Yesterday on my date with tayshia she told me Caelynn said that she couldn't see
herself getting engaged then I guess she had a discussion about becoming the next
Bachelorette which honestly is very heartbreaking you're gonna come here
keep it horizontal yeah sitting back and on your heels make it look so easy yeah
try it today I need ask about what they told me I do
understand that there's two sides to each story so I do want to hear her side
of things yeah there you go we're making progress either I'm gonna
believe her and I'll be able to meet her family and go to her hometown or she's
going home I had an absolute blast today yes I did have a very fun time you are a
natural in the mountain you met you didn't make me very proud but I'm not
gonna lie though like I did have something in the back of my mind because
there still are concerns and my guard is up you know I did have questions for
tasted a and you know she didn't share with me that she thought that you were
one of the women that wasn't quite ready
and I think what stuck with me the most was comments being made about getting to
the end of this but not getting engaged and then talks about the Bachelorette me
yeah and for me like that it was like very it was just very hard to hear yeah
I think especially after our date in Singapore but I do understand how there
are two sides to each story and that's why I do want to talk to you about it
and you
it doesn't make any sense to me I don't know like shaking it like terrifies me
to know the way that I'm feeling and the fact that I could lose you over
something that's completely fabricated the readiness that I feel is in my heart
and it's not something that someone can look at from the outside and just know
the only person who knows if I'm ready for marriage is me and I am I'm 100%
ready and and I hate that the bachelor got brought up that blows my mind like
honestly blows my mind that's not why I'm here I didn't see a future with us
in the life with us see them that's for me what is so concerning because I was
just told the opposite yesterday I'm hearing two completely different things
right now I'm trying to understand why someone would go out of their way to
even say that if there was no truth behind it I genuinely so confused and an
incredibly frustrated I wouldn't put myself through this emotional hell if I
wanted like a boyfriend at the end of this I am here for an engagement I'm
here for you how the quotation off I'm ready or not there's only so much you
can say when some legit pulls a lie out of their ass like where did that come
from and I'm confused what these conversations are that tshis thinking
she heard I think that is a lie those conversations those words none of that
has ever left my mouth my feelings are so strong and I feel like my future is
just ripped away from me because there's an insecure twenty eight-year-old girl
running around the house I'm the only one that's falling in love with Colton
so okay I am 100% ready to be engaged to be
married I have been completely transparent this entire time dude I
better get a Maris cuz I will call that stupid bitch out hey can we talk hey
yeah I'm just so pissed off like what the where did you get this from
because I know I've never said that that is complete I just want to talk about
everything yeah feel a little confused and hurt
Colton told me yesterday that you told him that I'm only here to be the
Bachelorette and not if he proposes that I'll say no which is so false
I can't even deal with it and I just feel like our friendship was kind of all
a lie is kind of how I'm left feeling I mean I think the thing that sparked it
singing : was Katie's conversation with him at the
rose ceremony and to be quite honest the only two people that acted defensively
and we're worried about her conversation are you and Cassie we all talked about
it and we all were like who do you possibly think that they could be
talking about I just think it's kind of funny that we all kind of came up at the
same conclusion that it was even Cassie that's great y'all can think that we're
not ready I know you can't tell me if I'm ready or if I'm not you know I'm the
only person who can say that I think like if the tables were reversed like
you would do the same as I saying that's not sure I never once threw you
under the bus because that's not the type of person I am if I had an issue
with you I would have come to you first did I have any plans of talking about
you know Colton asked me a question and I told him my opinion I feel like our
whole friendship is a lie and I know what I'm here for I know that I'm ready
and I can sit here and say that right now I don't know if you can say the same
thing if I really like wanted to talk smack about you I would be talking smack
about you every single day you're a lot I have it it doesn't know but the
difference is I haven't because I don't know how many need to this is as stupid
that's exactly how I'm feeling yeah I have been friends with Kalin and
yeah we have had really good conversations but at the same time I'm
worried about Colton I mean she's lying to him and if anyone else isn't ready
for marriage then just go home
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