right now I'm broken confused and I
don't know if I can live a normal life
I was actually physically emotionally
abused by my biological father and offal
tubas I was abused for 19 years I was my
dad's sex slave anything he wanted I had
to do a lot of these pictures I'm
smiling but I'm dying inside from when I
was six he started kissing me down there
and touching me down there he would tell
me not to tell and he would ask me if it
felt good
my father was a karate instructor he
would sexually abused me in the studio
my mom was not there she was a nanny she
did odd jobs cleaning houses when my mom
was off to work that's when he would
come and pray on me my dad made me warm
in to the house to have sex with me so
he could watch when I was about 15 years
old it became routine but the times that
I would not bring men back he would beat
me up and say that I was lying that I
didn't try not only was he sexually
abusing me he was physically abusing me
hitting me with baseball bats anything
he could grab even extension cords he
would grab my feet and just smack it
like that BAM my knees were bruised and
I was bedridden for days I couldn't walk
at all out of nowhere I would wake up
just blows to the head to the body he
was paranoid
my father was on drugs the majority of
the time that he abused me my father fed
me drugs from six years old he
introduced me to alcohol marijuana at
the age of a cocaine at ten I was a
prisoner and he watched me 24/7
the abuse got worse when he pulled me
out of school and I wasn't even really
allowed outside the house tonight that
installed surveillance cameras inside
the house he had alarms as well and dogs
we had about seven Rottweilers at one
point he had sensors under the bed so I
wouldn't be able to leave at all that
night I couldn't even go to the bathroom
at night I had to use the bucket next to
the bed I had to wake him up and tell
him I had to go use the restroom but
that was rare because I did not want to
wake him up because it's like waking up
the Beast on a day-to-day basis I would
have to cook clean basically living like
his wife I never tried to escape I wish
I did he threatened to kill me plenty of
times I contemplated hurting him but I
was just so scared of the unknown and I
just gave in I thought your honor I'm
very very glad you're here
and rest assured I'm not gonna ask you
any details that embarrass you here and
I just want to say that while I'm glad
to meet you I'm just really sorry for
the circumstance my question in looking
back on this how do you think your
father was able to keep this a secret
from the world for so many years I have
no idea he just was very personable he's
very smart he's read a lot of books this
got to the point that he was performing
like 10 sex acts a week I mean this was
an intense assault pattern on you
correct that is correct and it
the earliest remembrances you have of
this were at what age six years old that
one picture that I gave you guys holding
the doll and at 6:00 you know you say
that he would he would kiss you he would
he would touch your privates but it
wasn't long after that that in addition
that being inappropriate wrong and
humiliating things began to get very
painful correct because he began to
violate your body in that way when was
that and what what happened then I was
seven years old eight years old he
started sexually abused he mean and he
started giving you drugs what did you
think about that did it scare you when
you started getting fussy it scared me a
lot when I started getting fuzzy and I
remember several occasions exactly not
knowing what was going to happen
afterwards