barry morphy's first cousin wrote an article in the daily beast on february 20th
and i'm going to read you the article and we're going to have a little chit chat about
it i want to thank you to everybody who's been giving me well wishes i am sick i got the vid
and it's not good so i'm gonna do my best to get through this let's get into it
the title reads barry morphy is my cousin and allegedly killed his wife and cast her vote for
trump it says before barry morphy was charged with horrible crimes i had a surreal encounter
with him and the woman he is accused of murdering on mother's day 2020 49 year old suzanne morphy
went missing in salida colorado the mother of two adult daughters suzanne is the wife of my
first cousin and childhood hero barry morphew though suzanne's body has not been found barry
has been charged with their murder he is out of jail on bond and he goes to trial later this year
barry is a few years older than me roughly the same difference in age between his father roger
and my own father joe as joe grew up idolizing roger i was raised to revere barry it was easy
to do barry was handsome and charismatic a gifted and accomplished athlete i kept the newspaper
article announcing high schooler berries being drafted by the toronto blue jays on my bedroom
wall until i left home for college barry lived as a child near alexandria indiana not far from where
my dad grew up with his 12 brothers and sisters i myself grew up in hot springs arkansas where
i lived with my mother her husband and their two children barry and i were both raised in
religious households a situation that led to much strife in my home and has led to my being largely
estranged from both sides of my family the long injury of my evangelical childhood has proved
too traumatic for me to overcome in my family's presence largely because they remain evangelical
it has taken many years to see that i want an apology for being conceived by them for being
programmed by them for being of them since that is an unreasonable expectation i'm learning to let go
before i realized my need to be free of that world i met suzanne morphy in 2012 at a family reunion
in indiana none of the extended morpheus had been able to attend my california wedding in 2009 and
since my wife lauren was pregnant with our first child i thought it was a good time to introduce
her to the clan we had a pleasant slightly tense day the older my father got the more he loathed
being with his siblings and then barry invited lauren and me to follow him in his porsche cayenne
to his impressively large compound nearby my abiding admiration for berry prevented me
from anticipating what followed after showing us around his spread barry suzanne lauren and i sat
in barry's living room chatting suzanne was kind and warm then as lauren and i started to say our
goodbyes barry turned to his wife and said would you share your testimony suzanne's expression was
that of a child ordered by her father to perform a daunting task she pulled up her ottoman and
dutifully recounted the story of her struggle with hodgkin's lymphoma of her doctor telling
her that she could not have another child and of the remission and miracle baby that followed
all of it flowing from suzanne's unwavering faith in christ though lauren and i were greatly moved
by suzanne's story its command performance quality put us on guard because of my evangelical training
i knew what was coming next barry thanked suzanne for telling her story then looked at me and said
jason do you believe in god sometimes i said truthfully inside i was outraged confused barry
knew i had been raised to perform this tawdry salesman-esque presentation every wednesday
evening of my mid-teen years i went door-to-door in the neighborhood around second baptist church
of hot springs asking if the poor inhabitants had accepted jesus as their lord their savior
the evangelical call is to spread the good news so that everyone has the chance to make the choice
to save their soul i was the last person who needed to be informed of the evangelical stakes
via the evangelical process then i remembered the arrogance of witnessing the lie an evangelical
has to tell himself in order to believe that the person he seeks to save has not heard the jesus
pitch a thousand times i recall the centuries old fantasy some evangelicals indulge where they
are noble missionaries educating ignorant savages about the only thing that matters i suspect that
in barry's eyes i had become ignorant because of a liberal bi-coastal education what i never realized
when i was witnessing was that by imposing myself on strangers lecturing them about what
they already knew i enacted a kind of violence on them i interrupted precious leisure and family
time to impose a memorized message that took no account of my audience's individual experience i
was a robo call made flesh it is a miracle i was not shot growing up i never heard an authority
figure explain how to bring back to jesus someone like the person i have become i still have not met
anyone who has swung as completely from one end of the spectrum to the other who once marched on the
arkansas capital to demonstrate against abortion rights and who now takes his jewish children
to masked protests against police brutality in downtown los angeles when it was clear i was not
interested in being saved again barry leaned back in his chair narrowed his eyes and said
jason's a good guy he said it like the question had been up for debate like he was an authority
on the matter like he was god when my father died in 2018 i had a disagreement with relatives about
details of an obituary which led to my publishing a correction in the local paper this experience
inspired me to set up a morphe google alert to keep track of information published about my
people that is how i first learned about barry and suzanne's move from indiana to colorado and
after that about suzanne's disappearance i sent a letter to barry expressing my sympathy offering
my help he texted his thanks and in december 2020 he texted me a photo of himself and his daughters
smiling next to a christmas tree then in may 2021 barry was arrested for allegedly murdering suzanne
soon after i learned that barry had also been charged with casting his missing wife's mail-in
ballot in the 2020 presidential election for trump according to an arrest affidavit he was admitted
to voting illegally even as he steadfastly denied murdering his wife the roughly 130 page affidavit
details his evolving alibis his business maneuvers and his narcissistic manipulation but what i find
most fascinating is what i have come to regard as barry's theology not only did barry suggest
to the fbi that if anything bad happened to zuzan it may have been god's punishment for her recent
behavior after surviving cancer a second time suzanne had begun drinking wine and taking cbd
and she was having an affair with a former high school classmate from indiana he also told a
colorado tv news reporter that suzanne trusted the lord and if one person got saved from this
she would think it was worth it that quote blew my mind less because of its blithe cruelty than for
its brave theological accuracy barry articulated a truth about evangelical christianity that he was
uniquely situated to discover absolutely anything that brings a soul to jesus is justified including
a sorocide which is killing your wife god sending his son jesus to earth to pay for every sin
including suzanne's murder which would have been on jesus mind while dangling from the cross
renders murder meaningless compared to its potential to confer upon a non-believer eternal
happiness if that reading of barry's quote seems heartless i encourage you to correct it from an
evangelical theological perspective saving souls is all as one of barry's last texts to
suzanne attests eternity in heaven mocks the comparative nanosecond of earthly existence
if barry killed suzanne a human woman on earth who seems to have sought happiness here and now
i suspect he would have done it because he thought she was losing sight of heaven losing sight of god
losing sight of death if he dismembered and buried burned or drowned her body i believe he would have
done it because the husband is the head of the wife even as christ is the head of the church
if he did it he seems to have subsequently tried to justify or at least explain it with his faith
who better to be known as prophet for the make america great again mob it is my hope that
barry's adamantine faith combined with his current existential crisis will inspire him to further
revelations that even if he must be separated from the general population he will continue to
spread his gospel of blood and ice now i seek to admire him in a new light as the spiritual force
that frees me from my past then it has the editor's note barry morphy was charged with first
degree murder tampering with a corpse possession of a deadly weapon and attempting to influence
a public servant he has pleaded not guilty now those of you who haven't read the arrest affidavit
i have been diving into it and i even started creating a video you can watch that there where
you can see about barry having an odd lunch hour and the lies that were in it let's look at the
arrest affidavit because i'm going to show you a few biblical references he does make and it's very
interesting you can let me know your thoughts in the comments in one of the pages it says special
agent harris asked barry what he meant when he said this might be god's way of resolving things
barry said i tell you what i've had a very hard time understanding why god did this and he allowed
it you if you know what you know you know that he allows bad things to happen but all that we've
been through i just and all that we are i can't i couldn't understand it and maybe we'll never
understand till we get to heaven but if i would have known this in the beginning i wouldn't had
to have suffered nine months not knowing why god did what he did i'm not saying he did it to punish
suzanne because of her fair but it makes more sense than what i knew before you guys came today
barry said he wanted the news of the affair to be kept between agents and him adding and if we can
all keep this private between us forever that's all i would ever want it references barry being
a godly man and says barry stated that suzanne told sheila who's her friend about things that
has pitted sheila against me he said he thought sheila would counsel her that marriage is for life
barry said he told suzanne when they got married it was for life specifically saying to her i'm a
godly man and you better make sure that you want me because it's for life it talks about shashana
barry's girlfriend and barry said i didn't meet her until october 25th the first time i ever even
saw her face to face and talked to her was october 25th barry said by meeting shashana god answered
his prayer of please give me something then they talked about the tranquilizer in the affidavit
and it said barry admitted to disposing of the tranquilizers he confirmed his last encounter with
suzanne was hearing her light snore he explained his locations in the woods around his house on
may 9th as looking for a turkey and agreed the evidence in this case makes him look bad
but it's in god's hands agents told barry that from his own words when he says i don't recall
that means he is lying because he has answered almost all the audit questions with i don't recall
there's so many in there that agents actually lost count then in another instance it's talking about
barry and suzanne and how things were rough and basically he's saying no they weren't they were
great she should have just told me that she wanted to move on and i would just you know
sit down and talk to her barry says all she had to do was be honest with me i'm not gonna like
it it's not gonna feel good but i'm a god-fearing man i love the lord i think she loves the lord and
further he's saying yeah well i've told you everything truthfully but both you guys so it's in
god's hands i mean he allowed this whole thing to happen special agent gruising talks about how the
pieces like barry chasing around a chipmunk with a gun or the left turn for the bull elk are pieces
that we need barry said i know that all that stuff looks bad but it's just crazy that that stuff's
even a part of this i mean it's crazy how that stuff ironically is part of this it just makes no
sense to me like why would god allow pieces like that that have to be answered in this situation
i just i don't get it special agent gruesing asked barry what his thought is on why barry said i have
no idea i don't know his ways he's way greater than us i don't know i've often thought god
why i thought that i'd be cleared in two months and i've often asked god why are you dragging me
through this you know physically this is not good for me mentally emotionally spiritually
i'm not angry with god i fear him love him respect him know that he allows things to happen
for reasons i try to figure out why i try to say in my head if she's going through this all this
stuff that i found out since january and maybe god wanted to protect the girls from heartache i mean
i don't know but and on one of the last pages it says barry finally blamed god for suzanne's death
after being informed of the affair as a form of judgment on her and has stated repeatedly that god
allowed this to happen let me know your thoughts below about this and what your thoughts are about
the cousin i'm working on my next video on the affidavit and it's something that a lot of you
may not have heard of and i don't think you're going to be too happy it really shows barry has
another side that many haven't seen and it's a perverse or perverted side to him that at this
point i'm thinking maybe people should hide their children or teenagers stay tuned for that and
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