Hi how are you are you Jason Jason yeah I like this blue suit he looks done
thank you Jason is so adorable I do I think Jason values the time and
realizes that there's not a ton of it so he is trying to make the most of it I
know that we haven't had the first date until today but later I have a little
crush on you and nervous yeah I always feel so good with Jason he
always thinks to me smile and laugh and damn Jason can kiss
I feel really confident about where Becca and I are at and where we can go
you got cool hockey mom and your blood they're faster there's a strength within
our relationship that I personally have never felt
Becca means so much to me I am feeling so strongly about what we have I don't
say things unless I mean them and I want to make sure what I do it the time is
right and that I mean every word I say I'm so insanely wildly in love I look
forward to getting out one day looking back and I tell her that I look forward
to spending the rest of my life with you would you put this outside of your home
we could swing it I think I could swing it
we're walking out of the temple and I thought about the future and I'm just
like all of a sudden I feel like I couldn't see him in that future it kind
of clicked and I was like maybe this isn't the right relationship for me all
I can say is that I am falling so hard for you
but I'm there with the other two guys already
I'm really shocked I didn't see that coming I put myself in a position to
feel this way didn't feel that strongly
I'm not the guy lays his heart on the line the way I've done it's tough to
have it taken away it's difficult
to really comprehend
I just do quick
I just don't have the answers for the way what'd you end up doing
like I literally just did what are you did to me
I never expected to come into this and develop the
feelings but I did - no I'm a Nazi you know that
smile and I fell in love with all those special things and stuff
des are sweet what are you thinking mmm that's it's heart-wrenching it's
difficult flashback what is it about that that brings you to tears yeah so
Becca and I had an interesting journey I was 221 guys not on the date first week
and then things progressed at a pretty quick speed and I think of any of the
guys at 28 I was the only guy in which she had met my best friends I had met
her best friends we had shared experiences of loved ones who we've lost
we shared pictures associated with that she met my family and as you heard there
was a physical connection to us so we connected on all competencies of a
relationship that I want in a partner and the depth of it was greater than
I've ever had with anyone else I can see you were head over heels in love with
this woman she was it yeah there will always be a special place in my heart
for Becca you know she's gonna find her happiness
and I'm gonna find mine and it's difficult to have an ex in what you want
to continue a friendship well yeah she's one that I hope that one day we can get
to that point the fantasy suite night it seemed like everything went great mm-hmm
until it didn't sure what happened you know I like to self-reflect and be
self-aware yeah and there wasn't one bump in the road until we sat down for
dinner at least from my perspective yeah so it was it was tough to comprehend now
that you've seen her reaction to saying goodbye to you our reactions were
similar and the fact that there was tears and there was pain I think my
tears were associated with that I lost what I was looking forward to as a life
partner a wife a mother of my kids and I don't know that I got the closure that I
was asking for yeah but she got the closure she needed to move on to find
her happiness and moreover that gives me the conclusion I mean
hometowns are always special there was something about Buffalo it's a great
place and it'll always have a soft spot in my heart we also saw the relationship
of your brother and what that means to you yeah I'm gonna take Oprah's line but
I say it with all the passion you know love is love is love and it doesn't
matter to me if you are gay straight lesbian bisexual transgender if you have
a strong relationship everybody in this country can take away competencies in
that relationship and make it the best to be their own and I look up to my
brother and my brother he's good light on that look I have to have some tough
conversations with bachelorettes one I really didn't enjoy with Becca is how
many times she told me that you were the best kisser
what so all these guys are wondering what's the secret well let's let's start
with us she forgot my name everyone remembers that right after I kissed her
she didn't forget
they see the pleasure have music thanks for letting us into your life all of it
is give it up for Jason
you