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[MUSIC PLAYING]
I love you.
Brea is a beautiful young woman.
Come on, there you go.
She's her own person.
Like she's just, she's just genuine.
Come on, Pooper.
KRISTA: More of a tomboy type.
She loved the outdoors.
Yeah, you want some beer to wash that down?
CINDY: She's the kindest, most thoughtful soul I've ever seen.
It was hidden behind the other one.
CINDY: But give her a drink or give her a pill and forget it.
She's not my daughter.
It's like Jekyll and Hyde.
[BLEEP] you.
[BLEEP] Failure.
Ah!
My name is Brea and I'm addicted to alcohol
and cocaine, stimulants, uppers and downers,
and everything all around.
She just hasn't stopped.
She's been nonstop every day, every chance she gets.
[HEAVING]
I was going to [INAUDIBLE].
Where's my liquor?
Two hours after I stop drinking, I start shaking.
Where's my [BLEEP] liquor?
You jig out so bad you just want to die.
[BLEEP]
It's like somebody who has like lighting
going through her body was the worst that I ever seen.
Like multiple times, I was ready to call an ambulance.
And sometimes she did end up going to the hospital.
CINDY: When Brea was born, the second I laid eyes on her,
my entire world changed.
She was an amazing baby, always smiling, always laughing.
She just didn't cry.
Her biological father was very abusive.
He had actually smashed my face open with a full bottle
of beer.
Everything was about her and protecting her.
I was never going to take the chance of anything happening.
He was just never going to hurt her.
He was never going to hurt me again.
So I left him.
About three weeks after she was born,
I met the man who she thought was her dad.
He was always there.
And he was supportive and kind of was looking
out for the family back then.
Brea idolized him.
There was a lot of arguing because he was
a very, very, very bad addict.
I wasn't aware for a long time.
And there was no way that I was raising
them in that environment.
She took it very hard.
It was just devastating.
And that made me like start cutting and all that
and getting depressed and start failing everything.
And everything was just, it started getting really bad.
Brea thought that my dad was also her dad because her dad
was so bad that Mom didn't want her to like,
you know what I mean?
She wanted to keep her away from that.
CINDY: She had crossed the street to go to the store
and her biological father was sitting on the step.
And he said, are you Brea-so-and-so?
And she says, yes, why?
And he said, well, I'm your father.
And she said, no, my father is, you know, her stepdad.
And he said, no, I'm your father and your mother lied to you.
She became angry and into herself
and didn't want to talk.
And she'd walked by you like sometimes and wouldn't say hi.
She wasn't the happy-go-lucky Brea anymore.
I don't know.
I kind of started noticing her friends change.
They were going from like nerdy and straight edge
to like kind of sketchy and shady.
She quit cheerleading.
She quit school.
She just wanted to drink and do drugs with the people that
wanted to drink and do drugs.
CINDY: He was an addict.
As messed up as they both were, they really,
really loved each other.
They felt like they were all each other had.
We went to detox together and then we separated
for a bit to get clean.
CINDY: She took the national pageant very seriously.
She raised the money.
She was sober.
I met a lot of people and they were awesome.
And I came out of my shell a bit.
She went and did very, very, very well in it.
And I was so proud of her, so proud of her.
CINDY: After the pageant, she got a phone call that the love
of her life had overdosed.
BREA: He died.
They found him in an apartment by himself overdosed
on heroin and fentanyl.
He was my favorite person.
Here's a soak.
CINDY: Derrick wants somebody to drink with.
So he doesn't care about her in the big picture
in the long run or her future.
Him being an alcoholic, he's always going to have liquor.
So when Brea is at his house, she's
always going to have liquor.
We both drink, so.
DERRICK: Things would turn, get violent.
It could be something that I would say to make her mad
and holes would go in the wall.
It could be a glass, a plate being thrown,
two knives being thrown.
[INAUDIBLE] I don't really want to talk about this.
I'd like to talk more about it.
Well, you could talk to yourself
because I don't want to talk.
[INAUDIBLE] my favorite person.
How've you been?
Jeez.
[BLEEP] Oh.
When you have liver problems that bad, you can't drink.
And she drinks every day.
Either probation, jail, nothing good,
appointments for probation.
All right.
She's so angry.
And she is so mad at the world, and herself, and her life.
And it's just not her.
The addiction has just ruined her.
Brea has gotten sicker and sicker from her addictions.
She's in survival mode.
And she's not doing very well.
She's not the girl I grew up with.
She's a ghost of herself.
She'll cry in my lap, Kris, I don't want to live like this,
I don't want to live anymore, like I
don't want to be like this.
I just want her to get help.
Just take a nice big deep breath.
[MUSIC PLAYING]
I don't like these doors.
Hi, come on in, Brea.
I [BLEEP] knew those doors were up to something.
Good morning.
Good morning, sweetheart.
You look beautiful.
Listen--
I thought we were going somewhere.
Bree--
Listen to what-- listen to what they all have to say.
Baby. It's OK.
We love you.
Am I even allowed to have a drink?
Are you serious?
Way to tell me.
Brea, just please relax, honey.
We all love you, but we can't stand by any longer.
I really miss your calls wanting to go
for tea or your sleepovers.
Brea, the reason I'm here today is out of pure love
for you.
I want to see a Brea who knows her worth and be a happy young
lady, not a girl living day to day
who cannot survive without alcohol
or drugs to cope with living.
Knowing that you need to drink and do drugs every day,
the likelihood of burying you even more probable
than it already is.
I'm waiting for the call from the hospital
saying that you're dead any day.
I want to see my sister at her full potential.
I want to see you get back into modeling
and do good, chase your dreams.
I want you around, but I can't watch
you kill yourself anymore.
As much as I hide it, it's killing me too.
This life filled with addiction
has stolen my sweet angel away from me, away
from your brother, away from our family.
I love you so much, boo.
But I can no longer stand by and watch you slowly kill yourself.
So it's my job today to ask you.
Are you willing to accept help for your disease?
You're willing to accept help?
Yeah.
It's a very brave step to take.
I'm glad you're taking it.
I love you.
Love you too.
BREA: Everything happens for a reason, I believe.
And just whatever was put together
to get me into that certain program,
it was obviously the right one.
Because it was really good.
Like, the counselors were so amazing.
And all my friends, they were real friends,
like genuine people.
My relationship now with my mom sober is good.
She's a lot more at peace and so am I.
And I'm just happy that my mom's happy
because I took her happiness away for a while, a long time.
[PANTING]
[MUSIC PLAYING]
(SINGING) You know me how I love to tell.