So volatile I just I don't know who he is anymore
And then this morning he said I'm much more confident going into this rose ceremony than last week's I was like what
Something had must have happened he has some type of plan or he's feeling good about something. Yeah
So, I don't know what's gonna happen
I
Don't know yet what's gonna take place but at this point I do have nothing to lose I have only to gain
I want to show her and let her feel my passion in my heart and where I'm at as far as my head is concerned
Tonight I feel like kind of rejuvenated I'm feeling motivated and I'm feeling ready to fight
Things are about to happen
Surprise
Dress is crazy. Thank you. We sit down. I'm like
This is crazy, this is nice
I want to come talk to you. Hi
Thank you, I appreciate it. Um, yeah, so I feel like the last like week and a half
There's been a ton of distractions and it's kind of prevented me to
talk about anything besides the distractions and have been able to like talk to you about how I feel or
show you how serious I am so
tonight I feel like it's so important for me to put this on the right track because I
Strongly believe in you and I and I collegiate Emily say that I can see myself
there you at the end of this 100% I
Guess my question is what's changed?
because that's a big step to go from last week you questioning like where we are and
You being here versus now saying you could see yourself getting down on one knee
Like what brought that on? Like what's been a major factor in that? Well be huge
See see me getting down on one knee has nothing to do with me
Being upset and hurt because me not having time with you that night made me feel like I took a step back
I just felt maybe that night that you didn't care
and for me, I'm all in I
again, I don't know why you would think that I didn't care cuz up until that point I give you no reason to question or
I was in my feelings with you like I gave you
one of the very first one-on-ones for a reason and I don't know why you would go from
those great high feelings to
Being like I'm questioning everything
Does she like me I might go home
I'm not disagreeing with you at all
But I will say this I need you to like not think about that anymore like my passion and me being here right now
Should give you the reassurance to help, you know, like I'm in this and I'm not someone who gives up on something
I truly believe in. Well, here's the thing though. Like I came into this week
Donald Fagen, I wanted to leave that behind and not focus on Vegas like I don't want to talk about it anymore
because I keep want I want to keep taking steps forward and
now I
Feel like not only last night with the drama and during the day with the drama, but like it's kind of seeped into
my dates
Everyday in Virginia and that's been super frustrating
So, what do you want, I mean, I know that we've had this a little bit of adversity, but it's not
something that's
Created by you, and I it's been feigns that I blow I would beg to differ. Okay, you can disagree on that but
For me, I feel like this little adversity is not gonna stop me from what I believe in and what I want
Like I'm not gonna let it and something that I feel strongly about
And and that's where I was last week to to be honest. I feel like I still felt that and this week
I was really hoping for that. I was hoping that things would turn around
but again, like I
Have so many questions and ruts like now that I don't know if we can get there and I don't think
We can at this point
So, what are you trying to say there's
Been a lot that I've heard a lot that I've seen a
lot that I've
just felt and have witnessed like
in the past couple days not even around you but hearing things and it scares me I
Mean I didn't go into like a
Lobby with my bags and got into a shuttle and then like turn around my you did
I know that you think this way you're here
Am I not allowed to express how I feel though, but it's not even that it's not even at this point
Vegas aside that gets not the fact that you hear in questions being here. It's everything I've seen since then
And it's been a lot to take in a ninety third dance
I know if there's things been said I've been attacked for the last week and a half you have done some attacking
Again if I'm being honest my relationships and picking them apart and there are some really solid strong relationships
And I don't think that we're there and at this point, I don't think that we'll get there
And that's not fair to you to
Drag you through an entire rose ceremony tomorrow if at this point like I
know that
it's
Not gonna work out
All right
Okay, I'll walk you out I
Don't get them. I
Like it. I know I don't I'm get it seriously
I'm gonna walk you out because you deserve that and I don't need like I'll walk out
Well, I don't think you need anything, but I'm gonna give you that respect
We could just save our hair, it's fun. Yeah say goodbye Alice to do was she the best like I do
Take care
I
Am so disappointed and what just happened I mean with Chris for the longest time?
I felt good with him, and I thought that we were moving forward
But I think Chris is just a very angry person
Has proved that he's not for me
He's not somebody that I would want to spend my life
Who I would want as my partner who I would want to raise children with
He's not the guy I want in my life ever
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