it's looking at me hi guys today we're gonna do something fun we were shooting
a few of the little books and I honestly had a moment where I just like went into
the bathroom and it cried a little bit because I just like felt so
uncomfortable in my own skin good morning till they so this weekly
vlog starts with the Tuesday because yesterday I decided to take the day of
filming except they did film a video for you guys but I decided not to vlog so I
can focus on getting everything done I'm trying to take it a day at a time
there's so much going on before the holidays we finally booked our little
family getaway which I'm super excited about so the countdown is on we are
leaving to Mexico in January with the kids and baby max who's gonna be three
months old that's so crazy today we are going to shoot the holiday lookbook I'm
really excited about that one last year when we shot the holiday lookbook it was
just MI and I and actually I got Jeff from Instagram because I posted a stern
Instagram that I needed an assistant for that day and she volunteered so she
actually worked with us that day and today it's been a year and she's a
full-time valaria ink team member so that's really exciting I feel like we're
gonna have a little celebration today that's it I'm really looking forward to
showing you guys the look I put together for the holiday lookbook it's gonna be
fun it's gonna be lots of sparkles and fake snow
hopefully I requested fix now
shooting the holiday lookbook this is what the behind-the-scenes disaster
looks like most important problem of the day
it should be like but I please everybody why here it's fine it's looking at me
we're done
what's your dance I can do one are you hating your lives thinking about no I
like dancing just come here to the beat
like you know how did it which I do thank you
next thank you next mom you guys look so pretty and jealous like this
I feel pretty hey I was so pretty that's confidence my friends yeah that
was seven just about a few girls that I met rested at the mall was shopping for
the holiday log book she's like do you feel the pressure to always look put
together when you're going out because there was one youtuber that was like
saying how would really affected her emotionally and mentally and I was like
if you watched my blogs do you see what's happening
no no shame I am Who I am either love me or love me don't hate me just love me
excuse me
hey at least someone loves me why don't you hug me today only your name where is
my little baby what you guys doing you're watching the dancing again excuse
me excuse me why didn't you ask before you turned it on
well rock star when are you gonna dance like this I know I did dance like that
really oh wow another that's like that do I know how
to dance like that no with something have a good day and
now haha now I love you so much tomorrow is gonna go a woman and it's going to be
very good and catch is gonna come and she's gonna do the Christmas tree and
then we're gonna have a Christmas tree so hey go good and bye I'm the dad our
cold hi guys
okay I haven't really blocked so much this week and I thought I'm gonna start
really going at it today but I went to sleep last night with a sore throat and
now I feel like this flu is coming over me I think that my body is screaming for
rest so I'm gonna push through this week and I'm gonna rest on the weekend
because I have some immediate things that needs to be done and this here it's
real bad we had an interesting meeting this morning and now I'm just on my way
I stopped by the house we're getting the house decorated which I'm so excited
about and the boys will be super happy and I just had to feed Maximus and now
we're on our way
made a chemist I'll let you guys figure out what we're up to
we're just trying to bring a few of long time dreams to life so we'll see
about that and I'm gonna pick up against
it's me to go on the conference call with Jeff so I hate that I can't share a
lot with you guys I just feel like to get this thing sorted out before I put
it out there into the world I know it's annoying I'm being annoying sorry but
I'm so excited for you to see what we've been working on for a while now
and obviously everything happening at the same time like giving birth and
having a newborn and developing all these things and still creating content
and stuff fun but I'm super grateful that I'm in this position don't get me
wrong and I'm not complaining just need a little nap for a few days
okay it's cold when we got the house decorated we got Kate from Caprice
design to come in because if I had to wait for me to do this it will never
happen look how pretty she is
these are the socks thing from last year we have to add one more Max's loving is
life right now with all these lights Maxie you see so we are Jewish we are
celebrating Hanukkah but I grew up in a Russian home where we also celebrated
Nova God which is a little bit different than like Christmas per se like it's not
so religious it's more like celebrating like the new year in a way so I was grew
up with the tree and stuff in my house I think it's such a fun tradition to be
part of and I'm enjoying celebrating it and last year the kids like loved having
a tree so we decided to do it this year as well huge you can shoot all the
lights from do you see them to show this beautiful light
Oh Maxie is this gonna be our new hobby now that Christmas jeans very silly wise
itself because it's very then you take off your shoes take off your shoes take
off your shoes we're getting to a point where it's already unacceptable today
I'm spending a full day on a panel with the big skincare company where they're
basically invited me to do brainstorming about their products and a new launches
the way they do social media things like that so I'm excited to get more insight
about what's coming up you know for the skincare world like what new staff
everyone's working on and that's it going for a very clean look today and
I'm trying to figure out if I should wear the sparkly booties or the suede
booties I wish you guys could help me we're gonna figure it out I'm there from
I think like 8 a.m. is my pickup time until about 4 p.m. so it's gonna be a
whole day thing and then I'm coming home I'm going back to bed because
came emailing us about her elementary school did major throw back wanna spread
okay we have a little break it's been really really cool to be part of this
panel we're still not done but it's basically just basically talking about
different launches but different skincare products because we're so in
tune with their audience what are we kind of prefer in skincare
so it's a lot of kind of getting into y-axis consumers one part of the skin
care products so been really informative and really fun and I'm in the bathroom
right now which is always such a great setting to talk about things you know
okay and I'm gonna go back now also I forgot my breast pump and my dear
husband the love of my life I texted him and told him that I forgot it so he
arranged someone to go and pick it up and bring it to me he's like my hero in
life I love you a little break for today to pump Kimmy how many times have you
seen my boobs already since I started working yeah my nipples are everyone's
best men down for today now we have to walk the streets the
snowy streets but all of this all the stuff that's the
most important one at least it's not Isis No
we can do that yeah my soy boots are gonna have time of their life first of
all hi ladies you're looking beautiful glowing beautiful angels this is really
creepy inspiration of what what is he doing in this photo - he does not always
that's not like a cool smart right this is so creepy
I'm so scared hi beauty hi beauty BAM
why is there random photos of our children spread all over this like n in
their costumes not just what is this that's my son
what is going on - we have to move them oh my god you might be proud father of
the year what what we'll have to take them out why these are so they're so
creepy this is where I sit what do you care what I do you know what it's not
like I've pictures of like girls whose name is on the wall
I'm joking or it is when you have a perfect husband you have to find stuff
to complain about so you're complaining about the fact
that I have too many pictures of the kids I love you so much Gary please take
out these creepy photos of the children you should thank you for all that
chocolate yeah can we hide these oh no this is our daddy's dog - like John and
I finished last week Wow I've made me put them in the other room great I feel
like there should be a series Gary carrying stuff good husband you like my
government fine we just came anyway we were sending the
boys to swimming and Jake is like I don't want to I was like fast the
government the government have no idea we don't say I'm just I get out we have
a fine from the government just made that up and it just sounded like used
made the government sounds very significant Furman don't get the
government to kiss what are you eating with dinner
popcorn is there new this is us you might be huh how much time do we have we
have an hour mm-hmm let's watch time think there's some
disco okay guys I literally healed myself and one day as I was getting
really sick like you know when your body starts being weak and shaky and weird so
I'm gonna show you what I used first of all oh where is it oh okay
so a king a king niqua like in Babar I said a Tanisha like amnesia there's this
akinesia force it's cold and flu and this one is the tincture but I usually
buy the syrup where basically you add it to hot water it is amazing and you don't
need to add any sweeteners or anything it's not better which is great next
thing that I did was this this is bomb cold storm it's basically
like garlic so instead of eating raw garlic
this is like an extract garlic it is in the flavor of architecture II which is
complete like it's complete bullshit because it tastes disgusting its garlic
and your breath smells but I take it about two to three times a day one
milligram and it's amazing so I was overdosing on all of that yesterday and
then the vitamin C tablets I would just kind of put in water and drink a lot of
water to make sure I'm hydrated and then last but not least because it everything
started from my throat I was drinking tea not too hot because that irritates
my throat just the kind of room temperature to warm
and then I was literally eating like spoonful of raw honey and then the last
thing that I was doing is throat spray that has zinc in it I swear by zinc
space when you have sore throat that's really helps but I don't know where it
is and this honey loves and gifts lasagnas whatever it is but the spray
I've actually like gave I remember one to Emma
every time I have a sore throat anything with zinc will help you anyways
zinc spray that's it it's all I did look at me now what are you doing Oh check
this out I wear this t-shirt look at this this is like the best thing in the
history of life are you kidding me I found these online but how is Missy
not getting squished here he's fine I mean that is so funny this is the
ultimate that dead body
yeah I mean it's not very supportive for the baby he's fine he's good I can flip
them around the other way no that's weird I don't think he likes
it I think he's he's looking for a boobie okay what else will they put in
here try to put been here maybe we've got to put him headfirst maybe that's
what I need to do yeah Wow let's not do that he outgrew
ready to Swansea time to eat boo-boo so how do you love the tree you do
Wow what are you doing with your cuba shirt
let's go light the Chanukah candles guys
no not all of them today's day six Benny
no that's not even recycle pensive are you gonna let me know now okay Mama's
gonna put the shamash on and then jakey is gonna put this one I won't be
ha ha ha key channel fiction limits Motel let's run a lovely Chanukah okay
okay good job and then tomorrow this this and this enough in when Tom and I
went down have some mail baby sleeping I wanted to talk to you guys a little bit
about this thing that happened this week when we were shooting the lookbook I
feel like I'm still getting kind of hit with moments of post partum where you
know I still don't feel like myself I'm still not kind of back to feeling like
me and that's pretty normal I think that my hormones are still all
over the place physically I'm still healing trying to figure it out
obviously the kind of lack of sleep and stuff doesn't really help but I am kind
of excited to start getting slowly back into myself you forget how that's like
misplaced feeling that you feel after you give birth we were shooting a few of
the log books and I honestly had a moment where I just like went into the
bathroom and it cried a little bit because I just like felt so
uncomfortable in my own skin and it's such a weird feeling but I
guess this time it affects me a little bit more just because I kind of tried to
get back to you know my routine right away like I really didn't have any down
time since kind of having max it's obviously you know it's my choice and
it's just it's weird it's a weird kind of place and I'm sure you know all the
Mamas out there will kind of know talking about anyways so I've been kind
of doubting a lot of myself and the way I talked the way moved away look like
there was a lot of doubts that I just I don't really I don't understand what
they're coming from but I know that it's a kind of a transition and it's just a
phase and that's a really I think it's just
emphasized this time because I just kind of went back into working and stuff so
anyways well the exciting part is that I'm finally getting back to working out
and hopefully that will kind of help me to start feeling a little better about
myself I have about 15 pounds to lose but I don't want to lose all of them
there's a reason why I'm in my bra actually I definitely want to focus on
my midsection again I'm kind of not in the rush to lose everything but I do
just want to feel stronger and a little more like but pretty proud of this
little body of mine I have a feeling that I'm gonna be stopping breastfeeding
soon I feel like just because of the schedule I've noticed that I don't
breastfeed as much so my milk supply went down and and Max is kind of over it
in general because we've been supplementing with formula and yeah so I
mean it's not the wave of change is coming my way just wanted to share it
with you guys but I'm definitely gonna do a transformation video whenever I do
gain weight like when I'm not pregnant obviously it does like the way my body
works it all kind of goes into the midsection so the midsection is always
something that has to be very kind of focused on so we will see how we'll be
documenting everything yes yes
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