it is all within us
before you realize that or how soon you
realize that
will lead to either transformation or
frustration it may be just momentary for
a whole lot of people
because
people will feel terrified you will see
they were struggling in pain this that
was happening
a few are bewildered what's happening
because they never thought this will
happen to them
okay sad guru i'm going to ask you to
move to this poem called human
on page 112.
oh i like that number
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one one two
human
even when at home i longed for home
searing pain
of longing for home
strangely got cured in being homeless
when the walls of home dissolved
a pristine home
unwalled and unfettered
devoid of love affection or companions
blossomed
shall i call it my being
[Applause]
but this is a poem about home and it is
also a poem about
it's a poem about a kind of homesickness
and then it's a poem about a kind of
homelessness
and then it's a poem about homecoming
and
i wanted you to tell us more about that
journey because i think in some way many
of us have shared that journey
but not on the level of not in the
profundity that you're talking about it
here but i think many of us have had
glimpses of that journey is this the
blueprint for almost every seeker
so i would say
there's literally no human being
who's not confronted
with a thought and an emotion like that
but they manage to brush this aside
it doesn't bother them enough
the pain of not knowing doesn't tear
them that's the whole problem
they come to terms with ignorance they
make a deal with ignorance they will
build relationships where everybody will
confirm this is the best way to live
of
comfort companionship love affection
these are all things you're
seeking
i know a whole lot of people have raised
human emotions to heavens
if you say love they say divine love if
you say joy they say divine joy if you
say bliss they say divine bliss
you don't need any god's help to be
joyful
loving peaceful
as a human being you end up with these
qualities
so all those who deprive themselves of
that
they either seek
god
or they settle for a dog
yeah usually
because
they want a
unconditional love this is a demand
because the nature of love is such that
it's like a flower if you don't watch it
for two minutes it'll fall
it'll wither and fall right there
either you want to
let it fall
or you have to nourish it every moment
or you have to concretize it that means
you take a picture
and keep it on your phone screen
or you institutionalize it with marriage
or this or that
so essentially
well i'm i'm not against any institution
because institutions are needed in the
world to operate otherwise there will be
cures
that is a different thing
but you cannot institutionalize
joy or peace like right now we think
united nations is the institution for
peace
no no you cannot institutionalize peace
you cannot institutionalize joy
you cannot institutionalize
love
or anything for that matter
institutions are functional instruments
in a given society
i have at most respect for them because
without it people a whole lot of people
wouldn't know how to live
you need institutions there is a
government there's a democratic process
there are variety of things all right
there are courts there are parliaments
well uh ninety percent of the time some
nonsense may be happening there
but still these institutions are
important because without that there
will be total chaos
so i'm not talking against institutions
but
institutionalizing
things that happen within a human being
is a silly effort
but is it possible to embark on a
journey without this sense of
homelessness homesickness
see
let one human being honestly say
when you are with your most loving
parents however doting and wonderful
they were to you
that you never felt
this is not where you want to be
that is a dishonest human being
because
love gets tedious
fondness gets
very tedious
comfort gets tedious
because the nature of life is it wants
to constantly expand
if there is no room for expansion it
doesn't matter you are kept in a
whatever i won't use because everybody
uses the word golden palace i think
golden palace is totally unaesthetic in
my
my visual perception i hate golden
palace but whatever is the most
wonderful
palace
or as you say shangri-la whatever
you will it'll get tedious
all the heaven-bound people
they don't know how bored they will be
within three days in that place of
goodness
so i'm saying it doesn't matter it's not
because there's something wrong with
your parents
there may be most wonderful people
but
the very nature of a human being is such
only if you are a pet animal
if you have reduced yourself to that
you're just happy
with the meals that you're getting
and
somebody's fondling you once in a way
and you're happy with that
for that you must be a pet animal you
should not be born as a human being once
you're born as a human being it is
natural wanting to break
barriers
so when you're young as a child or a
teenager you think barriers means
they're all physical
before you understand the barriers are
not really physical whether you build
your own house or you live in your
parents house or you live
in a slave master's house
the house and walls are not the barrier
it is all within us
before you realize that or how soon you
realize that will lead to either
transformation or frustration
and this home homelessness these year
this whole phase of vagabondage
of being a nomad you have poems about
being a nomad
is that also an intrinsic part of every
seeker's journey
see do not separate seekers and
non-seekers everybody is a seeker
some quickly compromise
some endure
there is nobody who is not a seeker
some seek and forage within their own
limitations
some want to seek
some seek in a safe manner some seek
dangerously
but there is nobody who is not a seeker
everybody is a seeker
and therefore this period of
homelessness of vagabondage is universal
it may not be a period for everybody
it may be just momentary for a whole lot
of people
because
people will feel terrified when they
feel if they just look at it and see
actually
you know just the nature of life
forget about
your home
suppose you left somewhere you know i've
seen people
uh
you know when we were children when we
were growing up
mysore has a dasira exhibition which
goes on for one and a half months
so this is a place where all the youth
will go and hang out and you know
there are things to eat and a lot of
entertainment shows going on music going
on various kind of
circus elements and all things going on
in this
in this exhibition grounds which is
hardly
maybe 10 15 acres maybe 20 acres of land
and full of lights everywhere and shops
and stuff is going on
every day either children or women or
some men they get lost from their
families in that crowd
maybe 50 000 200 000 people will be
milling around and people get lost
all the time when the music show is
happening one policeman will announce
there is a child here by name vikram his
father's name is uh this thing
his mother's name is this thing he's
crying here come immediately
hey god damn it we came to listen to
music
if you brought a child figure out how to
hold on to you
if you don't figure that out ask him to
come and wait at the gate and pick him
up there nothing is going to happen all
right
these are not times where great amount
of kidnappings happening anything in my
soul nobody kidnaps you in my show
at least nobody kidnapped me
so this ridiculous thing
and grown-up women they're lost from
their husband or their family
crying in the middle of the road
it's a well-lit place the whole damn
place is over lit
all right there were no phones that was
the only thing
all you have to do is go near the gate
and wait or if you're a car or a
motorcycle go and wait there or just
stand there
let's see if your man wants to find you
or not
i'm saying they will be even men i have
seen grown up men crying loudly because
their wife or their child had gone
somewhere
unbelievable
so the sense of being lost nothing you
don't have to drop them in the middle of
kalahari or something
[Laughter]
i know myself people will be listening
how can such guru speak like this does
he know the pain of getting lost in the
exhibition
i'm saying this is how people are i've
seen people
in the jungles when some of my friends
came with me
in the forest
not even deep inside just in the borders
of the forest
somewhere they go here there and they
get lost they're just just few meters
away somewhere
and they can't see us but they start
crying
grown up boys
i've been lost in the forest for days
and weeks
don't know where the hell i'm going i
know if i keep walking some road
something will come
because i know how wide western guards
are at the most 150 200 kilometers if i
walk i will come to the coast or to some
city
but in the meantime you should see how
people behave
because for them nothing big needs to
happen smallest things if they lose
their wallet
they lose their phone gone
everything is gone all right so they
don't have to lose their life this is
why i said when when a time comes when
you're going to lose your body
and everything that you know as life
either terror will come when they first
realize that
but slowly as life starts ebbing
it gives you a certain anesthetic
this is the nature of life because life
doesn't just pop out like this
it is leaving slowly as
it
starts leaving slowly
you will see there is a kind of an
anesthetic there is a kind of comfort
that they come to you will see they were
struggling in pain this that was
happening but as death is slowly coming
approaching last few days you see they
become peaceful nice some of them even
joyful
a few are bewildered what's happening
because they never thought this will
happen to them
so
being lost is not about
a certain situation
it is the nature of life
you have been given the intelligence to
find out what is the nature of life
if you did not have the intelligence if
you were like any other creature none of
them have those problems
they are never lost
they are all fine
physically they may be lost in the
terrain sometimes but otherwise they're
just fine
they never feel lost
this is the
greatest privilege that human being has
you can be lost
just believe me if you cannot be lost
obviously you are chained isn't it
you're changed of course
see these days i've seen
especially in the united states people
are taking their children with the
what do you call this
like a dog leash
they can pull it there is a thing where
you can shorten the leash or lengthen
the leash according to the traffic and
whatever else is happening a child is
running it's on a leash
maybe for single mothers it's a
convenient way of handling i can
understand there are not two three
people to run after the child
the mother doesn't have the energy of
the child because he runs all over the
place
maybe it's a practical solution i'm not
commenting about that
but
one who is on the leash or a chain
cannot be lost isn't it
you need to understand being lost is a
great privilege because you are not on a
chain
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