hey guys welcome back to my channel your
virtual ticket to Japan I just wanted to
finalize the whole health issue and
problem because I just want to be done
with it and I want to talk about more of
Japan the reason why I have been talking
about it is because I have slipped into
a very deep depression for the past
month or so and I was struggling a lot
because having reactions to soy and egg
in a country that's mainly those
ingredients has been really scary and
tough and not easy like at all because
going out to a restaurant is scary
because everything literally has soy in
it and a lot of Japanese dishes and
things that I really really loved I
can't eat
so I'm trying my best to learn again to
eat and cook and is this not the same I
just want to tell you what happened and
what I'm going to be doing to heal
myself this has I'm not giving advice to
anybody that has anything else this is
just based on my issue and what I need
to do to fix myself I went to the clinic
to get an endoscopy done and it was a
very traumatizing experience because
first of all when we when you went into
the clinic and they sat you down they
put an IV in you and they gave you this
like liquid to drink and this medicine
and all that stuff to kind of put you in
a sedated state is that even the right
way to say it they put they sedate you
basically but they don't fully sedate
you to the point where you're sleeping
so you still feel everything but it's
not painful so that was really like hard
to do is kind of not fun so I got all
that done and after I was finished they
put me in a room so I could sleep for
like thirty minutes and then I woke up
and they basically talked about what
they found so the doctor did a biopsy of
my stomach and found no overgrowth of
bacteria which is such good news
and they found no Candida because if
he's if it was Candida you would see a
lot of white in the esophagus and white
in the stomach but what he did find was
a hernia yeah and that was the
uncomfortable feeling that I felt
thinking that I had acid reflux which I
do have a little bit of but it's not
severe acid reflux a sickly the liquid
in your stomach or the fluids in your
stomach kind of come up through your
esophagus and this type of hernia
there's two different types there's one
that you really need surgery for and one
that you don't and I have the one that
you don't so I'm currently on medication
basically like the the link between my
esophagus and my stomach is loose so he
gave me some medicine and I'm supposed
to go back and see him in a couple weeks
to see how that has been working so far
the medicine that I'm on has been
working it's not an antibiotic or
anything it's not a disease it's just
something that's making everything very
complicated and could get worse in the
future so he found a hernia
I have symptoms of IBS which is
irritable bowel syndrome and I also have
intense reactions to my allergies so
whatever I react to is going to make all
of my symptoms worse it's going to TMI
make me constipated have diarrhea all
that stuff also my doctor asked me about
history of anxiety and depression and I
do have mild depression I do have a lot
of anxiety and it stems from a lot of
things in my past it's something that I
really really need to heal first so my
body can heal normally I know a couple
people personally who have had all of
the sudden these this onset of a zillion
different types of allergies and they
couldn't eat anything after practicing a
lot of meditation and taking the correct
type of vitamins and eating a correct
diet they were able to get rid of all of
their allergies even the more severe
ones which is possible but very rare to
heal so I don't have too much confidence
in healing my peanut allergy I'm gonna
hold on to some hope but I don't think
that's gonna happen but basically my
doctor referred to referred me to a
hospital to do immuno
which I did when I was a kid so it's
basically allergy shots and you keep
getting them you they give you a little
bit of what you're allergic to and then
you just kind of grow a type of immunity
to it it doesn't always work but it can
help so I'm going to be doing that as
well as going to a holistic specialist
someone that does Keane seeking Keane
theology I can't even say it basically
it's like a type of meditation and
mental therapy and I want to do that but
I've always wanted to do those things
because honestly like the mind is
connected to your gut and my gut has a
lot of problems so what I want to try is
to get rid of my anxiety and to change
my thought patterns and all of that
stuff and so I'm going to be doing EFT
which is a type of meditation called
tapping and this specialist has done it
before so she's going to guide me
through it and I know a couple people
who have went to her here so I'm glad
that I found that someone recommended
her to me so I'm gonna be doing that
it's a little pricey but it's a pretty
good deal compared to other countries I
think I think it's like a hundred and
fifty dollars to go for a session and
then you can also go to Reiki meditation
course so I kind of want to do that and
I don't want to because I'm the type of
person that just feels a lot of pressure
to respond to things and I always say
yes to too many things and it's
exhausting me and I don't want to do
that to myself I don't want to put that
pressure on myself anymore and I don't I
want to focus with focus on myself and
not focus on other people's issues other
people's problems I want to be a little
bit selfish for a while so I can heal my
stomach because I have a lot of
irritation and I wholeheartedly believe
that my depression and anxiety is linked
to all of these issues and I had a lot
of stress and intense worries and things
like that before I developed this
allergy out of nowhere
so like I just want to focus on my life
and my health not worry about always
having to contact people or text people
just want to focus on what I want to do
and myself and my relationship and my
body and mind like that's the most
important thing I'm very grateful that I
got answers and I eliminated everything
that could be wrong because I was
constantly thinking like oh well maybe I
have this and maybe I have that and I'm
glad that I did go to a doctor to
eliminate all the things that I thought
I had so I'm glad that I did it and I'm
glad that I know where to start and how
to heal I just want to learn to to eat
again and to take care of myself because
I haven't had any type of teacher or
anybody to guide me through the mental
issues that I have I think a lot of
people struggle with anxiety and
depression and all that stuff I would
like to discuss my sessions on this
channel if you guys would want to hear
about it and obviously when I do share
cooking videos they're not going to be
like amazing recipes it's just gonna be
recipes that I can eat when I get really
stressed and sad I start to get
psoriasis again which grows on my scalp
and I've had that all my life so I want
to be able to control it so that's why
I'm going to a holistic specialist and
that is why I'm doing the things that
I'm doing to have and live a happier
life despite the things that are trying
to hold me back if you think positively
and you change your train of thought and
you do different types of meditations
like EFT or Reiki or whatever you choose
it can help in the healing process
because I know there are a lot of people
that did that had something from birth
that they can't get rid of and I
understand that for sure that it can
always help but for
my type of condition and for a lot of
other conditions I think that training
the mind to get rid of your anxiety and
your stress and learning to relax and
learning to not worry about what other
people think or say or feel like you
have to do something I feel like if you
get rid of all of those habits but your
body can start to naturally heal in
certain ways but I'm not saying that if
you have some some terrible terrible
disease that you you were born with or
you're already in like the the last
stage of something like I don't think
that it can help completely a lot of
things like allergies asthma anything
that has to do with the stomach or colon
or whatever learn to heal by relaxing
and training your mind to not think so
negatively there's a lot of cases of
people that have healed this way so
that's my next step because there's
nothing doctors can do for my issue in
my condition the only thing that they
can recommend is immunotherapy and the
medication that was given to me to help
fix my hernia that's where I'm at right
now and I don't want to offend anybody
like that's not what I'm you guys should
do what you feel is best for your body
and your lifestyle and I'm not giving
any like I'm not saying you have to do
this this is just what I'm going to be
doing and this is how I'm going to try
and heal I'm horrible at explaining
things I'm horrible at talking about
things like in general so like I always
try not to misconstrue things so I hope
that this video isn't me telling people
that have the the issues that I have to
heal this way if you have other ways
that you want to heal or whatever I
please do because it's all up to you
it's your choice it's your decision it's
your body and how you decide to approach
things yeah I appreciate the people that
did DM me and email me cancer everybody
but for those of you who I talked to I
appreciate your help
YouTube videos and recipes and all that
stuff I really really appreciate it
don't worry the next video is all girl
abroad it's gonna be all about Japan and
a little bit more of an update of what's
been going on in my life so I hope you
guys will watch I wanted to upload this
video first because a lot of people were
asking Oh what happened and are you okay
and and yes I'm okay I think I will be
okay as long as I take the steps to heal
I'm lucky to be in a relationship with
somebody who listens to me and who
supports me and who wants to do these
things together like we want to do yoga
together we want to go to meditation
sessions together we want to to heal
together I need to learn to accept that
this is happening and accept that I am
safe and I can heal and this isn't the
end of my life because I I was very
upset because I had so much so many
plans to travel the world and I still
want to so I was I was really down about
not being able to do those things and
yeah so I'm taking the medicine I'm
taking more vitamins and another thing
that I also want to try is getting off
the pill because I've been on it for 10
years I think and I often on actually
and I just want to finish it and get off
of it as soon as possible to see if
there's any change in my body and my
health for now I'm going to be trying a
couple things like immunotherapy and
going to see the holistic specialist so
I'm glad that I can I have a plan and a
strategy and we'll see what happens and
how it goes again for like the third
time I'm not saying that if you have
another specific disease that this kind
type of thing will help you but for
anything that you have I think changing
your mindset and how you approach these
things is going to to help heal you I
hope that make sense because like I said
I'm bad at explaining everything I hope
that you'll watch my next video
it will be up on Sunday in the morning
here in Japan and we can get back on
track and in six weeks beauty will be
here so we'll be filming a lot together
so I hope that you guys will enjoy our
time finding apartments and moving and
creating together and traveling and all
that stuff because I'm really excited
about that and that's something to look
forward to so anyway thank you guys for
watching and I'll see you guys next time
bye
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