hello good morning so we're sitting at day nine okay it's not even morning it's afternoon
um god i'm surprised i'm not covering myself with long sleeves because my
exforiation disorder has been affecting me clearly and you can see it on my arms and i
hate it so much i can't let my insecurity stop me from living my life you know
but people you need to stop making fun of me about it like damn i can't control it anyways
my weigh-in um i used both scales but i'm just gonna start logging my weight with the new skill
because it's like i didn't spend 80 dollars just to let it sit there and steal me use the old one
doesn't make sense i did weigh myself three times on my new scale and i'm just gonna like take the
overall like middle one thankfully it was all 491 point something it was 491.0 491.4 and 491.2 the
middle of that is 491.2 but i could just take the heavier 149.4 and if i do that that means i stayed
the same from yesterday so actually we're about to take twinkie to the vet because as you guys
know she's been on this medicine um that she takes for her i guess like small dogs get like messed up
knees or whatever and twinkie is old unfortunately even though she acts like a uh a spry chicken what
is it a spring chicken hold on google is my friend wait where's my phone oh it's in my pocket okay
a young person and knows is no spring chicken what spri chicken used to describe someone
full of energy and adventure i was right baby it's fried chicken yeah spring chicken a spring
chicken what's a spring chicken it's a young so a young a spring chicken is a young person but
a spri chicken is twinkie she acts like she got all the energies when she's playing but then any
other time she acts like gamatos what gametos did you just come on camouflage wait isn't it called
cammados comatose that's the only problem she has is her knees so um we're just gonna get her blood
taken see how the medicine is treating her my girlfriend does trim twinkies um nails frequently
my girlfriend does trim twinkies nails um i don't animals are abused every
day and they can't ask for help they endure indescribable acts of violence
but they're without a voice without a voice to say they're frightened and in pain they're alone
they're scared and they need your help just a typical vet visit so let's go so i want to show
you guys twinkie and her seatbelt and she's still able to lay down oh she's so sweet she
has no idea she's about to go to the bed she does pretty good at the vet i'm not gonna lie um this
is like a curbside vet type style situation so it's raining you guys can't even tell us why i'm
going to show you stories oh my gosh she's scared it's okay here let me get her back right out of it
you want me to get her do you want to just come in would you just carry a room for me
i know your curbside oh twinkie was scared
so my girlfriend is gonna uh take her in sookie usually doesn't get scared like that
i didn't have my mask with me thankfully she has hers but you have to wear a mask when you
go in there which is understandable if you do end up going in there because it is curbside
so i want to do an update and just say that twinkie is okay
i'm just so upset because like i wish i would have had my freaking mask because i wanted to
be the one to go in there with her she's never reacted that way before so that definitely
shocked us um and it's like i didn't bring my mask because our appointment was curbside she's
actually sitting next to me as i edit this just snoring away i don't know if you guys can hear her
the next clip is just me sharing a little story time of a bird would you look at the bird or
would you not there's this van literally on the right side of me right now and there is
probably about five kids i'd say in the ranging from 10 to like 13 and what i'm assuming might be
their parents it is two females though i mean it's 20 22. we were like why are they in the
vet like we couldn't see a dog we couldn't see a cat and we were just like so what are they doing
then i see that they have a bird in a cage and i was like oh my god a bird and i'm just like
staring because i'm like oh it's a bird so cute and my girlfriend's like stop looking so hard and
i'm like but it's a bird in a cage how could you not want to look at a bird in a cage and she was
like there's birds everywhere and i was like no but this is a pet bird there's a difference so my
question for you guys is would you be more like me and would you you know take a few glances at
the cute little colorful bird or would you be like my girlfriend and you'd be like stop looking don't
look don't look i feel like people expect you to look at their bird if they have a bird in the cage
alright so on the way home we stopped and got some starbucks i don't know if you guys know this
but i just learned it that when dogs have allergies they lick their paws
random fact so we both got a grande lemonade calories on this 110 calories
i got two unicorn pops they're 160 calories each oh so worth it i'll be taking off the calories on
that regard she got the um turkey pesto sandwich situation type deal that's usually what i get to
and i was going to get it but i really wanted the impossible sandwich which was also less
calories by like 100 so this is 420 calories it has cheese eggs eggs there's just one egg
i'm assuming i would always know baby girl and um obviously the impossible sausage which is
meatless oh i thought i turned it off
she thinks she owns a place that's my first meal of the day look at her son bathen
does that feel good
does that feel good so good she's literally sun bathing oh she literally just looked like
a hot dog that you just flipped over when you're grilling it she said plop so i wrote
my girlfriend a little note and she has to unfold it this reminds me of those days in
school when you would write little love notes or little notes to your friends this is actually
a heart-shaped piece of paper um i actually got this set from my aunt valentine's day in 2021
she was sending me gifts for each holiday and i would do the same for her it was really cute this
is one of the gifts that she got me i actually keep them in here and then this goes right here
i just keep this um on my desk it's just easier like i have colored pens here highlighters i have
some um lip gloss moments i have a perfume this is from the holidays it's time i like either use
it up or throw it away um it's bubbly rose bath and body works more highlighters colored pens
we have a little scissor moment you know scissor sisters i don't know why people hate so hardcore
on lunch in bed or dinner in bed but they don't bat an eye when it comes to breakfast in bed
i'm having some major heartburn i feel like it's from the chocolate and in this moment i don't care
i'm telling myself i'm still gonna have my chocolate later i'm about to go to my bedroom
stuff my face with this hot candy which i'll show you while watching one of my favorite tv shows
so and that excites me anyways so for this meal we are eating in bed and watching 90 day fiance
so we ordered from this italian place where i've had the pesto pasta before which is the one to the
right with like the pine nuts and stuff and i love it but then the one to the left is like this spicy
ground sausage mushroom garlic cream pasta situation and i've also never had that type of
pasta shape before so i was like oh my god i want to try it so bad kind of picky lately i've noticed
as i've gotten older and more picky with food so i was like crap um what if i don't like it so i was
like okay i'm gonna get this to try and if i don't like it then i can just you know stick to my pesto
if you're worried about your weight but you don't count calories split your food in half it's a very
common trick so i have half of both and if i have to choose the mushroom and spicy ground sausage
by far hands down the better one of two now i'm like salivating doing this voiceover talking about
this pasta because when i tell you when i tell you that mushrooms in there and that pasta was so good
i want to show you what we got at the good old um wait what is this oh just a five percent okay
cool cool cool cool um i want to show you what we got jodie picole one of my favorite authors
i wish you were here sounded interesting so i got that and i'm thinking about starting a book club
so i got like a book club journal situation type deal and then i got a mindful year it's
365 thoughtful writing prompts is this a lasting baby i got a writer's year 365 creative writing
prompts which i'm actually really excited so that is what we got now what are we doing going home
it's up to you homesies homesies so i'm hungry and my natural instinct is to order mcdonald's
but i'm not going to i'm going to have this couscous that's roasted garlic and olive oil
and the only ingredient you need is this obviously and a little bit of butter wow this is a mess
and obviously water should i use butter olive oil
because i said i could use either a fourth of a cup oops
one i'm also supposed to put in
the contents of the spices
okay so i thought i was filming but it turns out i wasn't i forgot that i turned it off but
i poured the couscous in there uh now i have to remove from the heat and just let it do its thing
it's literally so easy to make it took me like five seconds you have to fluff it
alrighty there is finished product i love the texture of couscous okay so
i'm eating again i'm struggling tonight i'm not gonna lie about that struggling today in general
i'm kind of just eating to eat i feel the sense of loneliness currently sometimes
when i cater to that i just eat i'm eating one of my jenny craig meals it is 250 calories
it's just a loaded baked potato um i put a serving of ranch on here is 120 calories
pretty sure these are 80 calories but i might have two of them it is quest i don't know if you guys
ever heard of quest bars but apparently they have little candy bites as they call them it's gooey
caramel flavor with peanuts so i just feel like i need something chocolatey more than likely i'll
probably be eating those add another 160 calories so i'm at over 3000 calories i today um i'm also
having a dr pepper and cream soda zero sugar if you guys have never had this it is amazing
um chef's kiss and now that i can make my own ice with my new ice tray that i got um i can like
create my own fountain drink anyways i'm gonna eat this i don't even know is it even gonna taste good
like now that i've rambled do i even want this anymore let's do a taste test together have you
guys been enjoying these like genuinely speaking like have you been enjoying this series i hope so
but yeah the tea about jenny craig i wanted to try jenny craig again so i went there
you know did the whole meeting thing got the food and then i just realized like it's not for me
my psychologist knows i'm not gonna be successful doing that it's honestly just
another i hate to say it kind of fad diet situation and instead of wasting the food
i might as well eat some of it my girlfriends ate a couple things from it too and she thought it was
okay like it's nothing special not gonna lie oof doesn't have that oomph to it if that makes sense
i don't even know what i'm talking about i'm gonna go eat this bye hello so honestly i just feel sad
right now it's just such a hollow feeling and i've done a little bit of crying i'm gonna cry
some more and i'm also trying to remind myself like there's so many things that i'm grateful for
and during moments like this i just have to make lists and just be thankful that i'm breathing
you know i have my mom in my life my fur babies my girlfriend my aunt
youtube you guys a roof over my head and water i'm gonna go journal about these feelings listen to
some music because i am tired of anxiety anyways thank you guys so much for enjoying these videos
and i will see you guys tomorrow for episode 10 which is the season finale i love you guys bye