I remember I was humming to myself I was like,
(hums)
And then Jay Mike was like, yo, send me that,
send me that voice recording
and then I sent it to him.
And he started like playing chords
and he like kind of altered the voice
to sound like really warped.
And then all at once I just started like,
I was like tears of gold.
♪ Don't you know that I got tears of gold ♪
And I wrote the,
like I wrote the chorus all at once,
and it really just clicked in that moment.
I remember this day so clearly,
the day that I wrote the song I had been in sessions
all Summer, every day.
And I remember just being like,
nothing that I'm writing is like really clicking with me
or connecting with me.
I was like, I need to just have like, one day off.
And then I went home, took the day off.
And the next day I walked into the studio with Jay Mike
and I don't usually write from personal experience.
Usually I write about other people's experiences
or you know, just like, things that people can relate to,
but I was like something in me,
I was like, I'm gonna write about something
that I can truly connect with
and I know that people can connect with too.
So I wrote tears of gold
So growing up literally,
ever since I was like six years old.
I would get myself into these friendships,
where it's just the connection just was, totally one sided
and my mom is so similar to me.
Our personalities are the exact same, it's actually insane
and we, she has been through,
everything that I've been through
and she knows that, like I'm gonna end up hurt
and that it's just not gonna,
it's not gonna be a good situation
so she'd be warning me,
Se be like, I'm telling you this isn't right,
just maybe distance yourself or just find connections
with people that are just 100% both sides,
'cause you're gonna end up drained
and you're gonna, you're gonna end up just feeling hurt.
I'm 19 years old, I feel like I'm still very young.
And when you're young, you just think I'm right.
I'm right about this, like, nobody knows.
Like, you don't know until you're in the situation, but.
That's why it's just like, don't worry, I got this.
But then when you,
when your parents or whoever's around you
is telling you something,
and they're right about it.
You're like, man, I should have listened.
Sometimes when you just give
and you give
and nothing's coming back.
I wanted to compare it to money.
And like love is nothing like money, of course.
But I just wanted to have that concrete example
where it's like, you're in debt
like you, not that you don't have anything
you're in less than what you're supposed to have right now.
And that's just like, that's the visual representation
that I wanted to give people
that were listening to the song.
Tears of gold, I wanted it to be such a powerful statement
and its just like I didn't just cry for you,
like it wasn't just like water salts in urea.
It was
it was, that was so naughty am so sorry.
It was gold like I gave my literal, like my all to you.
When people know how much they're hurting you.
When people know that they're hurting you
and you're still coming back
they're gonna know how much power they have
and they're gonna want to keep going
'cause they know you're not going anywhere.
So that's exactly what it is, you love it when I cry.
Yo I literally Googled,
I was like what is the most like, valuable, valuable element
and I was like platinum
and I was like okay.
On the whole tears of gold thing.
It's like I cried for you
and I also gave you platinum love.
Like it wasn't just any kind of love,
it was Platinum.
So many times it has felt like generosity is my enemy
and it was just like, why did I give them much?
I'm like, am I stupid?
Like what, why did I do that.
People shouldn't be heartless, people should love and give
and, but sometimes it just backfires.
And that's exactly what that line is.
I think it's super important for people to realize
the mistakes that they're making continuously
over and over again.
I know that at a certain point,
It's like, how many times am I gonna do this
before I realized that, you know, I'm like.
I'm looking like a clown at this point.
What if, this person is gonna change,
or life is gonna get better.
Like what if, you know the 13th time.
You're just like,
it's probably not gonna change
and that's why it's like,
what is going on with my head?
What am I thinking?
And it's just, it's almost like it's funny at that point.
It's like what am I doing again?
All right so at this point, we've given it all
the tears of gold,
the platinum love, the works,
and it's like, how much worse can it get?
You're thinking all right, I'm gonna do this again.
It's gonna happen again.
It's gonna be, it's gonna be bad again.
And it's like, no, no, it's never gonna end.
That's the worst part.
So like at some point you need to stop it.