It has been theorized that surgery itself
is just an era that will pass.
[ Keys jingling ]
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♪ We don't need ♪
I can't sleep.
♪ Anything ♪
I can't sleep.
♪ Or anyone ♪
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♪ If I lay here ♪
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♪ If I just lay here ♪
♪ Would you lie with me and just forget the world? ♪
But that's a long way away.
♪ Forget what we're told ♪
And in the meantime, there are eras within eras.
He's very dreamy, but he is not the sun.
You are. [ Door opens ]
We discover new science,
we posit, prove new theories.
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[ Sighs ]
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You should go.
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I should go where?
You should go back to Minnesota.
That's where your life is.
My life is here. I see.
I do not think you intentionally sabotaged this program.
That's not what I was saying. What were you saying?
That I unintentionally sabotaged the program? No.
That I'm so unconscious that I have no idea what drives me? [ Sighs ]
Or were you saying I don't know what I want?
I don't know what I want to the degree
that I risked a woman's life, that I ended it?
No.
I'm saying you've spent your entire adult life in one place,
and that makes it hard to leave -- it does.
And sometimes...we all don't know what's driving us, okay?
Sometimes I feel 18.
Sometimes I feel 8.
We all have unpacked issues. We all have trauma.
And from what I understand,
you have more than your fair share.
I'm saying it's hard to leave, Meredith.
It's hard. It's hard to leave. It is.
And what we did today, that made it harder.
I don't think those two things are entirely unrelated.
But if you saw all of that, tell me why you didn't stop me.
Tell me why you didn't say something.
I saw what I saw,
and I have enough humility and enough respect
to allow for the possibility that I was wrong.
Because you are Meredith Grey
and you do not like being told what to do.
♪ If I just lay here ♪
♪ Would you lie with me and just forget the world? ♪
[ Crying ] You really just should go.
Just go. Just go back to Minnesota.
I have a lot of work to do here.
♪ Forget what we're told ♪
And then we bang our heads against the wall,
trying to convince ourselves to actually change our practices
in line with what we know.
♪ Show me a garden that's bursting into life ♪
[ Door closes ]
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♪ All that I am ♪
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♪ All that I ever was ♪
♪ Just know that these things ♪
♪ Will never change for us at all ♪
♪ If I lay here ♪
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♪ If I just lay here ♪
Because the end of an era...
Nick!
Nick?
...is easier said than done.
♪ Just forget the world ♪