a few years ago i decided to uh better my life i just quit drinking and smoking and you know not
that i was a heavy really heavy into that but i wanted to make a better uh change for my life
so things were going really great but i end up hurting my back i lifted something very heavy and
that caused some damage in my lower back the spine some nerve damage it was really
painful the doctor said it was just the sprain at first so i did some physical therapy within
a few weeks the pain just got it kept magnifying this pain was something unusual and very different
and so i i went to the hospital on the mris we weren't showing too much of uh damage
and so i was like okay let's just keep walking through it and hopefully it'll get better within
a few weeks uh the pain my god even worse i couldn't walk anymore i woke up one day in my leg
i couldn't feel my leg anymore so in order to get the sensation back in my leg i had to use a walker
but once the sensation came back in my leg if i flexed any muscles around my leg or on my
waist the pain was so much that um i i i realized that i couldn't live with that so i spent about a
about seven months hopping and dragging my body around just to kind of manage my life that way
while seeing doctors who just were telling me that i had to learn to live like that and it was
to me i i already knew that that was not never going to happen because that meant
either being on painkillers or uh you know or or or dragging my body around for the rest of my life
you know that was unacceptable finally i meet a doctor who says that he can fix me i hop on his
table and surgery table and a big mistake i wake up and this doctor has done way much more work
uh than i had expected i wake up to a spinal two spinal fusions um a missing bones nod in my spine
i'm missing whole sections of muscle out on my back i got metal i got screws it's a nightmare
so the accident was on was in february of 2019 the first surgery was in october of 2019
okay and and then after that by the time summer time of 2020 came i was at my limit as far as pain
and the burden i was causing to my family and um my own mental exhaustion if this was it you know
if this was the end-all be-all of everything that nothing else matters so i um i started meditating
like for real for real and that's when i picked up the dr joe's work at around um september
so that was summertime when i had a lot of dark nights in september i i really just
went all in and about a month later i woke up with a a really bad fever and uh an intense very
intense vibration throughout my whole body all my organs felt like they were disintegrating like
like they were just like sitting in like battery acid and just just a nightmare and so at first i
thought it was kobe but it was never coveted now that turned out to be uh myalgic encephalomyelitis
uh just an advanced form of it but it took a lot of detective work and a lot of patience from me
to figure that out but i kept meditating it just it still got worse unexplainably
it got a lot lot worse um i never stopped meditating i wanted to make it to an event so
we get now to hear you know this gets me to the point where now i'm saying you know what
there's something going on here because i'm doing you know i i i'm doing my work you know
and i i wanted to get out of my environment and see what kind of effect that had on me
we started doing some meditations and then we get out and we start doing the walking meditation
i have no expectation but i knew that i was gonna come in all in when i stood up my leg and my spine
started spasming like they usually do but they stabilized i just relaxed into the meditation
once i started walking i realized that my leg felt and my body felt different some more steps
still feels fine now i don't want to see my walker in front of me the thing looks so ugly to me
and so i start pushing it in front of me instead of holding on into it and the more important
you get the better my body's feeling and the more energy i start feeling so now i know get rid of it
now i'm in now i'm walking i'm walking for the first time in two and a half years and i am in
a complete state of awe and um i start tiring out a little bit and um i'm not sure what to
expect or what you know what to do but i'm still in in my meditative state my energy came back
to me but the second time when the energy came back to me um a lot more energy was in my body
and i started just now i started bouncing around with my feet you know
starting to feel the energy in my feet and when i start walking um i start um
i mean i just start seeing something in the air and
it just looks just really odd like i don't know what it is it's just fuzzy but that fuzziness
starts turning into a really intense bright shimmery squiggly lines like a lot of snowfall
a lot of snowfall of of super and it was like really really bright shimmery they
weren't just lights they were they were squiggly lines they were lines
but they were falling heavy and they were falling around me and they were falling
in the distance and i looked up and they're falling just like you see snow falling
and so by then then that's when i put i'm holding my arms up and i'm walking and i'm
my legs are are stabilizing again because again this is where my energy is coming
back when i was walking i had all the information from the night before of
what is going on with when the brain in the heart goes into coherence
during a walking meditation so that's what i had in my head okay while i was walking i mean
while i was you know while i was well standing up ready to do it having that
information having the information that dr joe was teaching me here about the possibility along
with while i was walking i i used the information and while i was walking i used my willpower
when i was at home i could barely make it to the bathroom without feeling like i ran an ultra
marathon okay so and also if i ever try to take a step without my walker the nerves are on my spine
and leg would just go into just such a deep state of contraction for a few weeks but during my walk
i walked uh pretty much what like a three-fourths of a mile in a full stride while my body felt pure
harmony absolutely no pain it was the most amazing thing that's ever happened to me in my life
and so the only thing i can do now uh for myself i think is just to continue the work i don't
know what happened because i haven't gotten any tests done i mean i haven't left here um
i almost don't even want to get tests you know but we'll see but being here in the science that we're
shown here all the things that we learn here in the science in the way that they explain to us
what's going on biologically what's going on chemically in the body when you're meditating
when you're going into those altered states when you're feeling relaxed when you're feeling love
what's really happening in your body what's going on yourselves it's actually transformative
you know there's real things going on you know so having that information
and my experience together makes it something whole to me so if i had one and not the other
i'd still be kind of lost but having the two without the joe dispenser's work makes
it very unique and special in a way that i know and have a beautiful future ahead of me
it's it's up to you it really is it really is up to you you got to make your choice
dr joe can give you as many tools as you he could give you the perfect tool you need but
until until you make that choice it's not going to work