my summer is ripe the raspberries are perfect for eating the calindala and hollyhocks are in
full bloom it's beautiful and i cannot wait to make something delicious with my harvest
this week i realized something important i've made so many videos about my transition to a new life
shared the ups and downs and yet in my heart i still haven't moved on from my old little cottage
still finding myself missing my old routines and doings everything that was so familiar
everything is so new and different i can't help but think back to my old life and suddenly
see things as so much simpler and yet they weren't not really life is always beautiful
and messy i still felt complicated emotions back then too it's funny how we look at the
past through rose-colored lenses remembering what we want to not necessarily what was
i was so happy at my old cottage but also impatient to start a new life with my partner
if there is one truth my little home and experiences have taught me is that your
relationship with life is one not unlike that of a friend or partner you must fall in love with
it again and again find new ways to see joy and new routines and habits to help you along the way
then
i think it's okay to have complicated emotions and resist change even when we want it
humans are funny that way and like learning anything new it takes time and dedication to
reap the rewards and we must allow ourselves to step into the unknown from time to time
if we feel that the benefits are well worth the risk
my little home is now a memory and my new life is here in my present full of all the necessities of
shelter safety and love and so there really isn't any reason to hold on to the past
because all i ever needed was here all along
so i do have some exciting news and that is that i am sitting on a couch
we have been looking for a couch for a very long time and if you order a couch it can be quite
difficult to deliver it here because of the long winding dirt roads and um we finally did it we
finally found one so we finally have somewhere to sit while i've been going on this journey of
learning to handle my emotions while i'm going through such a drastic shift in life i um did
notice that i have been dwelling on my former cottage quite a bit on social media i notice
it is quite popular to showcase the transition to a new life be that moving to a new country
starting life after marriage or just moving into a new house i think of course it is really exciting
and fun to share all that but i do think there's a side to it that can be just so so difficult
you know as you may know i was a military child my father was a naval officer in the military
for my entire life and so i moved around a lot and i moved to new countries very often because we
were going to different places and moving to different bases and there was always this
side of it that was so exciting and wonderful and beautiful and the side you want to photograph and
share but then there was this other side of it was just it was really hard it was an enormous shift
in change everything was different there were very few things that felt familiar about your new
lifestyle and your new routine and it could take days if not weeks if not years to get really used
to a new pace of life in a different place and thankfully i know that what got me through all big
changes in my life was the people i love you know and my family being there made anything possible
luke being with me on this journey of starting a new life makes everything possible and and makes
it all better and easier but it can still be very challenging and of course in the scheme of things
it's so normal and not really a big deal at the end of the day everyone needs an adjustment period
but i thought it was just worth sharing because i think it would be maybe useful to talk about it's
okay that things are not perfect off the bat it's okay that things are messy and rough sometimes
as you figure things out in a totally new type of life and i have had so many incredible moments of
joy and so happy i made this decision but also we've had moments where luke and i have been wow
former lifestyle seems so much simpler compared to this all these experiences are bringing us closer
so yes i just thought it might be really great to talk a little bit about how we often romanticize
the past when we are facing challenges in the present but yes in realization that i was dwelling
more on the past than perhaps was helpful to me i decided you know to try to turn my
energy a little more towards the future and you may have seen that in my last
couple videos where i focused a lot more on decorating and making my house a home and
making it feel like a cozy space you know just ready to accept all those incredible new memories
oop i sorry sorry for the sudden shift and uh change the uh mailman stopped by
to deliver a package and my dog went crazy and my cat went crazy everyone went crazy so we have
finally brought peace back to the household so i can add my last note which was to say
thank you thank you so much for all your kindness and support if you happen to have ordered my book
i'm going to go more into detail with this in a future video but after taking a look at the final
copy my editor and i realized that there were just some formatting changes that really had to be made
and so to try to ensure the you know kind of best quality and best end result we just decided to go
ahead and push back the release date to be able to make those changes so if you order
the book and we're anticipating for it to come out this month i sincerely sincerely apologize
for the delay it is still coming out this year i do appreciate your um understanding so thank you
again for the support in that way it is a dream come true and i hope you all have a wonderful week
and you take care of yourselves i'm sending you all my love and i will see you very soon goodbye