Will you hold my hand?
He grows on you, doesn't he?
Hi, Adam.
-Good summer? -Shut the fuck up.
Tromboner, give me what you've got.
Not my Curly Wurly!
Give me that Curly Wurly.
Or I will break your face.
What the fuck did you come as, Tromboner? A girl?
What do you want, Adam?
I'm going to fucking kill you.
Are you going to do it now or later?
Because I'm ready when you are.
-It's coming. -Ok.
So later, then?
Great.
Sorry.
Sorry, I didn't…
How do you like it?
I don't.
Yeah.
Didn't think so.
If you ever tell anyone about this,
I will fucking end you.
Do you understand?
Can we talk?
About what happened.
I don't know what you're talking about.
Yes, you do.
Do you want to see something cool?
Now, that was great.
I know you hate it at home,
but I'm kind of glad you're back.
I'm glad I'm back, too.
I've got to go.
Ok. Erm…
Cool.
He bullied you!
For years, Eric. He's a horrible person!
No, but people can change.
If he's changed,
then why is he making you sneak around at night?
It's romantic!
You stopped coming to the window.
Yeah, I did.
What did I do wrong?
You bullied me for years, Adam.
You made me feel unsafe for years.
You were one of the main reasons
I wasn't kind to myself.
And I'm supposed to believe
that you've suddenly changed?
I'm scared.
And I think I'm bisexual.
Are you alright?
You can't even hold my hand.
Rahim can hold my hand.
I feel like everyone hates me.
It's kind of hard to like someone
who doesn't like themselves.
Eric Effiong!
Eric Effiong, I have something to say to you.
I want to hold your hand.
Please?
Will you hold my hand?
Yes.
Go and take a look at yourself in the mirror.
Right now, Adam. Go and take a look in the mirror.
I look quite pretty.
You're going to ruin my makeup.
I will ruin you.
I think I'm ready to…
you know.
-Really? -Yeah.
-Really? -Yes.
Ok.
Would you like to stay for dinner?
-She's coming? -No. Carry on.
-She will come. -Go, go!
Are you ok?
Is everything alright?
We were just…
We were doing karate, so…
Oh.
Guess who's going
all the way tonight?
Come on! Yeah!
I'm guessing it's you.
This is the bit where you're supposed to be happy.
I am happy, Eric.
But are you sure Adam isn't going to mess you around?
I think he's still not comfortable with himself
and I don't want you to get hurt.
Enough!
I want you to be my best friend
and ask questions about me
going all the way!
I think I'm a bit scared.
You don't want to anymore.
No, no. I do. I really do.
It's just I…
I'm worried that I don't know what I'm doing.
I don't know, either.
Don't worry! I douched before school.
What's wrong?
I…
I don't… Listen.
This isn't what I want.
You…
don't want to have sex with me?
I want to tell you how I feel.
But I don't want you to look at me.
I…
don't want to have sex with you.
I want you
to have sex with me.
I don't understand what you're saying, Adam.
I want you to put your dick in me.
That's how I would like to do it.
I would love to put my dick in you.
I think I'm starting to get the whole Adam thing.
Yeah.
He grows on you, doesn't he?
This is Hugh.
He's…
Well, he's my…
The guy that I'm dating at the moment.
How are you doing?
That's Adam.
And this is Eric, Adam's…
friend.
Lovely to see you again, Maureen.
Lovely to meet you, Hugh.
Bye, mate.
I think it will be good for us to get some space
when I'm in Nigeria.
So you want to get away from me?
Adam, you are so defensive!
No. You just said that you want to get away from me.
How am I supposed to feel?
I…
I don't want us to have space.
Because I love you.
I love you, too.
I have to tell you something.
I kissed someone else.
In Nigeria.
You what?
It just happened. I'm so sorry. I don't…
I need to go and feed Madam.
I told Adam. I think we might be over.
I wanted to tell you too, but I just…
I was so ashamed and I didn't know how to.
-Do you want it to be over? -I don't know.
I feel like a bad person.
I don't even know why I did it.
It just made me feel free.
I'm thinking that maybe
we could pretend it didn't happen.
But it did happen.
I messed up.
Badly.
I can be ok with it.
It was a stupid kiss and it didn't mean anything.
I can get over it.
I don't think it was just a stupid kiss, Adam.
I feel bad I hurt you.
But you wouldn't take it back?
No, I don't think I would.
I felt easy with it.
And it feels hard with me.
I just feel like I'm ready to fly
and you're just learning to walk.
And I've worked really hard to find myself
and I'm beginning to lose who I am.
Adam, can we keep talking?
Don't…
have anything else to say.
A boy I don't like told me to write from the heart.
I didn't know what that meant
because I never knew I had one.
I never knew I had a heart
until you said you kissed a boy I haven't met.
Then I knew I had a heart
because I thought it might stop.
And, when I thought my heart might stop beating,
I realised that it had always been there.
But it didn't know how to feel.
Until I thought about losing you.
I knew we wouldn't last forever
and I was waiting for this day.
But I hope we can fix things
and, if we can't,
I will always thank you
for showing me I have a heart.
Eric wasn't my friend, mum.
He was my…
boyfriend.
We broke up.