I think love transcends language.
Skin color and race and everything else.
You don't really have a choice in love when it comes down to it.
Meeting Alissa really kind of solidified that there is something there for me anyway.
It made me a firm believer in, I guess some kind of cosmic magnetism because if want something,
and you manifest it in your mind and you deserve it, I think it can happen.
Jordan's the keyboardist and programmer in our band.
We produced this song together, like the rest of the songs on the album.
With this record we're like "Ah fuck it, we're going to do it, we're going to do whatever
way we want to do this time.
We're just going to make a CD that we really want to make.
We worked on it about six days a week.
Jordan would come up and, yeah it was intense, but we just kept going until we got
something good.
It was one of the things where it was all about a time and place.
If everything happened a week differently or whatever, that kind of butterfly effect
I guess.
She was modeling in London, and she ended up doing some work for my clothing line.
We got talking, and we just started hanging out, before we knew it, it was just all the
time, whenever we could.
She didn't speak much English, I didn't speak any Portuguese, but it was just one of those
things where it's like just go with it, it's happening.
You didn't ask for it, and it's crazy, but this is what's happening and it feels good
so just go with it.
I flew over to San Paolo to see her.
I remember, she was just moving apartments, so, she had no where to stay.
So, we just went and got a really crap room in some tiny little hotel.
As soon as we got into the room, we both laid on the bed and we just both, burst out crying.
Like, really weird, at the same time, just like, deep, belly aching crying.
We were hugging each other.
We must have cried for like an hour.
For no reason.
We never explained why.
I'm glad she cried too, because I don't know why, but it just felt, honestly it felt like
just meeting someone that you knew.
That's how it felt.
The flood gates opening and just couldn't shut them.
You know what I mean?
Even now to think of it, it still makes me emotional because, it doesn't really make
sense.
Some of your best friends are people you really love.
But, come on to your house, and you won't say a word to them.
You might hang out on weekend, and you say five words and they go home and it's the best
thing ever.
It's like, you can phone people that you love, you don't even talk to them.
You just have them now on the phone.
For some reason you feel better.
And, that's how it was from the start.
Do you know what I mean?
It should've been awkward, but it never was for a second.
It made me feel like, maybe we're never meant to speak
Alyssa was the first person I met who was fine with just being down.
Sometimes you just get that feeling and it comes in waves.
It will come and it will go.
It is almost like a euphoric experience where your body goes I need to sort this out.
I need to deal with this.
I need to process it.
I need to think out of my head and into the world.
And, it's just so much tinier you when you let yourself do that.
You know what I mean?
Where's if you just go, "No, it's all fine, it's all fine."
It just grows and grows.
Fala amo means I love.
Don't say you love me, say it in your language.
It's got almost a dual meaning of it.
It was the ammunition for the album and in like European Portuguese it means master or
used to, so.
I had all these little connotations that I started to like.
I'm trying my best to describe how it feels when you first fall in love and how mental
it is.
Two people from different sides of the planet can feel so connected, like, they knew each
other in a past life or something but at the end of the day... there's no amount of words that's
ever really going to be able do it justice.
Using the phrase punching above my own weight and that's how I felt when I met Alyssa, I
was like, "wow this girl is way too hot.”
But then at the same time, "I always tend to fluctuate" is me with my own confidence.
Feeling like sometimes I can live up to being the right person and live up to being good
enough for someone like that.
I'm freaking out, like why you...
Sometimes you almost just want to pull the plug on it because it's too much.
I mean, I hardly know you and I'm already worrying about you meeting someone else or
losing you.
Do I really want to put myself through this again?
When you love something so much, it's this equal measure of joy and fear.
Saying like being wet, it's English slang for being soppy, being mushy.
That’s who it felt.
You know, it felt like this was meant to happen.
It was like written in the stars.
You know, all these things that have happened to us, both of us.
You know, had to happen for us to be ready for this relationship.
Because for most of us, we need to learn a lot of lessons about who we are.
There not really bad in a sense of being a waste of time, they're just when you get out
and on the other side, you're like, "oh my god, that wasn't me.”
I should've gotten out of that way sooner, so I guess that's the bad choices, but at
the same time, they are left turns, they're just pit stops along your journey.
I don’t know I guess it's where I give up trying to explain and just try to illustrate
it in a different way.
Because there is no words.
I think that’s it.
It’s just a vibe, innit.
It’s just something you feel within.
It’s like time, it doesn’t really exist.