my earliest memory is my father hitting
my mother in the face as hard as he
could and I remember seeing her on the
floor and then looking at him this giant
of a man who I thought my god he says he
loves her what is he going to do to me
and all I could think I want to protect
how to protect her and how long it was
and I said I got to be strong and I got
to get strength so that I can protect
her and every time he came home we were
scared we didn't know I literally wet
the bed till I was 14 years old
because I didn't know what was gonna
happen I would wake up - glass breaking
did the sounds people screaming and it
was a nightmare
we lived a nightmare for years and I
remember my mother coming into our room
and saying we're leaving pack our stuff
we're out of here and we would grab
everything we had we put it in garbage
bags and we're tired up and we wait to
go
did she come back here did she say we
can't go can't leave gonna go
I just remembered Billy let's go
anywhere I don't care we could be a
street
terrorizing us terrorizing that's clever
and it was thankful what could we do you
have to understand that people in the
situation feel entirely
we were hopeless so many thing I thought
I'll never be like that I'll never do
that but then I picked up a lot of other
damaging things that come from that
trauma a lot of other things that had
been assimilated into my life here I as
a man I felt like hey it's my way or the
highway
I remember times with my daughter
Brielle and I would yell at her as if
she was a 30 year old man I constantly
apologize constantly call them and say
sorry
I'm sorry
that he missed it
catalyst I change my life
because here I was a very successful man
very successful but we have to realize
is that success is the warmest place to
hide does not matter what you look like
into the map anyone anywhere can be
victimized and no man woman or child
should ever put up with being treated as
less than a human being ever how did we
get that far off when people are looking
for the way when the whole thing is
geared where you can't ask for help
or if you bring it up how in the world
are you gonna afford an attorney in
order to fight this good you need three
things I'm going to come
with a lot of your damage and things
that happened to you need this that's
emotionally you need distance
financially and you need distance
invisible
coming out with your story is probably
one of the hardest things ever and this
is one thing I love about what saving
horizon buys is a safe haven place to go
the services that you need I'm telling
you
this is more valuable
movies TV shows about this
this
because it's fixable understand this is
something that you we can be deeper way
we have to speak up you can see it but
you have to show people you are changing