[gentle music]
- I'm just gonna put all your hair up
'cause it's a hot day.
I'm not gonna be able to make the back of your hair perfect
'cause you keep moving.
Give me a kiss.
[kisses on cheek]
Thank you.
It's important to let her try all the things
that she wants to do,
because I was able to do everything that I wanted to do
and try all these different things 'cause my mom
just knew the importance of it
and that's why I grew up to wear so many hats I think.
But she's really into like fishing and dancing
and, what else do you like to do?
You like to fish?
You like to dance?
You like to play guitar?
You like to play the drums?
You like to take pictures?
You like to swim?
You like to play basketball?
What else do you like to do?
- And play.
- Play.
- You like to play, you're really good at playing.
You're really smart too.
I lived in downtown Los Angeles for a while
and as much as I loved, like, the really inspirational,
really like, youthful city space,
I really understand the value of like, coming home
and you know, having peace.
I am in a very incredible religion called regla de ocha.
I actually had a spirit.
I had a [indistinct] tell me
that less would always be more for me and my daughter.
It didn't register until I came across the house.
I think home is anywhere that just feels like love.
I lived in a lot of places that didn't feel like home,
whether it was because of the environment
or maybe who I was living with or places that you go home
and it still feels like work.
But I come here and it literally feels like I'm exhaling.
Like it literally feels like [exhales],
you know, I can finally breathe.
And I think to me, that's, that's love, you know
and those little baby footsteps were running around
all over the place.
I think that I underestimated what I needed.
And then I had a kid, now I get to see this reflection
of like what a human needs.
Air and sun and food and water and animals and joy.
And I think seeing her get all that,
it reflected that I need to prioritize this, you know,
as my home life as well.
And then it fed my inner child
and it fed my peace and it fed, you know,
the things I completely bypassed for years,
because I was just working and working and working.
But yeah, now I know like it has to be this way.
You know?
[gentle music]
- [Destin Conrad] I met you when I was like 15
and I'm about to be 22, 22.
- Wow.
I can't believe you're an adult.
- I'm an adult, grown.
- Grown.
- [Dustin] I feel like I've changed a lot.
I mean, I was a child when we met.
- [Kehlani] And you finally got cuter.
[everyone laughs]
We all like worked with each other a bunch.
I can say my friendships are a big reason
why I'm able to do so many different things,
because we all teach each other new things.
- Yeah. You learn from each other.
- What works and what doesn't work.
We're very like vocal about that.
- Yeah. Jamie told me my, my last album was ass.
[everyone laughs]
Oh my God.
My mother's an addict, always in and out.
My father passed when I was one.
My aunt raised me.
This internal battle with like,
where do I actually belong?
Who's my family?
Like, my childhood was completely lacking instability.
I for sure feel like I belong now.
I mean, I've created my belonging.
If that makes sense.
I think that I struggled with that, because I was a child.
You know, and all you know
is the people around you that love you.
But when you're older,
your definition of family changes so much.
- Kay was pregnant and then had the baby
when we were living together.
Oh my God.
- I had a lot of help.
It was great.
Cause when I came home, I was just like exhausted
and like, not clueless,
'cause I don't think I was clueless at all,
but it was so nice to come home
and have so much support
and good energy in the house.
And Adeya now has like so many extended aunts and uncles
because of like my friends and people who were around
from, you know, the beginning
and some of her favorites are right here.
So I'm super grateful.
24 hours at 17,
I probably would've went to sleep at like 4am,
doing God knows what.
Drinking, smoking, maybe something else.
Maybe I was just coming down off acid,
making music with a bunch of friends
who probably didn't even last this long
or weren't my real friends.
It was nothing like the actual peace that is the 24 hours
I have now.
I don't consider myself worthy of the title 'photographer'
but I am really, really into photography.
Wow. This is so cool.
- [Man] It's like a billboard size.
You can grow these things to Google size.
- Why'd you have to show me this?
Why do I feel like I need it?
I do it for the joy I get of seeing my own photos developed,
versus I had this immediate business thought,
if I'm gonna turn it into something or do something with it.
I'm just here, you know, winging it, having fun with it.
- 800 both of them on the 120 and then the 35 milligram.
- I need some, do you have 400 on the 120?
- Yes.
- I need both.
- Both. Okay.
- For some reason we put our business hats on
and what we do becomes a business and not a hobby anymore.
Like we focus on perfection,
because we're then in competition with people,
in order to turn this into something that makes money
for us and sustains our lives.
I had to strip back the business part.
I had to do it with music first.
Like let me stop thinking about like, oh, I'm at this level,
I need a radio hit,
which led me to think about every other area of my life.
And at the end of the day, it's just me
and my voice in the studio and a pen
or it's me and my camera or it's me and you know, a notepad
and listening to a song and thinking of an idea for it.
Like, I'm really just back with just my mind.
My biggest fear is that I will get to the end
of my life and have regrets because I held back
from doing all the projects that I was excited about,
because of some fear of how big they wouldn't get.
I don't care if a thousand people watch it, listen to it.
If three people watch it
and they love it at the end of the day, I wanted to do it.
And who knows, it might be on some like Vivian Meyer
one day.
Somebody picks up on it and then a million people love it.
I'm just in the business of doing
whatever the fuck I wanna do.
'Cause life is too short and not to get more of it,
but I've had a lot of young people that are my friends pass
in the last couple years,
and they didn't get to do everything that they dreamed of
and wanted to do.
So I wanna do all the things.
I don't care.
If you guys like my music, that's great.
Keep loving my music.
It's never gonna end.
It's gonna keep coming.
I'm gonna keep putting at music, but I'm all also gonna do
every other thing that I think is cool for myself.
[gentle music]