Everybody has their own reason of why they're living.
You know?
I just happen to wanting to live like Beyonce.
When I was 22 I was a struggling beautician.
I worked at Supercuts.
I tried.
I tried to be a regular person.
I used to make five hundred, maybe in a week and a half.
If that.
And I had to really work my ass off.
You think I can actually be a millionaire like that?
No way!
I need other source of income to make this happen.
When I got in the adult industry it really taught me what sales are all about.
What customer service is all about; marketing is all about.
It gave me what I needed.
Most people know me by Nadia Ali, but my name is Onai Malik.
Onai here 2 slay.
I created this business to get my identity back - back to who I truly am.
Why do I care about people's brows and lashes?
That's the first thing you look at when you look at somebody's face.
You look into their eyes.
It's really important, that's the first thing you see.
I'm still on my night life job.
If I want to see my business doing numbers,
I don't really have a choice about my night life.
It takes tremendous invisible balls to do what I do.
It's time to smile, so you've gotta leave your baggage at the door.
Every girl in there has ass.
It’s a fun place to be.
But for dancers, it’s a football field.
I’m gonna be frank with you, it's fast money.
My stripper income is anywhere from $8,000 to $18,000 a month.
It's very easy to get trapped in this lifestyle.
The friends that I have in the nightlife,
we all want to use this as a stepping stone and then move forward.
Two years ago, I came out with a documentary from Refinery29.
I'm a practicing Muslim.
Sure, I have conflicts between my faith
and my day-to-day life, but doesn't everybody?
It was touching for some people and for some people,
they didn't want to talk to me again.
I just believe all publicity is good publicity.
See look, Kim Kardashian, she had her sex tape out.
Is she complaining today?
No.
Can I?
No, not at all.
I think it worked in my favor.
Pakistan did not ban me because I did porn.
They banned me because I wore the scarf
and their traditional dress in the adult scenes.
The honest truth is I didn't want to wear the hijab in the films.
That outfit that I wore, that was a custom outfit made for my feature dance.
I usually don’t wear that.
But the agencies were like, if you don't really bring any type of politic, religion,
controversy to the adult industry, it's hard to book you.
I regretted it before I did it.
I regretted it during the time that I was shooting.
And I regret it now, but I can't erase my mistakes.
I did what I had to do to get to where I am so I can be who I want to be.
Four, three, two, one, yaaayyy!
Go girl!
That documentary was a huge impact to my family.
My mom and dad very upset.
It hit them in their heart, very personal.
“Why did you do the documentary?
Nobody forced you to.”
My mom, she was just not having it because she has a strong Islamic belief.
Even though I hurt her, but it also brought us closer
and a better understanding of each other.
I turned 27.
I feel brand new again.
You know, I feel like, as you get older you feel like you're getting your years back
that you didn't get to utilize the proper way in your early 20s.
I'm still a modern Muslim, you know, I'm not a perfect Muslim.
I should pray five times a day, I don't.
God holds a very big weight on my life.
I always want his forgiveness, and to forgive this world.
I feel like if it wasn't for God, how would I have hope to wanting to do better?