I didn't really want to do this video because quite frankly it makes me look bad,
that i failed my A-levels and i had to
retake a year, but because i know some of you guys will
be feeling as aimless and possibly as lonely...
#lonely#
as i did, i thought, you know what, i have to step up mate
Asalaamu Alaikum guys and indeed welcome
to Smile2jannah and yes like i said...
pardon me
sorry about that... that's a bit of the omelet sandwich coming out there
right now that i've set the tone for the video
let's see, let's see where it goes.
I didn't get the grades that i needed for uni(versity)
so naturally i had to restart the year,
and that was a big problem because there was a lot of pressure on
me academically. I'm the only child, my father passed away when i was one
blah blah blah violins
Are you okay? Are you all right?
I didn't want to let my mom down so obviously, it wasn't nice.
-okay, okay? -Especially when i knew hand on heart,
like some of you guys watching, you need to ask yourself- did i revise as
much as i should have or did i waste time? If you did
waste time then just doing a dua the night before and then not getting
the grades that you need, it's not Allah's fault, you know what i'm saying but i know
at that age you're just looking for someone to blame
and obviously because you don't hear a response from Allah,
it's easy, you know i'm saying.
-Why God, why you doing this to us?
But in reality you know, you know why.
I did a year again and then at the end of the year
alhamdulillah all my grades improved by one, but this time i
genuinely thought i did work hard yeah, i did,
I made my notes and everything, but if you're not good at something
you're not good yeah, but i was comfortable
and i could say "i worked hard" but the problem was
one of my subjects let me down. Yeah i needed three grades to be a
certain grade to get into the university, one of them was less than expected.
Now i remember when i found that out and i was on my way home,
i had my bicycle with me and i still decided to walk the whole way.
I was just questioning everything and i was like- what's gonna happen? What am i gonna do?
What am i gonna say to mom? And it was a madness,
absolute madness, it was really disappointing.
But one thing that i can say is, i didn't say or do anything stupid,
yeah sometimes we say stuff that's borderline you know shirk/kufr stuff you know
when you start blaming Allah and saying some mad stuff- you know i'm saying.
But think about it if your relationship with Allah is based
upon your A-level result, what a weak relationship that is yeah.
because a relationship of just take take take...
but then what was interesting was when i got home and i checked my university
UCAS in those days, i don't know what the system is now,
and then i saw that i had been accepted and despite that one
grade being off, Alhamdulillah i was still accepted
and then that's when i turned and i was like Alhamdulillah.
But then now obviously a lot of things have happened since then,
you know uni and you know work and everything and now when i look back i'm
able to look back and use that as a story to help other
people (you know i'm saying?) so it's become a distant memory a
distant blur and the thing is, i guess what i'm trying to say guys is,
the same will happen to you, yeah i know now it seems like you're
being surrounded- this is all that exists, but when
you go out into the big bad world you realize that (you know i'm saying?)
this was nothing. I'm not gonna lie i did feel alone, i did
feel let down by myself, possibly even having thoughts
that you know Allah has let me down (or what not) but
(you know i'm saying?) just remember
Allah is the guardian of the righteous, if you are righteous
yeah just realize- sometimes the biggest lesson to be learnt
is through failure.
This is a brilliant lesson for you to learn, that you know you can't be
you can't be revising with stuff being played in the background and Netflix and
going out with your friends or whatever,
or just ignoring and not turning up to your lessons.
Don't worry inshallah
in the end things work out, as long as you keep your connection with Allah
STRONG. Let's leave it there guys until next time
Asalaamu Alaikum