With Caitlyn I mean right now our relationship romantically is behind the
others but I would say I'm hopeful that we can get there did you have fun I had
so much fun and I feel like I've kind of like been slipping behind a little bit
because we got sent home on the last group date but yeah it seems great and
I'm like super happy that I'm here I'm happy that you're here too but you know
I still want to continue to get to know you want a little bit of a deeper level
and really figure out what makes you you yeah I feel like a lot of girls have
been progressing in that sense and I haven't I haven't had anything like
happen in my life that like is standing out for me right now that like I want to
share with you other than the fact they're like James great I don't think
coming in I realize how like it quickly you're gonna like fall for things yeah I
mean it feels like it's all or nothing tonight it's not really about time it's
about that connection yeah if you're making the most out of those minutes
that's gonna change everything for you Holton
right now in your life what are you looking for that you would say like hey
I'm ready right now and this is why and I want somebody that's happy to go out
with me and my friends and have a really ridiculous silly evening I don't know
I'm happy to you know open up to you about that yeah
I do know that some girls are further along with them and have to play a
little bit of catch-up not every person here is gonna make some match with
Colton and he knows he wants a wife he knows what all these he's looking for in
a wife so he's just waiting a beautiful when they connect to it and obviously
this experience is not for everybody it can be difficult at times it is
definitely different and I do know the challenges that come along with it yeah
and you do get in your head a little bit you overthink some things and you start
comparing yourself naturally and I don't want you to do that no for sure you
learn a lot about yourself in this experience but I'm not really sure what
to like open up about other than the fact that like my life has been like
good yeah you know tonight I'm looking for developing these relationships on a
deeper level and as much as I wanted tonight to grow and progress my
relationship with Kaitlyn I just didn't feel it what's an intimate night with
your family you're talking board games are we talking movie I don't know where
we're going to this I just didn't feel the chemistry I didn't feel the sparks I
think tonight just sitting down with her and conversation wasn't the best
oh shoot but one thing I know is I have relationships that are further along and
with Kaitlyn I just didn't feel so yeah I was really looking forward to
didn't talk to you tonight and tonight you know I was hoping you would give me
the clarity and sort of see exactly where our relationship could go if I'm
being completely honest tonight I just didn't feel like that spark was there
I'm sorry for somebody who deserves the best
but I just don't think that you are for me
so I would like to walk you out
when I hold your hand Colton what just happen to know but I don't feel good
about it I just like mix he's missing I don't want to talk about it like she's
way in front of him you guys think he's sending her home
Oh God
breaking up with Caitlyn I'm struggling with it she is incredible I feel bad I
feel terrible for doing this as somebody I mean I've been on the other side I
know what you give up I know the sacrifices you make I know it's not a
good feeling going home I just hope that I'm not making a
mistake
honestly didn't expect for me to be in this position
because like he got rid of somebody that was here and there was real and I wanted
to be here for him with her other women in the house who are in know much hi
Colton you wanna squeeze in yeah I'm a squeeze bag this is hard it's really
hard I feel like there are so many other girls who like should have been walked
out that door before me I feel like throwing me away this early it was a
really big mistake Nicole we are selling this race yes yes I will he really needs
to think about who is here for the right reasons
because that maybe he'll regret a decision eventually I think maybe she'll
bring her back
you