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so I went to a Catholic school up to
eighth grade with all white kids and
probably two or three black kids but if
you know predominantly white school and
then I went to my neighborhood High
School in ninth grade that was 99% black
kids so the first day that I walk in to
ninth grade I walked into the lunchroom
and you know it's like five hundred kids
and four to this day I don't know why I
did this I'm sure it was because I was I
was nervous and you know I got that I
have a thing with fear I don't like
being scared so I'm sure I was I walked
in I looked around and I said excuse me
can I have your attention
can I have your attention please he's
here he's here right now
thank you thank you people who got to
looking and there was just one dude and
he was sitting there and he looked up to
me said man don't nobody get that you
here right and I said hey just give me
10 minutes your girl going care right
and he was like and you got to watch
that not that not is not a good night
he's like
and I was like okay so I went some
walking up the steps we're out of the
lunch room and I forgot about it
so we're gone and I'm walking up the
steps and he had taken one of those
combination locks and he put the lock in
the palm of his hand and put his put the
the loop around his knuckle and he was
holding the lock in his hand and as I
was walking up the steps he cracked me
in the side of my head with the lot and
I went down I was out I don't remember
nothing I still got the lump on my head
you can't see it cuz I got my hear but I
still like there's still a lump so I
remember I fell down I hit my mouth on
the steps all of that stuff you know so
I went up so I'm in the principal's
office all of that the police comes and
I got the ice on my lips and I'm sitting
in the principal's office and my father
comes in he sees me and you know I'm
telling the story now the police are
there and I remember I saw this kid they
put him in handcuffs and took him out of
the school and I'm looking sitting in
the principal's office and I'm watching
the police take him out and put him in
the back of a police car and I just
couldn't believe it had escalated to a
kid being removed from from school and I
was laying in my bed that night and I
was just feeling like [ __ ] and I had the
recognition that I had caused this kid
to throw his life away
right and he was kicked out of school
and I never knew what what happened to
him but I have a sense that it didn't go
well beyond there and I felt a deep
sense of regret and a deep sense that I
had it caused an emotion in a person
that made them do that and that that
feeling of regret turned into a sort of
a fear of how much power I had and I was
like everything I say and do has that
kind of effect on other human beings and
in that moment I decided that I would
never walk into a room and do anything
other than inspire and uplift and
enlighten people and help people to be
the greater versions of themselves and I
would never do anything that would cause
people to or to rile up the darkest
dirtiest parts of people I only wanted
to enliven and enlighten and inspire and
I remember laying in my bed that night
and I made that promise to myself and I
made that promise to God and it's
something that has completely shaped how
I approach people how I approach moments
how I walk into rooms how I deal with
every human being on this earth to him
and to his family I want to send my
deepest apologies and I hope my words
and my sincerity reach you and I hope
your life has gone well for you
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