'Swamiji I don't know what I am doing with my life, but that is O.K.'
It is not O.K. Please understand. When you have your meal in your table and you throw here and there, apply all over your face,
even one percent of it is not going inside of your mouth and you are dancing on it. Is it ok?
It is ok if you do that only one day, your birthday. But that is not ok if you are going to do that everyday.
When you say, 'I don't know what I am doing with my life' It is not ok, please understand. Even if it is depressing, frustrating, stop this 'It is ok'.
Decide; even if you collapse, take on. Face it. And I tell you ultimately, there is nothing called collapsing. There is nothing called collapsing,
or breaking down.
For some people, if you cry, it is called breaking down
For some people, if you go bankrupt it is called breaking down.
For some people, if you get depressed it's called breaking down. But there is nothing called 'breaking down'. Understand
That idea 'this is what is breaking point for me', is the stupidity.
First thing; ' I don't know what I am doing with my life, but that is ok'
No. Break this pattern it is not ok.
Second; ' I was wondering if time has anything to do with ambition' Please understand,
What you are having, I will not call as ambition
I'd only call as confusion
See your ambition is your life and it is you.
You need to know, you are not spending your time on ambition
You are spending your life on ambition.
Please understand;
Something which has no life; only that has time.
Something which has life; it's time is life.
Please listen
Only for a stone
Twenty years is a time.
But for you, twenty years is life.
So you need to be very clear,
You are not spending your time on something.
You are spending your life on something.
When you are interested about it.
Using right word
Clears a lot of garbage, confusions, inside and outside.
Please understand
Using right word
Only for a stone twenty years is a time. But for you, twenty years is a life.
Your ambition is your life.
Divea (sp) When you make a statement, "I don't know what I am doing with my life", then the next statement, you can't have the word 'ambition'.
Ambition means you will clearly know what you want to do.
You may be successful or failure that is secondary.
But you will know very clearly what is your life. Only then we will call it as ambition.
If you don't know what you are doing with your life. I shall only call its a 'confusion'. It cannot be called as 'ambition'
Next line you are making: "Like, I have really strong ambitions, but I don't know what to focus on the most at the moment" Please understand,
There can never be ambitions, There can only be The Ambition and ambitions which can also be part of The Ambition.
Please understand
There can never be ambitions in the life. There can only be The Ambition
Then there will be other things you may want to do
I want to have a meal: The Ambition. I will have pickle also, an ice cream also
So those things should not be given the tile 'Ambition'. to avoid confusion in your system
Please understand, if you give the same word for the other things which you wanted to make it as reality, you will cause confusion within you.
So,
I may use this word; priority.
What you want to become only for that you should use the word ambition
If I read your whole question, you just need only one thing, nothing else. Integrity in your thinking. The words you are using within you
needs to be organized
You need to put a little more awareness into it.
Otherwise, you do not have a real problem. I tell you,
Most of us do not have real problem.
It is like two friends who are talking.
They are very close.
Twenty five years of friendship.
Suddenly, one fellow said "if you win a million dollar in lottery, what will you do?"
That guy said " I'll have ten thousand acre land farm and I'll just enjoy my life in a relaxed way"
And he asked back "if you get one million dollar in lottery what will you do?"
"Oh I will have ten thousand cows and dairy farm just next to your agriculture farm."
And his friend asks ""Hey, If you keep it next to mine if the cows come into my land what will happen?"
He says "Why, what is there? I'll send all my cows only to your land and graze them."
And this fellow: "Hey, how dare --you said you will send all your cows into my land? I'll put an electric fence and kill all your cows!"
This fellow: " Hey, how dare you said you will kill all my cows! I'll see to it what happens to your land and your agriculture!"
And fight starts.
Its not a real fight
Most of your problems are not using right word about you within you.
Using right words about you within you is what I call: Integrity with words.
When I read this question; you neither have ambition problem nor have a confusion problem or have dilemma,
You just need to spend a little time on educating yourself to use the right words within you.
Integrity with the words you use within you is all you need
I recommend you watch a series of discourses on Integrity available freely on Youtube.
Even if you watch some ten discourses you will understand how using right words within us takes away tons of our problems.
When you use the words "I don't know".. When you use the words like, I'll exactly read out the line:
"Like I have really strong ambitions but I don't know what to focus on the most at the moment"
It means. If you want to have a house, you call that as ambition. If you want to have a cup of ice cream you call that also as ambition.
That is where starts confusion
You want to have a chapal (sp) stand outside the house, you call that also as ambition.
Please understand, what you want to become,
in your inner space, how you want to hold yourself and how you want others to hold you
only that should be given the title 'Ambition'
All other things should be given maybe a smaller word;
Any word, you can choose
Those things can be called as
a small desire, a cute desire, time pause desire or entertaining desire
You can use any word. But do not use the word ambition for your whole laundry list.
When you use the word ambition for the whole laundry list starts the confusion.
And, your asking the next question: "It feels as if it is getting further away from me. What is the relationship of time with all these ambitions of mine?"
The whole situation is: It's all about confusion you are carrying. With confusion you will just be stuck.
Maybe you practice integrity with the words for eleven days- I tell you: This whole question you will have an experiential answer inside.
Blessings