- I have so many ways that I've identified
that I'm a worthy person
that I wonder if I still feel the same
about what a number means to me.
(upbeat music)
- I'm Jasmine.
I'm 27 years old
and I haven't weighed myself
in probably four months.
- I'm Lindsey.
I'm 24.
And the last time I weighed myself, I was 16.
- My name is Tan.
I'm 29.
And the last time I weighed myself
was about four or five months ago.
- My name is Nia.
And I'm 27.
And the last time I weighed myself
was probably last month, sometime.
- My name's CT.
I'm 35.
And I haven't weighed myself since I was 21 years old.
- Thanks.
(groaning)
- My relationship with this guy is unhealthy.
I grew up in a really healthy household.
Almost too healthy.
So as a kid even,
I would have this calorie counter book.
And we used to weigh ourselves all the time.
- Like a lot of people,
I have kind of a love hate relationship with my body.
For me, sometimes,
I just feel really defeated getting on the scale
and it's just ...
Instead of a tool for progress
it's like, why would you ever be happy with yourself?
Now look at the number.
- My relationship with the scale was defining.
I don't know why but
it's kind of engraved in society like
the number correlates beauty in a really twisted way.
- I was an actor when I was a kid.
I remember an agent saying to me that should lose weight
and I would book more work.
And this was when I was 18.
So I did.
I got so obsessed with a half a pound,
a quarter of a pound.
Seeing that it would go down;
and if it didn't,
then I ate less and less everyday.
- I started and developed an eating disorder when I was 16
'til I was 18.
And then again when I was about 21 in college.
What was just always centered around my control issues
and the truth of this scale.
- If this is a higher number than what I think,
I'm probably going to feel really terrible, honestly.
Which sucks.
But that's the truth.
- I don't know, I'm nervous,
but I'm hoping it doesn't have the effect that I
think it will.
(music playing lowly)
- It's already at four pounds.
I just want to point that out.
Now I'm going to take my shoes off
'cause I ain't trying to play like that.
- [Producer] Okay, so instead of actually weighing yourself,
you're going to smash the scale.
- (gasping) Really?
(laughing) Wait really? (laughing)
- You fucking serious?
- [Producer] Yep.
We're actually not going to weight you.
You're going to actually smash the scale.
- Dope. Dope. Dope. Dope. Dope. Dope.
- Wait really?
Wait this is so much better than I thought.
Oh my God.
Wait this is great.
I really thought you were going to have me get weighed.
- This scale?
- [Producer] That scale.
- With what?
- [Producer] A sledgehammer.
- Okay.
- Yes. Oh my ...
Goddamn, I would have worn flannel.
- Oh my God. (laughs)
I'm so excited.
- Dude I'm so glad I came in.
- I just want to say that I feel very good
that I'm about to do this.
This scale represents so many shitty feelings
for so many people,
men and women alike.
And it feels good to fuck shit up
that's such a cause of pain and anxiety for a lot of people,
including me.
(uplifting music)
(bang)
(giggling)
(bang)
(laughing) I picked this teal color because
I almost didn't even want to eat my lunch
'cause I was like
(groaning) but then I have to get on the scale.
But like this color and knowing that I get to
fuck up the scale puts me at peace
and at ease.
- I feel like a powerful woman already
just holding this in my hand,
but oh my God.
I feel like I never want to weigh myself again
and this is just going to mark it.
(bang) (squeals)
(laughing)
I picked the color green because
it kind of symbolizes rebirth and a fresh start
and I feel like destroying this
is totally a fresh start.
(bang)
- Oh shit though.
(bang)
I like this color it just seems like anything can happen;
like opportunity, change, and celebration.
(bang)
- Fuck yeah.
This is fucking amazing and fun,
and pink is so bright
and it just reminds me of good times.
- Here's to not giving a single fuck.
(bang)
Yellow is a color to me that represents flourishing
and represents positivity.
And this scale to me
and my perspective can only be positive.
- For anyone watching that has problems with the scale,
it's not easy to get over that.
But I think that realizing that a number
doesn't define you, and your worth, and your beauty
is something that we should all remember everyday.
- I wish that I could go back to when I was 18 and do that.
It would've saved a lot of time and energy
and I want everybody in the world to do this right now.
- I think you just ...
We really don't need a scale
to find a path to love yourself.
You'll never love yourself because of what the number says,
you'll love yourself because of how you fell about yourself.
- I'm still going to leave here struggling
with my body image,
but I just hope that this made someone love themselves
a little bit more.
It did definitely work for me somehow.
- This is literally just a machine
and it does not rule my life.
And I'm going to take away that
no matter what that number says,
as long as I'm taking care of myself,
and I'm happy and I'm healthy,
then that's all that matters.
(uplifting music)