soon over.
A true being understands the beauty and the implication
of this statement I am making.
There is only pain when there is the wanting to escape,
to keep, to protect, to shelter the ego.
But if you are really resolved inside your heart
that, 'I have to be free of this!',
then being free of this means to be finished with this bargaining,
to be free of looking for a contract,
to be free of wanting any guarantees.
This is the mind. This is the ego.
Come to this fire. Be stripped completely naked.
Go beyond nakedness. Be empty completely.
And this fire will reduce you to emptiness.
Everybody wants to save their tail.
They say, 'The devil without his tail'.
Everybody wants to save his tail.
Meaning they are trying to hold on to something.
Because you imagine being so completely burnt means you are useless.
Yes, you as ego are useless.
But you as the Self is completely prevailing!
And that is the difference.
Very good.
The one who is on fire is not you. It is only one's self-image
and that self-image is really what is somehow eclipsing
your intuitive recognition that you are the freedom itself.