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You Have Not Known Total Chaos -- Just Wait...
About the Non-Serious Approach to Meditation and the "So-Called Spiritual Search"
As I write this question
my hands are shaking.
Everything will shake!
Okay, let them shake. You ask the question.
Go on!
Even the dodos are laughing now.
By the time your question is complete,
I don't think anybody here will dare
not to let-go.
While reading the chapter called "The Wanderer"
from The Sound of Running Water,
I saw that the culminating sentence was,
"Yet the call is heard,
as somewhere in our being the promise is remembered."
With this sentence
there was an explosion of energy in my heart,
bringing tears to my eyes.
It will happen again.
An explosion too will happen.
And tears will also come to your eyes
they are already coming!...
Complete the question.
I have always known
but I feel so afraid:
even as the explosion happened...
You have been always afraid
and now it is going to happen!
Just gather courage.
Go on.
Even as the explosion happened, I was escaping.
Osho, I call you "Beloved Master" but still I escape.
You read the next question now
because the reading of your questions is preparing people.
Go on.
Ten years of sannyas have finally brought me to a total chaos.
Give a good applause!
Somebody has come to a total chaos!
But you have not known total chaos -- just wait...
On the one hand I welcome it;
on the other hand there is so much fear about whether I'll come out of it.
There is no hope
once you are in it,
you are in it.
Nobody has ever come out of the chaos. ...
Just complete his question.
And this "tiger" about whom you were speaking to me
comes closer and closer.
That's true.
What to do at such a meeting?
My fear is of dying or going cuckoo.
Most probably cuckoo,
because in let-go
nobody is going to die.
A few people will shout "Yaa-Hoo!"
that means
they have gone cuckoo.
A few will remain sane and try...
but they will be stupid.
Such chances rarely come in life.
My heart is trembling.
Can you please say something?
Now there is nothing to say!
Should we do the exercise?