[Warning This video contains graphic content]
I am
God.
This is Amy Carlson.
Jesus fucking motherfucking Christ,
who I am.
Her followers believe she is God.
Fuck you.
But others allege a culture of abuse.
It's a cult. It's a scam.
It's a lot of mental manipulation, a lot of brainwash.
We're a cult because we see the truth.
This is
And this episode is about Amy Carlson,
aka “Mother God.”
[False Gods]
For 15 years, Carlson has led a group that today calls itself Love Has Won.
The dozen or so core members live shacked up together
in an incredibly stressful house in Colorado.
I’m grateful
to have these moments
to be able to express myself.
The web-savvy New Age outfit use daily live streams
to recruit followers from across the world,
who donate regularly to keep the group afloat.
These broadcasts claim everything society teaches us is a lie.
As long as you choose love,
you’re always going the right direction.
The group is facing accusations of fraud, brainwashing, and abuse,
yet its followers seem to genuinely believe
that Carlson is a divine being.
She didn't have the ego programming like we do.
Someone needed to break out of it first.
Mom just was in full consciousness from her whole life.
She earned where she is at consciously.
And that’s really why she just is the example,
because we are not at that consciousness level, nowhere near.
Love Has Won say Carlson has been trying to
save humanity for 19 billion years,
reincarnating over and over.
They say that she birthed all of creation
and will soon lead 144,000 chosen ones from this tired old world
into a new mystical fifth dimension.
But it’s not hard to find people
whose lives have been shattered by Love Has Won.
So let’s call it what it is, a cult.
I do feel that it’s a cult. It’s a scam.
And nothing will be able to change my mind
that it’s not a cult.
We’re “a cult” because we see the truth and other people can’t.
But apparently, if you follow the collective mentality
and you follow what everybody else is doing, you're not a cult.
Well, why? It's a group of people who all believe the same insanity.
The collective all believes the same insanity,
but yet they're not called a cult.
We’re called the cult of what? Love?
Love Has Won has a revolving cast of 20 full-time members.
All have left their own lives behind to join Carlson.
Purity. Balanced harmonics.
They spend their time bringing in donations via live stream,
selling New Age merchandise,
and attending to Carlson’s every need.
The 44-year-old’s devoted followers call her “Mom”
or “Mother God.”
And over the years, Carlson has been joined by several Father Gods.
Father and mother of all creation are here on the planet.
-Hi, everybody. -Greetings, love beings.
One of them was Andrew Profaci,
who, after walking away from a deadly teenage car crash,
went seeking a spiritual mission in life with Love Has Won.
Arrived in Denver Airport,
took a five and a half hour taxi ride south
to the middle of nowhere in Colorado.
As soon as I got out of that taxi and walked in the front door,
I realized that I’d made a grave miscalculation.
Everybody there was on a mushroom trip.
And clearly none of them had gone to bed yet.
It scared the crap out of me.
A group mushroom trip? I don’t know who created the story
because we don’t know anybody who did that.
After spending ten months as a lover and a babysitter to Carlson,
Profaci left Love Has Won.
We love you. This is Mother God.
Amy, at that point in time, was definitely one of the most brilliant,
insightful people I’ve ever met,
but it all changed after dinner.
She could drink like I’ve never seen before.
She would fill a highball glass,
I mean, almost the whole way with vodka
and, you know, just spritz water on top.
Fuck.
She’d probably drink eight, nine of those a night.
She would turn into somebody else.
You just fucking got me on the-- Fucking motherfucker.
Fucking wow.
She would become angry.
She would talk smack and just be very bitter about things,
yelling and cussing.
I have never really seen anything like that before.
You are fucking treason for all of humanity.
The members are banned, well, officially, at least,
from using drugs and alcohol.
That’s reality.
It’s like--
Mom is a “no” on drugs.
We are not allowed to do drugs.
She doesn’t do drugs.
And she has kicked people out of this field for doing drugs.
Got it.
She's organic, so she's not going to consume pharmaceuticals,
but she does it with alcohol, which is organic,
and that's what she explains is a natural painkiller
because she cannot take morphine.
In many ways, Profaci’s story mirrors those of other members:
limited to five hours’ sleep,
banned from sitting down, underfed, never paid,
and told that free will is tantamount to sin.
It’s a lot, a lot, a lot, a lot of mental manipulation,
a lot of brainwash.
She only lets us sleep four hours.
We have to wake up every day at 5:00 a.m.
We start live stream at 6:00.
Everything is revolved around Amy.
Anybody that has said things about the no standing are--
It’s usually people that are really lazy.
I think it's the people that grew up in a different way.
They were the people that sat on the couch all day
and laid in bed all day.
And so they get very triggered by it.
Holy fucking shit!
You know, I’m, like, 8 billion egos.
Yeah.
I got this, bitch.
It’s difficult to know where to start
when it comes to Carlson’s life story.
Only natural, I suppose, given she is 19 billion years old.
But according to her family,
she first got into New Age thinking when she turned 30.
That’s when she walked out of her third marriage
and job at McDonald’s
on a mission to save humanity.
We are live from Galactic Hub.
As her daily recruitment live streams make clear,
Love Has Won have lots of teachings,
like Donald Trump being Carlson’s loving father...
Mom was incarnated,
and Donald Trump, when in that lifetime, was her father.
[and] ridding people of cancer by talking to them on the phone.
And we like to say to the YouTubers
we are doing brain surgeries, organ repair.
The beings who have had the most healing
and have been cured by Mom
are the ones that have no fear and no doubt,
and they were in surrender.
There were certain things that she expressed that seemed so out there,
like talking to Robin Williams.
Wake up, Robin
Williams.
I mean, I witnessed her do this,
and it just seemed like she was super drunk or high.
And then when I had pickles all over me?
Oh shit.
These days, Carlson and the group have a new Father God
helping them to run the show.
Mother God’s show.
Love runs this bitch.
Forty-four-year-old Jason Castillo
has a long history of criminal behavior,
picking up charges across the US for drink driving,
breaking and entering, and child neglect
Surrender, you son of a bitch.
Get in, motherfucker.
Castillo and Carlson work well together.
You guys are fucked.
While she carries out her duties as Mother God,
he takes the opportunity to dish out some unwarranted discipline.
Now, you are fucking insane. Correct?
Yes.
How could an insane individual serve God?
You’re gonna be a paraplegic.
You’re only gonna have the right usage of your leg and arm.
If you didn’t believe before, you’ll fucking believe me now.
A series of disturbing videos emerged of them
tormenting a cult member for the mortal sin of
bringing Carlson meatballs for dinner instead of chicken parmesan.
I didn't say meatballs.
I love meatballs...
but I didn’t fucking say that!
Chicken parmesan!
Carlson’s followers and their precious financial donations
are attracted by the image of her as a shiny beacon of
purity, wisdom and joy.
But in recent videos, that’s quite hard to spot.
OK, time out.
[How Amy (Mother God) Handles Children]
[closet door closed, small child inside]
Love Has Won claims to be built around a loving, caring ethos,
but Amy’s violence has led some to say
there is a gap between what she practices
and what she preaches.
Mom literally is the planet.
So all those lower emotions,
all that lower stuff, hatred, violence, judgment,
all this stuff, it has to go somewhere,
it has to get transformed.
So she feels collectively all the collective emotions.
She’s hurt.
She’s hurt that we are embodying as a species who she created
so much disrespect for her.
Spiritual ego whores, die!
If you’re not connected to me...
you’re out.
Thank you for your service.
An important thing to remember is that
it’s not just those who join Love Has Won
whose lives are put through the shredder,
it’s also the people they love and who love them.
In 2020, Alex Whitten abandoned his wife, kids, and six-figure salary
to join Love Has Won.
Days later, a search party found him wandering the desert,
hallucinating and naked, with cactus needles in his feet.
Sometimes people have a very quick awakening,
and if anybody's ever experienced that,
it can be a bit disorienting
because you just all of a sudden open up to all this spiritual energy
and it can be overwhelming, depending on your being.
But ultimately, we love Alex
and he has never actually done an interview or said anything.
It’s always been his wife and his sister.
So far, their online recruitment drives continue unchecked.
Someone who knows the dangerous power of these videos all too well
is the friend of regular live stream host Lauryn Suarez.
They like to talk about karma.
I don’t know if I’m a big believer in karma,
but I think that I really do believe justice needs to be served
for what Amy has done to these people,
these families, these friendships.
She has...
in essence, destroyed the lives of a lot of young people.
Meanwhile, Mindy Boyer has lost all hope for her brother, Jason Castillo,
aka Amy Carlson’s current Father God.
I’m sorry. I’m not trying to be emotional.
I'm happy to answer it.
But I hope for Jason and the rest of his life.
He can follow this group
and he can think he’s Father God for the rest of all time,
but he’s my brother; I would like him to have happiness.
I just wish that they would stop trying to recruit innocent people
from around the country to be just like them.