Today's video, I just wanted to level with you guys
I think its pretty obvious that we've ghosted out on YouTube,
We've pretty much disappeared the past three or four months. We post like, occasionally.
I just wanted to talk to you guys and level with you guys about what's been going on with us
And the truth is that I've been like, I've been depressed, I think. I've been pretty,
I've been pretty sad.
That sounds stupid, that sounds pretty dumb, but depressed, I think, is better. I've been a mopey pathetic
piece of shit.
Alright?
[Ethan Klein Cough™]
The truth is that this past year 2017 and like
2016 - it was so huge for us, and we blew up from pretty much
we blew up so much our channel and
I was so focused on YouTube making videos
It was the core of my existence and I had put on blinders to everything else that was important,
doing anything except working, stuff like that not hanging out with my friends my family, and I just
towards the end of last year started to realize like
I had become a worse person all the sudden, I felt like
I was a better more mature person before internet fame or celebrity I was a more whole person. All of a sudden I was like
grouchier more arrogant more cynical
My time was more valuable than other people's time. I was snappy I was I was judgmental and
Just a ton of negativity
horrible feelings and I was just ended up being miserable
and I boiled over. I just couldn't I couldn't handle it. I didn't want to go on like that
I think I kind of like snapped a little bit, and I just I couldn't make h3 videos anymore. I just couldn't do it.
Jus- We did shoot maybe four videos and scrap them
Yeah, there was like a really bad run, and I just was like over it and
Thank God we had the podcast
To something so that I was still there for you guys and something I could still work on so it wasn't just completely hopelessly
fallen off the planet
But I just realized that I just became a really awful shitty person and I hated myself
Just I mean it sure was a gradual process, but I was an asshole to people, I blew people off
you know that I that I care about
I spent less time with people that I care about I didn't have I don't have any hobbies. I didn't do anything
I was just obsessed with success and
YouTube and that was it as all I cared about and one of the worst parts about it was that I was depressed
But I had everything that I had ever wanted
I had an absolutely no reason objectively on paper to ever be depressed and yet I was
And so that made me even more frustrated
And I think the realisation was like I had attained everything that I had ever dreamed of
and at the cost of pretty much everything else that I loved before
I was doing this I didn't have any friends I didn't play video games anymore I didn't even enjoy it
You know I think I never went outside and go for walks in an exercise
It's like I was I was on an island man, and I hated everything too, and so when you put all that shit out
You're so guarded and cynical and judgmental right all that shit
That's how you see the world
Not as it is but as you are right and so all that shit came back onto me
When you have the blinders on and you're just working non-stop
It's easy to lose sight of things and then one thing an-
you know leads to another and you're in a forest taking a video taping a
Corpse, and putting it on YouTube, and it's so easy to lose sight of what's important
Have you done that?
I haven't done that
I used to think back to the time when we were in Israel grinding we both did
you know and be like we were so happy that we were so content then and
and like that made me really sad to think that we had come all this way and I was more miserable
so I don't know I'm trying to get to a-
a better place mentally, and it's hard to talk about cause it's very abstract
I don't know even know if that made sense, but I just want to tell you guys why we disappeared
I'm really trying and I think I'm in a better place, and I'm on a better
path now
And I really want to make start making videos again and part of the thing is like every time
I meet someone on the street our fans are so
incredible and wonderful and nice
and they'd always say I miss the h3 videos like I love the podcast and everything you guys are doing but I miss the h3 videos and
I would say I miss him too, man. You know like genuinely?
I really missed them too
part of, part of healing for me is coming back. It's getting back slammin and jammin
slamming some Bradberries slamming some Paulberries if you were
And doing it in a healthy way or a more fulfilling way
The work is what I love and that's what makes me happy
It's my mentality. It's the way that I thought about it the way that I was
disgustingly
competitive in the way that I was
unappreciative of other people in the way that I was arrogant and judgmental and guarded is what made me miserable and
The work is what I love. I want to come back to that and appear
from a good beautiful place
Where I want to come back to our community that I love it may and have fun. I just want to have fun again
Doing it and you know I don't want to worry about making a masterpiece every week, too. I just want to
It's like *sigh*
You got to just create and put it out there
a-and see what sticks you know not every video is gonna be vape naysh
Some videos are gonna be Harambee face
Okay, and we all just together have to accept that; some videos are gonna be a straight-up Harambe meme
I know some of you remember that video
But that's okay. I'm happy with that. I'm happy with some of my videos sucking so anyway
Let's just I'm jus-
I just want have some goofs some gaffes some laughs some spoofs some boofs a couple of
of
Boofs. Did I say boofs already? I did say boofs. Did you guys know that a boof,
I learned this recently, is somebody who goes to a rave and
Smuggles drugs up their ass to later take out and enjoy? That's a boof my friends. Is it the person or the drug?
It's the act of it's a boof-the act?- yeah it's the act of-so it's like a verb?
It's very- It's a active. Yeah, it's an active play. You're boofing right now
But like to think that we've been doing the spoof soup equation for all these years and never knew boof was in there
I mean boof is so important, you boof, It's the square root of that whole spoof soup equation
You're getting a whole new levels of gasoline ever imagined [Ethan Klein Choking Sound™]
Not everything has been so depressing in our life
There's one amazing thing in our life right now -really what?
like
Our life has changed-
-What's happened?-
Since we got a puppy
OH HO HOOOO
[Fupa Sneeze/Spit/Scream/Cough]
He just ate shit, by the way, like 10 seconds ago and just licked my mouth
We got a puppy
Mooohhh asSEMbelay hooooooo-ayyyy asemBWAEla hummmdbalae
That's the Lion King
Yeah, you get the jud. Hey Shreds! Yeah, ow!
This is shredder. This is shredder- Prince Shredder-
This is Prince shredder the new h3 mascot he is our soul our
lifeline our life our love and everything that we live and work for
We just wake up
take care of him and spend the whole day just staring at him because he's so cute
Tha- that's actually not that far off from the truth look at this
Look at this. He's like a perfect little living teddy bear,
and I actually want to say thank you to
My wife my beautiful supportive one-of-a-kind love of my life who even throughout all these tough times is always
She's always got my back. You know, it's like ride or die so. And to all you guys honestly on the street on the subreddit
everywhere on Twitter who have actively
Actively been encouraging and supporting and waiting patiently and not being judgmental or anything and just being really sweet and nice about it
Thank you so much
It's really meant a lot
And it's motivated me a lot to get better and to
Want to make videos and and come hang out with you cool boofing-ass Sons of Guns
Uhh Yeah, that's about it guys, so here's to having a total laugh in 2018 am I right? yep
Yup
Yep
asSEMbae zambandlay haoommmm
aimbae sahoomdaeeee
ho ho ho hooo! He's a real teddy bear! Shreddy!-He's like "what's happening?"
Shreddy! -What are you doing?- So cute...