Welcome to Beyond Death where we examine near death experiences from people that say they
have died, visited the other side and returned.
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Todays NDE comes to us from Stephania S who describes dying at a young age and discovering
some cosmic truth about the very existence of mankind.
Let's get into it!
I was born with a congenital heart defect (DIA), which means there's a hole between
the two atria of the heart.
This condition mixes venal with arterial blood.
I never experienced any symptoms from the condition and it never put my life in danger.
The unusual thing is that in my case, the exact diagnosis was made one month before
my 16th birthday.
Up until that time, all the cardiologists had been mistaken and had tried other cures.
My cardiopathy had been diagnosed during the first years of my life.
The cardiologist, the only and first one, who diagnosed me correctly was surprised at
how I had lived to almost 16 years of age in perfect health.
I had total vitality, with my body full of life, and without ever having had any idea
that I was ill.
My heart had never shown any signs that it was working overtime or was even out of balance.
The doctor immediately was very firm and determined to talk to my parents about operating on me
right away.
He said that if I didn't get the operation, I would encounter irreversible heart problems.
I was going to be operated on without having had any symptoms and purely for preventive
reasons.
This would guarantee me a healthy life, without the need for therapies and medications.
In fact, my clinical file reads 'surgically cured.'
In that doctor's office, face-to-face with the cardiologist who was deciding where and
when I should be operated on, my mind refused the idea of having a heart operation.
In the two months leading up to the surgical intervention, I had felt a great anguish and
was convinced that I would die.
I was a 16-year-old girl and for me, the heart was linked with my romantic ideas of love.
I was convinced that one couldn't keep on living as though nothing had happened to open
the heart and make it work.
Among other things, I didn't accept the idea that I needed this operation, since I was
fine and had no health problems, despite the cardiologist's urgings.
This concept of being operated on in order to prevent problems and any future heart damage
did not fit in with my way of thinking and reasoning, or seeing life, at 16 years of
age.
I had researched the current surgical techniques that they would be using and the fact that
the surgeon was going to take his time operating on me, taking all the time that he needed,
frightened me even more.
The picture of me lying on an operating table with my heart temporarily stopped and my thoracic
cavity void of blood confirmed my conviction that I would certainly die there.
Now, I will describe the circumstances of the experience that I went through.
The heart surgery had been finished for some hours.
It was a normal procedure, after which, I was taken into intensive care.
In a different type of hospital bed, I was hooked up to all kinds of monitors that were
continuously registering all the different physiological activities of each organ.
But I was no longer in my body.
I floated without weight or physicality.
I was above my body and directly below the ceiling of the intensive therapy room.
I observed the scene that was taking place below me.
I say 'below me' and want to specify that I am not referring only to a physical or logistical
position.
I, who no longer was the body that had belonged to me just a moment prior, found myself in
a position which was 'energetically' more elevated.
It was a place that had nothing to do with any kind of earthly or material experience.
I was a pure expression of Existence and existed on a different level and in a different dimension.
From this dimension, I observed everything that was happening and all the succeeding
events without being involved.
As I was floating free like this, without thought or physical limitations, I experienced
a feeling of infinite, supreme blessedness or happiness that was independent of any external
factors.
I felt myself float in this blessed place and I was the blessed space.
I floated freely; without purpose and direction.
I existed and that was it.
At the same time, I experienced an extremely alive and vigilant state of mind.
I understood at a very deep level what was happening on that other plane of existence,
the place where the body that had belonged to me and that was now intubated on the hospital
bed in intensive care.
The thought was very lucid and came through immediate knowing.
It was a different way of thinking from which I had experienced while on earth.
I recognized the body as mine but was no longer interested: I was not that body.
I felt very good where I was now and was very surprised at the spectacle that was happening
around the body which had belonged to me.
I watched the spectacle but it wasn't my physical eyes that saw everything the doctors were
doing.
I looked on with my whole being.
I was having the experience from a state of consciousness which completely pervaded my
being and I perceived everything from that vantage point.
I 'knew' that the doctors were making a big deal to get me back from where I was.
I 'knew' that other surgeons had arrived from other wards to help out, but I did not want
to return from where I was.
I was floating in a dimension which was enveloped in a soft celestial light, very rarefied.
It was a light full of quiet and peace.
It expressed unconditional bliss without end.
I was free from 'being.'
Here, everything was heavenly.
I was enveloped in heaven.
In this dimension I simply 'was.'
I was experiencing the fact of existing.
And this experience was happening on another level of existence.
I knew with all my being that I was in a dimension outside of time and space.
And I didn't want to return to my body.
I didn't understand the agitation coming from all the doctors who were surrounding the body
which had belonged to me and with which I now wanted nothing to do.
I remember thinking 'Why are they persisting so much?
What is their problem?
I am fine where I am.'
I knew I didn't want to go back into the body because I didn't want to face up to everything
that was waiting for me on earth.
Even if I didn't know what was waiting for me, I knew with absolute certainty that it
wouldn't be anything like the peace that I was experiencing where I was.
Nothing could ever be as perfect and soft like this heavenly condition of absolute and
far-away bliss in which I was floating.
But they brought me back into the body and back to earth.
When I opened my eyes back in the body on earth, I was in intensive therapy and I didn't
remember my experience.
I didn't remember anything.
I did, however, know for sure that I had returned from a journey and I knew this journey had
lasted a long time and yet it was only for an instant.
All the commotion by the outside doctors was verified.
Normally when one wakes up after a surgery like mine, one cannot speak.
In general, one retains this faculty after about 24 hours.
But I was talking right away.
While I was talking and laughing with the doctors who were all around me, I suddenly
sensed an uncontrollable urge to help the woman who was in the bed next to mine.
She had been operated on after me.
I will always remember the communication she and I had.
It was a communication that came without speaking or words, through our eyes and thoughts.
She had begged me to help her.
She was very cold and couldn't speak because, as I have explained, she couldn't ask the
doctors for a blanket; that's why she asked me as I had been euphorically speaking with
the doctors to get it for her.
I was euphorically speaking, even though I wasn't remembering my near-death experience.
Evidently this blissful energy still vibrated within me.
I was very happy to have been able to help another living being.
I remember feeling very strongly that I had this desire to be of service to others and
this lady was giving me the opportunity.
Still today I remember the vivid look of gratitude that she gave me when they covered her up.
I felt a momentum of love and a very strong compassion.
At the same time, I felt so much older than my barely 16 years of age.
I had always been timid and insecure.
A year before, I had begun my first romance.
At least that's what I was thinking up until that moment.
But in that instant when they revived me after the operation, in the same instant that I
was having that experience with the woman next to me, that's when I perceived that I
had returned from a long trip in which I had journeyed very far and yet so close.
I also knew that I had grown up in that one instant and that the girl that I had been
fine with was no longer the one I wanted.
I wanted something else, but I didn't know what.
During this time the doctors were telling my parents that there had been ten minutes
during which they were seriously preoccupied with me, since my heart hadn't been responding
to their stimuli.
From that moment on and for the next 11 years, I did not remember the experience.
But every time I talked about the heart operation, I knew somehow that it had been the most important
experience of my life, but I couldn't remember why I felt that way.
Every time I talked about it, I was filled with such emotion which made me cry.
From that moment on, I was no longer afraid of death.
Although I didn't understand why.
On the contrary, I explained it to myself rationally: I endured and survived that type
of operation.
The doctors had initiated a type of clinical death, so why should I now fear death?
After the hospital I started up my life but I was no longer the same person.
Things, friends, and my pastimes of before no longer satisfied me.
I was restless, unsatisfied and I began searching for something.
Only one thing was clear - I wanted to be of service to others.
I wanted to be like that time with that woman in intensive care, and more than that.
I thought I was fulfilling that yearning by enrolling in the Department of Medicine so
as to become a heart surgeon.
But my path would not turn out to be that one.
The memory of that state of awareness during the heart operation, really was a revival
of my Being to our very nature.
And from there the guiding thread of the events of my life began and became my guide.
I was trying to make sense of everything so that I could frame the events of that fascinating
adventure in the proper context.
The mysterious and surprising thing that is the life that I decided to live on this earth,
in this body.
Then, 11 years after the heart operation and after having gone through a lightning bolt
marriage with an immediate separation, I began a courageous journey of self-discovery.
This search would yield all the reasons and truth as to why and how I ended up at the
altar with someone who was the opposite person to me that I could ever have met.
I started psychotherapy to manage the stress, frustration, anxiety, dismay, and loss of
a marriage.
I had barely begun and immediately ended with a divorce looming ahead.
After just a few therapy sessions, I experienced the first in a series of what I would define
with the unique term, 'Awakening of Conscience.'
I re-experience what happened in the operating room 11 years ago.
It was the same experience.
Suddenly, I heard a muffled sound in my left ear.
I was 'delicately' thrown out of my body.
Afterwards, every time that it happened again, I recognized in the small deafness, the vibration
of Creation - the AUM.
From this new perspective being outside of my body, I landed at the edge of another dimension
of existence.
It was a dimension above time and space where everything that exists is bliss, harmony,
freedom, and perfection.
Everything that happens is perfect because it accords perfectly with a cosmic order in
which we all take part.
In an instant, I knew that the life we live is an illusion.
It's not real because it's a creation of our minds.
We continually create thoughts and then project these thoughts outside of the mind, just as
cinematic frames are projected onto a screen.
In that moment, I knew that real life is something other than what we think it is.
We all are expressions of a Love energy.
It is from which we come and where we are destined to return so as to merge once again
in this original Oneness which our minds make us believe we have lost.
This place is Paradise and our Union with the All.
In my first experience and also in all the succeeding ones I experience a state of merging
with the All, the one which the oriental traditions define as 'samadhi' or state of cosmic merging.
So, I lived the experience of fusion with Creation many more times.
The first experience was at 16 years of age.
Even if the veil of forgetfulness swallowed it up for a while, the trace of it was always
alive inside me and drove me again to the revelation of the Truth of existence.
I had the experience of merging with everything that lives and vibrates in this Universe.
I felt myself one with the mountains which were in front of me, with the lakes; I felt
One with the sea and the tides; I felt there was no separation between me and the clouds.
While I was in this experience, I communicated with humans and animals.
I knew what other people were thinking and what they were feeling.
I knew who was behind closed doors.
And I remained in that state of merging for days and days.
To sum it up, I can say that I received the gift of the experience of being back and joined
with the All.
I carried the awareness that this All is one unique Energy which goes from a refined level
and down through increasingly denser levels according the mental state which is having
the experience.
Thanks to the gifts of reliving the experience, I know that life is eternal and unbroken and
that death, the way we see it on earth, doesn't exist.
It's only a trip to another plane of existence.
From my first experience up until today, I am understanding that every day that I live
on earth in this body, I am to experience joy and bliss here.
The lives we live here on earth don't happen by chance; our lives are a direct consequence
of what the mind creates.
I am here on earth to open my heart every day to unconditional love.
I am here in this body to leave behind every remaining fear and attachment.
I am here on earth to express every day the joy that I am.
I am here to discover here and now, how much more space for freedom lies deep within me.
I am here to learn freedom and expand it throughout the world around me.
I am here on earth to live happiness and lightness of being.
I am here in this body and in this dimension of space and time to learn that each and every
moment is the only reality which exists.
Everything else is an illusion created by thoughts created by the mind.
I am here to remember that in every moment, I can rediscover who I really am and that
I am here to have fun and to play because this world is the joyful creation of the Divine.
I am here on this earth because I have the full and holy right to do everything that
makes me happy and it is my duty to create even more joy in order to contribute to the
expansion and the happiness of all and everything in Creation.
I came into this body, on this earth, to be lighthearted and carefree, here and now.
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As Always, Stay Blessed!