tell us why you are here and where you're from
I'm from Lithuania which is in Europe and I'm here because I want to grow I
want to know my identity in Christ and I want to be useful for Jesus so can you
please just just start from the beginning and go from there
yeah so I come from a difficult family I was born in 90s in a very difficult time
in Lithuania we just got our freedom back from Russia so the country didn't
didn't really have any laws or or any proper structure as a country should
have and my dad was a very wealthy businessman we were one of the
wealthiest families in Lithuania and he had the business in Russia and when he
came back to Lithuania to all of this mess
he got terrorized by mafia and he started fighting against that so I grew
up in fear I grew up in fear for my life my mom grew up in fear for her life and
yeah there was a point that was reached where some someone had to die the head
of the Mafia or my dad and my dad was murdered with his brother I was seven
years old and I remember this rage and this hate was just born in me and I was
I was just feeling that there's no justice in this world and I was dealing
with so much fear at the same time as well that things will go bad in my life
and and my family was always facing all of these you know misfortunes all of
these tragedies you know in my family line it was so common to for the
parents to bury their own children we had suicides you know and I was just
when I was growing up I was a hearing just how victorious the enemy is over my
family and you don't have hope in that kind of life I didn't have
hope I didn't have faith I started hurting myself and I was eight and I was
put on antidepressants for 11 years I didn't have an identity I was so lost
and confused about so many things in life
I really desire to know God I really wanted to ask him so many questions
about why these things happened to me and when you're so broken you want to
know the future you want to know what the future has for you
so I started turning to you know astrologers to mediums to fortune
tellers I wanted to know I wanted to be safe in my future just wanted because
the root was hate the root was just this brokenness and I started dabbling in
that myself when I was a teenager I got so interested in tarot cards in
astrology I started you know learning that teaching like learning that myself
I wanted to have a business around New Age practices about around crystals
around all of that and I thought I'm doing good you know I
thought there's something as white magic I thought that you can actually help
people prevent tragedies in life when you know into the future and stuff
like that I didn't grow up in a Christian family so I didn't I didn't
know that there's a relationship with Jesus you can have and and I never
thought that he's available to me yeah so you know and I just had this group of
friends later on that we were all interested into the same things into the
same practices and we were called enlightened in light we thought
that we reached an enlightened state where we know about how karma works how
you know I found so much peace I thought back then I found so much peace and
reincarnation knowing like oh there's actually some meaning and everything
that happened to me and stuff but it was just a counterfeit from the enemy and
you know and I was looking at my friends one day and I was thinking like oh we're
so enlightened we're so like you know full of this wisdom ancient wisdom but
we're so broke and we're drinking we're partying none of our lives testify of
peace you know of joy none of that stuff you know and I was just sitting one
day you know in my chair and just looking my friend is getting ready for
like a shamanic ceremony and like just thinking like we were so lost
like this is this is not happening and and I remember I started questioning my
own practices my own believes you know I was constantly struggling with anxiety
drinking partying you know I didn't have a dad so I was looking for a loving
relationships I was looking for fulfillment
in relationships and yeah just a
mess and I remember I saw this one testimony and there was this woman she
thirty-third for 30 years she was actually practicing the same things I
wanted to build my life on and in that testimony she was denying everything she
was saying please burn my books you know I'm refunding your businesses the ones
that I helped you influence you know she just gave it all to you know and
all for Jesus you know she was a millionaire in that she was working
with Hollywood but you know and I was thinking wow if this she's telling this
like everything I want I want to have this and she's denying this for Jesus
and I was just thinking there must be some meaning in that there must be some
truth in that you know and and she led me into you know into salvation prayer
and you know I repented this unveiling happened to me that you know I
know my Creator and I was turning away from him I was choosing not to follow
him and all of this sin just this heaviness this weight of sin of this idolatry fell on my shoulders I remember I was just repenting for
everything just like crying and and this peace I received the baptism of the Holy
Spirit you know
I didn't have any Christian friends around me I didn't have anyone you know
I was just in my own little like basement apartment and on my knees and
and you know I just I didn't even know what hit me but I just know that that's
God you know that was my creator every cell was worshiping him in me you
know and and I remember I was screaming Jesus in my apartment to my roommates I
was saying I finally found him I finally found the God you know that cares for me
and you know such a joyful moment it was something I was looking for all my life
and yeah and I received deliverance instantly it was very very powerful and
I was telling all my friends about it I was I didn't care I was going to cafes
if they worked in a cafe I would come in a cafe you know it tells so loud that so
many people would hear and just I was so excited and still I'm so excited to
share that you don't have to be alone in your brokenness that you don't have to
be alone when you lose your loved one you know he's so perfect he's a perfect
daddy for me now you know the one that I was longing for all my life and he will
take care of you he will take care of you in ways you can't imagine
you can't imagine he knows the hairs on your head you know he knows what you
need in your times of distress of depression of anxiety you know after
after I received the Holy Spirit you know I was attacked that dreams you
know all of these innocent practices I thought I was practicing just was
revealed in a spiritual sense you know I was having sleep paralysis I was
tormented by demons at night and sexual abuse and I didn't know my authority you
know and they were using that against me but I was praying to God God lead me
lead me to people that would equip me in this battle you know and hungry
generation was revealed to me and praise God
and I learned about my authority I learn how to take ground I learn how to you
know because because we have authority over demons and and how to take
back my territory how to take back my home you know yeah and just you know
life is just so good with Jesus now okay you had shared with us after your father
had passed you were filled with this rage and hatred can you tell me when did
that transition can you tell us a little bit about that yeah so actually it
wasn't that first day it was the next day that I was talking with Jesus you
know nobody told me that you can have a relationship but I instantly knew that
there's a relationship with him and he told me that if you want to be free from
this hate you need to forgive your dad's murderer you need to let me judge him you
cannot be the judge of his life and when I gave him to God I gave the
situation to God you know I felt this weight it left I felt like this glasses
of hate was taking off my eyes I could see nature I was running in nature I was
looking at creation because everything was worshipping God and I could finally
see without the glasses of hate and judgment
you know man is so beautiful it was just absolutely so beautiful so please tell
us now we can see it all over you might tell us a little bit of how your life is
now yeah life is so free you know living with Jesus you're just so free from
so many things and he's so quick to provide to provide the way out when
you're struggling you know and even in times where things are not easy you still know you have this father that cares for you with all of this witchcraft with all of this black magic white magic you
know you have to understand that you are dabbling with a source that seeks your
destruction it wants to destroy you and when you turn to the one who
actually loves you and the one that created
you and you were made to be loved by him you know life is just worth living you
know and there is nothing that hell took away from you
that heaven can't restore your testimony is so rich and so full but can you
please just leave us with what is your word of advice for those who are
watching that may be dabbling in that white magic just tell us what your
advice is you know I know where you're coming from I know that you want to know
God I know how that feels like but you know give Jesus a chance if you have
never given him a chance just give him a chance you know and just let him let him
do things for you you don't need to be stuck in your rituals in your in your
ways of trying to figure out God you know let him reveal yourself to you ask
him into your life