- This video was from 2014 during YouTube House
season one in L.A.
I wanted to repost this because I felt like the message
I was conveying was so genuinely felt by me at the time,
and I truly think it will help the mentality
of anyone going through similar hardships now.
Enjoy, and stay positive.
What is up my friends and family.
Today I just wanted to bring you a couple words
of encouragement.
This morning I woke up and, for the last couple of days,
I could feel this little bit of a bump coming up,
I could feel it kind of rising,
and then this morning, it was like, full-fledged out.
And you can see it, right, it's right here.
I'll give you a little closer of a look.
But, it is big, right?
It's one of those big white-headed, cystic type ones,
and these are the ones that you honestly, you know,
you probably know this, if you've dealt with acne
for a while in your life,
you shouldn't pinch those out and squeeze them out,
because when you do, every single time,
every single, single time,
it gets worse.
The next day, it's way worse, then it's also red,
and, it's also expanding because you just put all that
pressure on it and stuff, so you're not supposed
to push them out, right?
But, you do have to go live your life, right,
and you got a big old white one on your head.
(claps hands)
The point of this video is, I just wanted
to let you guys know, that I realize,
I mean, I've come from deep cystic acne, and I've also come
from being a sort of an awkward, like, socially awkward
fellow, kind of a nervous guy, in social situations,
I mean, that was many years ago.
But I understand all that stuff.
And I remember when I was in high school and I'd wake up
with one of these on my head, and I would,
I'd be like, oh man, I have to go to school in like an hour.
This is terrible.
And I'd try to come up with so many different things.
Sometimes I'd pop 'em, sometimes I'd try to even put,
like, I'm not even gonna lie to you, try to put, like,
a little bit of concealer on there, like, a little bit
of makeup on there.
Sometimes I would wear, like, a hat or something like that.
I was always trying to figure out how to get away
from it, but then I realized,
now that I've dealt with all this stuff so many times,
and so long, I don't care.
I just don't care.
I mean, yes, I would rather not have a big old whitehead
on my forehead.
But the idea of not living my life the same way that I was
planning on living my life, just because of something
that came up on my face,
I just hate that idea, and I hate the fact that anybody
who has to deal with this type of thing,
is dealing with that as well.
They're limiting their life, their capacity of how much
they can live, and how much they can experience,
is being limited by the fact that they're nervous,
or, insecure about their face, or, whatever it is.
You know, if it's acne, or if it's obesity,
if it's stretch marks, if it's a deformation.
If it's anything, I don't know what it could be
for you, specifically, for me,
I've dealt with acne my whole life.
It feels like my whole life.
It's been about six years of this now.
But, when I went out this morning, we went
to Barbell Brigade, which is a very famous gym,
there's many serious lifters there, it's a very
intimidating culture there, in a good way, like,
it's very serious, like everyone knows what they're doing.
And I mean, if you want to say it this way,
there's famous people that hang out there.
So, you know, that could be a nerve wracking situation.
And I'd say about a year ago, I would go into the situation,
I'd probably try to be acting like, oh, it's not a big deal.
But inside I'd be like, oh man, I have this zit
on my face, like, I really don't want these people
to look at me.
Like, oh God, I'm talking to this person, but I can tell
that they're looking at my zit.
I legitimately don't care.
I just don't care anymore.
I know I keep saying it, but I just want you guys,
I want you to relate, and then feel it, and see that like,
I'm living my life.
This is one of the biggest ones I've had in a long time.
I don't remember the last time I had one
of these big, big ones.
And I went in there, and, I guess at first I was
a little bit, like, oh man, I got a big zit.
And I was like, you know what though?
I'm gonna focus on my workout, which is my passion,
my number one passion in the world is bodybuilding.
Also, gosh, it is very sweaty, it's really hot,
so I'm getting sweaty, so, just forgive me a little bit.
My number one passion in the world is bodybuilding,
and lifting, and feeling my body, and working my muscles,
and really pushing myself to my physical capacity, and,
I always say this for people who are dealing with some sort
of insecurity, if you focus on a passion,
whatever your passion is, if you focus everything
on that passion, because that passion is so engaging,
it's something you're so passionate about,
you're so deeply involved and engaged with,
it's gonna be so difficult to worry about the small things.
And I know this may seem like a big thing to you,
but to me, because I'm so focused on that workout,
and I'm so focused on making these beautiful YouTube videos
for you guys, I'm working with my friends, and, you know,
living my life to the fullest,
this is insignificant.
And the reason I say that, is,
the only reason that a zit would be significant for you,
is because of the things that people are saying, right?
So, that's what makes you insecure.
It's not necessarily so much the fact that you have a zit,
it's that, you know, you think that person
is thinking about you.
You think that person's whispering about you.
You think that person cares, and isn't gonna treat you
the same way, with less respect, or whatever.
Now though, dude, I go in there, and I'm talking
to some of the people that I know, like, Lou and whatnot,
people I have met before, and I'm just like,
who cares man, I got a big old volcano zit,
I don't even care.
And then I'd meet new people, I met like three or four
new people in there, I just didn't care, because,
if you're being you, and you're legitimately
over the insecurity, and you're just looking
in people's eyes, and talking to them,
and having a good conversation,
the good conversation well, well, well outweighs
the acne on your face, or the stretch marks that you have,
or whatever issue it is.
I'm here to tell you, please guys,
just try to focus harder on your passion.
I know what I'm saying, it's not a switch, it's not like
you're just like, oh now I'm focusing on my passion,
I don't care about my acne.
It's definitely a very small step thing,
where you get more and more comfortable, and you get
more and more engaged in your passion,
and a little bit less insecure.
My personal opinion is that if you find your passion,
or multiple passions, and you focus on those passions,
it will help you leaps and bounds
with your security and yourself.
Because like I said, all the small problems,
all the small things that you're worried about,
all the worries and stuff, it's all white noise, literally.
It's just back here, shh.
And you're up here, you're focusing on,
I need to get this lift, and I need to put this video up,
and I need to get this clothing out, and I need
to worry about this, and you're like,
oh, Robert thinks that I have,
I'm on steroids, because of acne, or, you know,
that girl think that I'm not that cute, because acne,
I don't want to hang out with Robert or that girl.
I don't want to hang out with them ever.
They just pre-screened themselves out of my life,
because they're the type of person who sees someone's
physical traits, or just a small portion
of their physical being, and then judges,
and brings all this prejudice, and,
it's just not the right way to judge people,
based simply off of something that comes up on their face,
or, obesity, or any sort of insecurity.
I think it's so terrible.
And those are people that I don't want in my life,
so it's great that they screened themselves out.
That's the way I look at it, and it's kind of a way that,
you know, you become comfortable with the fact that,
some people are a little bit judgmental.
And then you're like, you know what?
I don't really like those people.
So that's fine, you think I look terrible?
Awesome.
I didn't want to hang out with you.
Guys, I just really, really, really wanted
to put this message out for you, because,
I feel so strongly about becoming passionate about
whatever it is that you're passionate about,
and not worrying about the white noise, and I feel like
that's a big way to build confidence in yourself,
and I really want you guys to try.
I know it's not easy, like I said earlier,
but just try it.
Try it.
And I thought this was a perfect opportunity
to show you guys that I'm doing the same thing.
I'm comfortable in my skin, I'm going out there,
I'm doing the same things that I was planning
on doing yesterday, and I got this big one right here.
So, I mean, just, look at me.
If you guys enjoyed the video, please give it a thumbs up,
leave me a comment, let me know what you guys thought,
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Also, share this with your friends
who have some sort of insecurity.
You know what, no matter what it is,
hopefully this video can help.
And I'm sweating really bad,
(laughs)
so I'm gonna head back in,
and take all this gross clothing off.
I love you guys, thanks for checking out the video,
Team Beyond the Weak, C.T.
- Lift heavy, or die admiring, motherfucker.
Mm.
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