Hey you look G the most gnawing doubt about Alyssia is her age I want to trust
my gut and go with her but my brain is telling me other way and that's really
jarring it snoring away at me it's eating away at my brain yeah the last
day we're gonna go swimming with some stingrays babe this is gonna be so much
fun we've had some pretty amazing dates but I feel like this one is gonna top I
am definitely falling for Alex you know I've had an amazing time together and
you know looking into the future I can see me and Alex been together for a very
long time I've in any way quite like this I've
never been to the Caribbean no but like this no I've not it's amazing I'll let
you keep having to I pinch myself at how beautiful is island is they've got such
beautiful wildlife here that even the birds are right in saying they're just
so much better than English bear pelicans like the pelicans and just tiny
little wines of the yellow heads
there are massive I didn't realize there was just this many stingray like in the
world let alone here I honestly can't wait to get in these we need to get
ourselves on now Alyssa it brings up this sort of fun
spirit in me and it's gonna expand on when I'm with her I'm feeling only
positive vibes and I love that about her I love that warmth sort of she brings to
me when I first got in the water you know I wasn't scared at all I just
wanted to get in there get screwed in my hand and feed him
I just took one of them and it's like
the squid I do want him to believe this day remembering how fun I am and you
know how much laughter we have when we're together
meeting you and this crazy journey that would be here to be honest I knew that I
was gonna take you a long long way I had to figure it out but I knew when I first
met you that you were you were gonna be you know a part of my life and I'm sorry
I told Alyssa today that I knew she was gonna play a big part in my life and
this journey it came from nowhere but it just sort of rolled off the tongue it
was really natural it just felt like I needed to say it and wanted to say it
and I want to keep seeing your face but have the best time
yeah and me what you just said bond feels magnetic and that's what I've
wanted from the start it's what I wanted for myself for my next relationship
as the Sun Goes Down in Antigua Alex invites Alyssia back to the batch pad
for the last time look at you smile I want to know what my mum lost in the
water yeah and it was a little bit scary for me that's right this whole
experience never been as nervous really I actually did leave in Keaney your mum
might not think that we're compatible like on paper yeah I did just because
you know we are from kind of two different worlds but now we've got to
know each other so well we actually know that we've got so much in common
yeah but I feel like from like your mom obviously because the first time she's
ever met me and that did make me feel a little bit sad I know that I do have
this like cheeky kind of side to me and but me and Alex you know it's undeniable
that we are from different worlds I feel like I've got so much to learn from you
like family
yeah but not even from you just that teaching me new where I need my brains
Rick's back never really like love school of learning but as I've got older
you know I do need somebody that brings that that side of me and I honestly feel
that Alex could you know bring out that more articulate size and that familiy
that is you know what I kind of want out of a relationship
just knowing who you are I've learned I found out you to be like
you're just that I don't think there's a word to describe how much I'm like
feeling you can't just tell me you love me I don't want to ruin that moment for
me but you know I'm like I get a little bit by one of those Swedes escape this
emotion of forgettable - yeah Sweden do that but a few is going to tell me that
you are falling for me in the Finnish bedroom
you definitely again
what is she ready for that next big step because I want to know that the person
I'm next going to say I love you too it's gonna love me back and what the
same things that I do this has been an amazing day I just have like a few like
one person I like I want to ask you about like the age difference
oh please down in six years now please don't know it just don't even six years
mom and my dad had about eight years between them and so for me it's like
nothing and actually I know I need that
that's your answer and that's when I won't I know that I need some of those
old for me I know that I need somebody that's in touch with their feelings it's
not doesn't shy away doesn't feel that they're a boy and you know not paying
Jack the lad all the time
I love being around him it makes you feel all warm and not giddy inside and
yeah I just don't movie want this to end between us I'm in thrall like I have
this energy about myself that I know Alyssa has brought out in me
I have this warm / epically hot heat burning away in the back of my brain
saying that I make a decision Alex and that it's weighing really heavy
you