Imagine Rupi Kaur had a baby with Gabbie Hanna and a typewriter. Hi let's talk about Bella Thorne's
book: the life of a wannabe mogul. If you're unfamiliar with Bella Thorne she used to be
on a very popular Disney show called Shake It Up as Cece Jones along with Zendaya my queen. Since
Disney ended she's had a really rich career and you know shaken things up.. HA HA HA HA
She's starred in a host of movies, films, she's directed her own film
on the hub which won an award, she's dated Tana, she's broken up, she's made a song about her,
she's leaked her own nudes, she used only fans as a research experiment which caused a slew of
controversy after only fans put in restrictions which harmed actual creators on the platform...
which brings us to this! What is there in this world that Bella Thorne cannot do? You know
she does it all! This is a book that she dedicates to no one other than her
mu-freaking self and all the lovely lost souls are there and i think this really sums up this
book completely in its entirety. Bella really isn't writing this for anyone apart from herself
and she even says on her first page that if you don't like this you can kindly bog off!
Seriously drop this book in the trash and never talk about it again love bella xoxo.
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off and yeah anyway back to you Divya boop. The life of a wannabe mogul is less a poetry book and
more a therapy dump. I mean firstly she literally doesn't even call it a poetry book anywhere.
I want you to imagine if a whole book was a draft. This is basically the diary of bella thorne she
wrote personal [ __ ] at 3am printed it crumpled up a bit scrapped some bits and then she picked it
all off the floor photocopied it scanned it stuck in a book and she made this baby. The title is
literally mental disarray and i'm not gonna lie i read this and i came out even more depressed
than i actually am so you know.. a subscribe would be nice for the reparations. She said in
an interview that she really wanted to show her most authentic self and she's right. This book
is raw! And she really stuck with it you know this book is very stream of consciousness,
you know some sentences don't really make sense. She talks about molestation,
how we blame our parents for our problems, needing validation from people, depression, and there's a
there's a lot of dark [ __ ] in here you know. It's darker than my pits. Now i normally feel
like illustrations are a little bit gimmicky but for the theme that Bella is going with this poetry
book I feel like it really does add a little bit of je nais sais quoi. Bella's actually dyslexic
and she doesn't correct her grammar at all I know some people didn't like that but I feel like that
fits with the theme of Bella Thorne. I feel like she does break all rules of poetry really like
she uses a lot of visual stuff like crumpled papers, textures, there's asymmetry everywhere,
you can see the typewriter is slanted, there are bits that you can't really read,
and I think for the most part it really adds to the whole like yeah this is what my brains like.
I can't lie to you there were some bits where I was a bit like yeh kya hai, que es esto, yo ke ho?
in Gabbie's book time was relative and in bella thorne's book time equals crain?? It's like Gabbie
and Bella formed a little bit of a book club and then Gabbie was like "yeah f global warming you
just gotta put fake Bhudda quotes here you know some some [ __ ] from your draft. You know like
quotes you'd find on a forever 21 t-shirt you know before they closed down" and then we ended up with
poems like this. Some may call it a-d-d. I call it the signs of a creative mind" "Life's a big dump
just flush it. Don't forget to use toilet paper because it could make your ass sore"
"Some of the best things are done rushed" "I don't work with the odds. i work against them"
Once a snitch forever lies in a ditch" "[ __ ] shakespeare it really cocked me outta some[love]"
I have no idea what that's about. And then there's this acrostic um "my special friend kyra
k: kick ass y: YOUphoric r: relentless a: addictive" and it reminds me of the poetry that
i made in year six that actually got published. I do think there are some poems that are very
difficult to get through and it's difficult to read because it feels a little bit half-baked.
In a bunch of interviews Bellas talks about how she feels like people have this perception of her
that she doesn't understand Bella: like i'm tired of people thinking something about me that's just
not me and i don't know another way to show people who i am other than just literally being like
here it is on a silver platter [ __ ] judge me and take it for what it is i don't know" I feel like
the thing she's going for is like she knows that there isn't really a cheat code in life. You can't
really skip parts that you don't like. A lot of the poetry i didn't really like but there is some
parts where i came to really kind of appreciate what she was trying to do. So there's this poem
in particular which is very illustrative of like emotional turmoil like she uses a lot of visual
metaphors a lot of wordplay here you can see like the color contrast. The black to the red.
The cacophonic sounds and the vulgar words nested amongst the love - i'm not gonna say out loud you
know monetization and that. But i think you could interpret in a few ways. So you can interpret it
as the blurred lines between love and hate. It really reminds us of like the confusion of like
a very troubled relationship: you don't really know where hate starts and love begins and i
think she's also nodding a little bit to the rocky relationship with her mother when she says "she
raised me with this love". So she talks a little bit about parental trauma and it's something that
she explores later on her other poems as well. And i think just visually like the overlapping of the
words let's us see how the inside of her mind is really like. There's like other poems where you
can see this similar sort of theme and personally for me, I kind of liked it. I kind of dug it.
There's a few poems where it's like letters to her dead father and her mother it's very revealing of
Bella. Her father died when she was really young and it almost left them homeless before bella
got like a big break on shake it up. When she writes she questions a lot of her own thoughts.
At the start of the poem you think that she's mournful at the end she ends with like anger
and then she starts to ruminate and love and question. And there's another poem that she calls
a love note to her mother which is ironic because the whole poem is basically her questioning like
the difficult relationship. "Everything you have left me with which is so much but also nothing
of myself". And the thing that really speaks about the way you know our family our parents
our guardians their trauma can shape all of who we are and when we spend our a lot of our lives
blaming them because it's kind of the easiest way that we know how to cope. We're always questioning
like why are we this way? Why am i built like that? At the end of the book she talks about the
love that she has for her mother and she kind of just wanted to get the words out from "lingering
under her skin" which i like that line. I think it was very refreshing even though the whole book
i was a bit like damn Bella you're really pulling me through the five stages of grief here. Okay
so there's this bit at the end which is just i found it really entertaining. Marilyn Manson says
"i just became illiterate after reading this but the nude photographs was still very interesting"
a spoiler there is no nude photographs. Zendaya just doesn't even comment on the book at all she's
just like "you'll always be the cece to my rocky". Like okay miss i see you trying to keep the peace.
There's two people who said they didn't even read the book at all but they still commented and then
there's Snoop Dogg just being Snoop. "Yo sitting here smoking checking out this book opponents from
my homegirl bella damn girl you dope as a [ __ ] i and such words of magnitude and gratitude just
a little bit of attitude yes make sure you go get that book from my home girl bella book of rhymes
certified so says snoop dogg oh yeah she's a poet and she know it and she ain't afraid to
show it and if you're happy and you know it blow it this is for you bella do you [ __ ] girl"
Snoop Dogg i know you did not read this book because there's around about three
poems which actually rhyme. So we all know Snoop Dogg you're really just blowing smoke.
I appreciate the thought behind what she was trying to do not necessarily the execution.
Personally i'd rate this like a two stars. If you're like a really hardcore Bella Thorne fan
then this was something quite interesting. So I reviewed a bunch of versions before
so like savannah brown reaper core and all that so if you want to check that out then
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that's all i have to say alright peace out bye bye