Hi everyone this is in the series 'How to Get a Specific Person,'
in this case it is an ex and this story is from Faizia. So goes like this: First of all I want to
send thanks to the universe for coming across your work it has not only changed my world but gave
me the inner strength that I needed for a very long time. Bless your heart for all that you do,
you're such an inspiration and doing an absolute phenomenal job - thank you darling thank you,
and this is her story part one - before coming across your channel I was only doing
a morning meditation by Abraham Hicks but didn't know much about law of attraction. And self-love
was something I was completely alienated to lol. Oh my god I can't emphasise enough on the beauty
of self-love as I feel it has been the missing piece for me all along. Through self-love I'm
able to set boundaries and let go of people who have been toxic. So I came across your channel in
the spring of 2019 while going through a divorce, I was doing a lot of self-reflection in that phase
as my life fell apart. Marriage of 16 years ended, eventually losing my home and starting afresh.
It was overwhelming and daunting being in a long stressful marriage, I spent many nights
crying seeking the guidance from god. And now when I look back I know exactly how my thoughts
and my deepest desires brought me here to this path of spiritual awakening, which I'm immensely
grateful for. My thoughts manifested into my physical reality end of 2017 and the gateway
to this new life was my car accident. That accident gave me a pause to re-analyse my life
as I was bedridden for over two weeks and being treated like a doormat by my ex-husband. So I
questioned my marriage and my place in this life as a woman. So after my divorce I was
reading a lot of online articles on relationships in general and also reading about each zodiac sign
personality types. Somehow I was always inclined towards cancer male traits as my
uncle who was the main father figure in my childhood was a July born cancerian man.
I guess while listening to one of those videos on YouTube your channel came into my recommendations,
which isn't really pertinent to what I was into at the time but somehow the universe had its
way for me to get connected with the concepts of meditation, manifestation and law of attraction.
After watching some of your videos I got pretty intrigued so out of fun I started doing
some random SP meditations here and there but mostly listening to success stories and Neville.
So in August of 2019 after seeing a video on scripting I wrote a list of qualities
I wanted in a partner and as crazy as it gets three weeks later I met my SP,
let's call him 'Jay.' He was everything on my list and more, a cancer male like I always
wished my partner to be, an exact same height as my uncle six-foot-two and the kind of physical
appearance I am attracted to, extremely educated, career-focused, chivalrous,
old-school, kind-hearted, family-orientated guy. What else could I have asked for right?
It was the feeling of too good to be true and I just couldn't believe what was happening I was in
another world and when he said all the right things and did all the right stuff the drunk
monkey in my head started to go crazy questioning his intentions and whatnot. I remember the day we
were supposed to meet to spend the weekend together, I was reading an article on online
traits of a player, oh what a disservice I did to myself into something which was
the beginning stages of blossoming by filling my head with all that crap. We had such an amazing
time together that weekend, he was exactly what I've always envisaged my man to be.
He even did a few chivalrous acts which were in my imagination long ago but my marriage fogged
them as my ex-husband never did those things and actually made fun of me that I lived in a dream
world, saying those things only existed in the movies or in novels but I knew it wasn't unreal
and a well-rounded man treats his woman like a lady and makes her feel special. But then after
a month and a half into the relationship when Jay got busy with work and was less
attentive I got extremely insecure, needy and doubtful. I sent him crazy amounts of lengthy
texts and said all the wrong things which pushed him away to a point where he stopped calling me
all the beautiful things or names he previously did and then cancelled our next meet up,
which made me apprehensive and he retreated further back and got less
and less responsive to my texts and wouldn't call me back. Which of course made me even more
nuts and I started chasing him like hell and blowing up his phone like a lunatic
that he eventually blocked me, which I didn't really know until he told me a week after.
When I called him from an unknown number because that was the longest he took to reply to my texts
and I felt something was off. Oh Agnes my world was torn apart, I was like what the hell has
happened to me? I cried non-stop, cussed god for why he sent Jay to my life if he has to treat me
like this, I literally felt that I was yet another joke - (corrects) that it was yet another joke of
my life and in that moment of despair I blamed Jay more and more as I was coming from a place
of ego. When he sent me a text saying that he'd unblocked me all I was able to send was
an apology after two days but in my heart I was still mad at him and blaming him for pulling away,
I wasn't seeing where I went wrong. The days turned into weeks where none of us reached out to
one another, I wanted to but I was embarrassed to the core from being blocked earlier so I couldn't.
And after three weeks of no contact I thought it was over, oh I cried like hell and stayed in bed
for several days. I just couldn't believe how I met the most wonderful guy, the man of my dreams
and then he was gone in the blink of an eye. Then somehow I pulled myself together but all
I did during that time was attracting your ex back meditations, like non-stop (in big
letters) I literally became obsessed with it and I did meditations for hours each day right after
waking up, before going to bed and during the day too. All I wanted was to hear back from him
but after two weeks I got so exhausted that I caught a fever and stayed in bed and then somehow
I made a trip to go see my family in Toronto as I wanted a break from all what was going on and
clear my head. So when I was gone all I focused on was to enjoy my trip, I had a terrific time
joking and laughing with my cousins continuously. My brain needed a shift in focus and I feel that's
when the magic happened. That very night after six weeks of no contact Jay not only sent me several
texts but called me on both of my numbers and on WhatsApp too. I just couldn't believe my eyes,
as I picked up the phone to take a picture at the dinner table I was like 'what in the world?'
that I had to go excuse myself to go to the ladies room to look at my phone screen clearly,
if it was for real. I literally jumped in joy in the bathroom stall lol, I was like
'oh my goodness this LOA thing is damn real.' The next day I was flying back so I was able
to see Jay before he had to leave back to his state - yep it's long distance for us. When Jay
and I met in person he told me that the reason for him pulling away had nothing to do with me
and that he was dealing with massive work and family stress, but when I texted him non-stop
he couldn't take it anymore and had to block me. That conversation put me at ease and I felt true
affection and a sense of care for him towards me. I apologised again and he did as well.
That month went great and we saw each other again in February. Our communication was back
and then in March this pandemic happened and Jay had just started his new job then and he
told me that he needed to be more focused on that and may not be able to come and see me
for some time during this whole covid situation, which I understood as it wasn't in our hands as
we all were in lockdown for almost three months anyways. I took that pause to work on myself,
I did yoga, extended combination meditations on self-love, whispering technique and mostly SP
focused meditations because all I wanted was this chaos to end and and to see him again. Part two:
I think as I look back I was still in that place of lack so the episode of neediness happened yet
again. I was actually doing really well but when someone through my work approached me romantically
it threw me off balance and I told Jay about it and he asked me - (corrects)
and asked him to give me a commitment if this has to continue which certainly didn't go well
as I wasn't listening to what he was saying, yet focusing on what I wanted to hear. So at
the end he said that probably we both need someone who's close to us and I should give
this new person a chance because he couldn't put forth a commitment as yet with all the work,
financial and family stress in his life as it wouldn't be fair to the both of us.
I hated him for saying that and I told him that I'm going to delete his numbers and I don't want
to talk to him anymore so we ended up breaking up at least that's how it felt like. I was
heartbroken but it was my own creation, a friend of mine also played a negative role in all this
she polluted my mind both times around saying what a worse kind of man Jay is, that he shouldn't have
chased me and it's good that this long-distance relationship between us has ended. She affirmed
that Jay would have done this to me sooner or later but my heart just wouldn't believe her.
Anyhow, to kind of put a band-aid on my situation I did give this new guy a chance and went out on a
few coffee and dinner dates with him but the more I talked to him the more I missed Jay, the more
it reminded me of how wonderful Jay is and how much I respect him. How he truly is the kind of
guy who I wanted to spend my future with so after my third date with this new guy within the course
of two weeks I told him that we may not be a good match and that I'm just not ready to date anyone.
This was definitely the time for me to shift gears and bring the focus onto myself. I lost
the man of my dreams two times in six months and it may not all be his fault but my own projections
onto everything. So I started hearing all the success stories on your channel again after a
year and this time it spoke to me so differently. I was able able to hear self love in big letters
out loud in every video I watched so I began to do only self-love meditations and ho'oponopono
and nothing else. This time I wanted to correct me and I also did inner child meditation to let
go of the past wounds, I did yoga religiously, ate right, lost weight, took care of myself
overall because I wanted to be a better person internally and emotionally so I can be
a better partner. During this time of course I missed Jay but kept my focus
on myself. During this time my business also took a peek and lots of referrals started to come in
and I even attracted some unexpected money, more friends reached out, other random guys
also started showing interest and even with the mask on where others can't see me smile
more and more people became helpful and just gravitated towards me more in general, this was
amazing. So during this time I didn't contact Jay and neither did he because I was the one who ended
things up but this time I wasn't blocked either. So after two months of no contact and self-love I
texted him and he replied within hours telling me it's all good and how happy he is to hear from me.
When I reached him this time around I did it with no expectations and conditions and him allowing me
back into his space is something I am greatly thankful for. Jay had no reason to tolerate
and forgive my child-like acts but he had been kind and accepting all along which I am deeply
grateful for and respect him immensely. While I'm happy for having Jay in my life in whatever way
he is this isn't about him anymore, by crossing paths with him I got connected with my inner self
on a deeper level. I'm able to discover my powers yet encountering my greatest vulnerabilities.
I've learned and grown so much through this connection with Jay and while he didn't teach me
self-love directly, with him coming into my life I learned the value to find my true self which
in itself is the biggest revelation of a lifetime and a great success story.
Though self-love - (corrects) no not though - through self-love I've learned that we are
a powerhouse of abundance and filling our own cup first is the only way to go. Now being the best
version of myself isn't for another person but truly for my own self so I can live and
appreciate this gorgeous life to the fullest with or without my SP Jay. Of course I adore him and I
want him in my future but only when it serves both of us collectively. Evidently through all of this
I've learned that it's our path and our story and our SP's may come and become part of our journey
but they aren't the focal point, in all and all the spotlight should always be on our own selves,
so it can lift the pressure off of other people to provide our needs. Now Jay is more open with me
and let me know - (corrects) now Jay is more open with me and lets me know ahead of time
of his upcoming commitments with his kids, work and school and he works on his dissertation work
his PhD. It's been eight months that Jay and I have met but that longing of him not with me
is gone. I'm secure within myself and I'm excited that eventually everything will work out in the
best form. My message to all of the viewers is to love yourself unconditionally first
and foremost and don't put the main focus on your SP's. As it's good to have a partner in
life but if we are cracked within ourselves - oooh I like the way you said that - no matter
how much love and affection our SP gives us it will eventually fall through those
cracks - oooh that's beautifully said - thank you once again Agnes for your work
and please feel free to share my story on your channel, I'm open to do an interview
to pay it forward as success stories on your channel gave me much strength to manifest mine.
Oh wow brilliant, brilliant, brilliant. I will put down below everything that Faizia has shared with
you in the story, I will also put the self-love meditations playlist down below for you
and also the how to attract a specific person playlist and the specific person ex back SP
success stories playlist and also.. I just got a.. I think I threw this in the bin
um so just give me a sec.. what did I do with it? No I can't find it, so a viewer Laura
has given me two really wonderful self-love websites for those of you that want to
do a bit more work on your self-love, I will put the exact websites down below - I had it on a
piece of paper and I've thrown it out so I will put it down below and you can go and do a bit
more research and learning for your self-love and self-worth because as you can see from this story
and many stories that self-love is the foundation I think to all relationships are a reflection
of how well you're doing within yourself. So the better the self-love the better the relationships.
Lots of love everyone and I will see all of you as always in the next YouTube.