I thought that the inspiration for this song was me falling in love, at the time of writing
it, I thought I was writing all of these sentences to kind of like, sum up how it feels to want
to be needed by someone.
Looking back, I think my lines kind of come across more ... codependent... that's that.
We were looking for male vocalists and a number of people came up, but I listened to Tom Walker's
song “Leave a Light On” and he's got such a like, husk and deep, gruffness to his voice.
I was like, "Ooh.
I want that in my song."
Yeah, he came into the studio, sang it in like, one day.
He's the nicest, Northernest chap you'll ever meet.
Just so happy to do it.
What a babe.
So that was really fun.
That first line I think I was such a fan, I still am, of like writing about bodies and
minds in like a gruesome way, like organically.
I don't know, I really like linking feelings to just you in a fleshy carcass, whatever,
I don't know.
I felt like I wanted to truly knock the shell of who that person was and like get inside
to the gooey gooey stuff because I felt like that was what I could do.
I want to be that number one person that you can trust.
I wasn't in the best mental state when I was writing this.
I was kind of hanging onto thin threads of goodness in life, and I feel like I was getting
that satisfaction from this person so, "This night just can't end" was 'I've got this one
good night'.
It was this one night of us like singing this song ironically.
I remember feeling it so much in like that moment.
I was like, 'I don't want this moment this night to end' of like just, coolness, like
just music, and like being in a relationship together.
Yeah, I don't know, it's very meta.
I think that line 'let me have a see,' is like very caring, it's like someone being
like "come on, let me have a look.
Let me have a look.
It's almost as if like I'm unzipping the skin and like being like, let's have a see of like
what's there, let's see if we can fix it.
The word human kind of like links back to the kind of like gooey, gorey language I used
before because it just felt so organic.
The idea that he'd give me something, like some inclination that he liked me or loved
me and wanted to do this with me.
"I'll fall back," is like Boo!
Here I am!
I'm ready, you leaned, I'm falling.
So this is the very line that looking back on, I realized, I was like "Oh, this is not
a love song".
Like, someone is not meant to fit into a life to make everything okay again.
I knew as I was writing it, I was like, "You'll do, like this whole thing will do, this will
keep me together in this very dark time in my mind.”
Which again, is not very healthy, not very healthy for them, for me, for the entire thing.
So I think now going into a relationship, I think it's very important to be okay by
yourself, and be able to stand on your own two feet and feel intact.
I don’t know, like seeing their face light up, like lit me up and I knew I wanted to
be the person to do that for them.
Someone texted this to me, a different person.
It was actually my best friend at the time, we were realizing how much we loved each other,
and he was like, "I just realized if I walk into a room it's instantly better with you
in it."
And I was like, "That is the sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me, and I totally
feel that way with you as well."