- This whole song is all the things that you
shouldn't have to worry about.
You should just have to worry about being yourself
and going out and just trying to find happiness
and trying to find the people
around you that make you the most fulfilled
and the most happy.
And that's the moral of the song, not to try
and compare yourself to every other person out there.
So I hope that you all get that and you all are amazing.
(laughs)
You know, genuinely, I just had like a
a bad low where I got into the studio,
I was with this guy named Greg Kurstin,
who's like an absolute God.
And he literally just like started playing
these really sad piano chords.
And I was so in my head because I had literally
been scrolling on TikTok and Instagram all day long.
And I was like, hating everything about myself.
You know, I was comparing myself to every single girl
and it literally just like left me the most bitter taste
in my mouth.
And, I hate the feeling of jealousy.
Like, I don't get it very often, but when I do
it's like the grossest feeling ever.
And I just wanted to write this song to
kind of get it off my chest.
And funny enough, it actually started as a ballad.
Eventually, like we got the song back
no one really liked it.
And then I was like, "Hey, can you try this
like a little edgier or a little punkier?"
And he like came back and like completely redid this song
and made it into like this, you know, crazy big punk song.
And it was really cool to like watch it transition
from like being like a really sappy and sad ballad
to like, you know, being this really upbeat song.
I think I've had so many relationships, like with friends,
even with like family members or guys, you know
anything that you don't really think that it leaves a mark
on you, because you're like, I'm gonna get over it.
And then you heal and you're like fine.
But I think genuinely deep down it
like all shapes your personality when you get older.
Everything that happened.
And I, I think there's just been so many different instances
where like, for example I've like lost my trust
because of a friend.
And now it's like, I'm like
wishy-washy going into relationships
because it just like leaves a little, little mark on you
that is kind of hard to like rub off.
Whenever you have a gut feeling about something
about a girl, or about a guy,
about something, it's usually a hundred percent right.
I mean, your intuition never really lies.
And I feel like I've like gone
into that situation so many times where I've been
like that girl, they're definitely talking.
There's definitely something going on there.
And of course, like you find out later
that there was something going on.
I feel like the the worst thing you like, don't stress.
Why are you stressing?
Obviously I'm stressing because I know, I know in my gut
that this is going on.
You know, I look online and I'm like, oh
I wanna be like this girl, this girl, this girl, this girl.
And that's honestly, it's just because it
like social media is such a toxic place.
Like, and everyone knows that
but everyone still goes on social media.
So it's like, we all like talk
about how it is toxic and how we do compare ourselves.
But you know, at the end of the day we also do it.
Your Instagrams and your TikToks
are always just people's highlight reels.
So you never see, like even my own Instagram
I look at it sometimes and I'm like, whoa
if people really knew what I went through this week, like
you know, you never really show the real parts of it.
And so yeah
there's been many times where I've just like been
wanted to be anyone else, but myself.
I genuinely wanted to make it seem as superficial
as possible talking about like a, a mini dress
and all of her friends and going out and it
this like really, you know, fancy lifestyle.
All those expectations that we put
in our own heads that, really genuinely
at the end of the day, mean nothing.
And so it, it was painting out
that feeling of like a stereotypical perfect girl.
I wanted to get that point across.
(jazz music)
I like going out sometimes if it's with the right people
I think, you know, I'll like if I go out
I'll go out with some like girlfriends
and have like a dinner.
But I, I don't genuinely go out a lot in LA.
I feel like everyone is
like constantly partying or whatever
I'm just like, I can't do it.
I'm tired (laughs)