Hello, it's Wednesday with Chaseypoo and today we are talking about socializing with other men,
cis or tran.
Ah, I love this topic. This is a really great topic, don't know where it came from
but thank you to whoever... like, suggested it. Maybe it was me. I don't think it was me, but whatever.
So I think this is a really interesting topic, because I think it's something that a lot of us suffer from
like, how the fuck do you socialize with other guys? I'm gonna focus mostly on cis guys right now, because
for me socializing with trans guys is really easy, because of the internet. But, um...
cis guys, it's so hard, man. I feel like there's a layer and I'm just so intimidated.
And I think that that's what it is. Like, intimidated by the cis.
So I, like, don't have any cis guys friends. All of my friends are cis women or trans guys.
And I have some cis male acquaintances, at work and from school, but I can't say that there is anyone
who is cis... or, like, my friend's boyfriend. Who like, they've been together for like ten years or something.
Like, I know them. Like, we could hang out, but like... Hanging out alone, I'm still, like, I'm...
I guess I'm just... I'm just an anxious person, if you've never noticed. And my anxiety, I think,
stems from, like, being uncomfortable in the situation, not knowing what to do, feeling intimidated,
feeling overpowered, feeling like the person is better than me and stuff like that, so I feel, like,
really intimidated when there's a cis guy. Even if he's super nice and, like, really easy-going
and stuff like that. I still feel like there's a barrier that I can't penetrate within myself
that will let me be like, "Whatever" around cis guys. And I don't know what it is.
And I'm not saying this to be like, "There's a big difference between cis and trans guys."
Like, not at all. I just... I guess with trans guys I feel like it's easier because we do have the internet
and I do end up talking to a lot of people online, and then we meet up. And the only ways you do that
with cis guys is to, like, hook up. Or go on a date. And even going on a date... like, even when I was
dating my ex, who is a cis guy... I felt intimidated, I guess. And...
No, that's not the...
I don't know. I felt like because I had never been in a relationship with a cis guy as a trans guy,
I didn't know what to do, so I kind of just waited to find out what to do from him. I guess.
And I don't like that. I don't wanna be the person that's waiting and I wanna also be the one that's doing things.
So, I feel like getting rid of this anxiety around cis guys is...
Maybe it wasn't even because he's cis, though.
I think it's just because I have a lot of anxiety. I think that that's it.
I think it would've been like that with anyone, honestly.
So that was a bad example. So, sorry if you're watching this. I didn't mean that.
But I guess what I'm trying to say is...
Like, it's okay to be intimidated by cis guys, becau-- I think I'm just scared.
Because there's... like, they're usually more, like, powerful and stuff. So I think that Emil's video was just, like,
just about being yourself and I try to do that. I try to be like, okay, around social situations.
And I feel like I get along great with my boss who's a cis guy, and that's fine. But, like, is there, like...
I guess because I don't have any more classes or like, I don't really interact with anyone anymore...
I don't know what I'm talking about. You love me though, right?
But yeah, be yourself is a good thing, but also understand that it might just be an intimidation thing.
And that maybe you need to like re-evaluate why you had anxiety around this and just realize that, like,
you know, cis guys also have anxiety and, like, they could also have anxiety talking to other guys,
because especially, like, cis-on-cis, it's like super masc and, like, the competition aspect of cis guys
is just so ridiculous sometimes. And between each other and... I don't know.
I'm not saying it's like that for everyone. Oh my god, honestly I'm sorry. My brain's everywhere,
and I feel like people have been watching my videos and commenting a lot and like...
putting words into my mouth, and like saying things that I really didn't mean.
And I'm like, I didn't mean it like that at all So I'm trying to watch my words, and I just can't.
Like, I'm not saying that all cis guys are like this. I'm just saying from my experience, I'm just intimidated
because I feel like they see me differently, and stuff like that. But I know it's all in my head.
Anyways, I'm gonna just stop this video, I'm having too much anxiety.
This video, like, went at nowhere. Sorry, love you. Bye.