hold on
we gotta clean this mirror i don't know if we have windex do we have one next well
i don't think we do all right it's gonna be probably even more streaky but it's fine
all right so we have three options here today the first option is for me to go get
a haircut for like 15 bucks not like it the second option me to go get a haircut spend
30 dollars maybe love it maybe hate it no in between the third option is give myself a haircut
free there's really loud construction going on um and i know that if i give myself a haircut
i i will only do as much as i want and i won't love it but there's no chance of me hating it
here we are hi does this does it look better with this light on that is bright my hair is
naturally straight it just looks like this because it's tangled so let me just get the hair on my
hairbrush real quick every hairdresser probably ever right now is like screaming at me like
oh don't do it sorry i'm actually not sorry um and also my mom literally gave me hair
cutting scissors when i left but i can't find them so the scissors that i think i got in
fifth grade will have to do because they're the ones i found in a box this is gonna be great
okay so i asked on instagram which i've never done before because i thought that no one would
ever answer um but i asked on instagram like yo what kinds of videos do you all want to see
let me move this mat out of the way because i will vacuum after this but then my cousin came
through and like always and she was like yo talk about the things that make you happy and i'm like
yes i can do that i would love to do that actually um there's gonna be no rhyme or reason to this so
i'm gonna talk about the things that make me happy i think number one that makes me happy is having
hair that i like and this past year i have had so many different like little hairstyles that i love
and it's been really fun to get to like play and experiment with my look
because for anyone who like uh probably just doesn't know me personally i am an actor and i
kind of like when i have my headshots taken i kind of need to like look like my headshots for
a while because you don't want to have to like retake new ones every month but when the pandemic
started i was like yo this is the perfect opportunity because there's nothing going on
so i'm not going to be auditioning for anything so i don't need to look like my headshots
which is such a freaking like blessing like i don't think i understood how stifled
how stifled i felt by always having to have kind of the same look so it's just been really nice
to be able to oh my god it's been really nice to just be able to like experiment and have different
hair colors my favorite was probably a switch blur somewhere between like the black and the pink
both of those are really fun to have but i am honestly really enjoying the blonde i've always
wanted blonde hair and like no it's not the most professionally done obviously but i don't care
i've been enjoying like not having perfect looking hair having hair that's kind of messy and weird
and doesn't look necessarily nice it's just hair not taking it so seriously not taking
everything so seriously so that's thing number one that i'm just like really freaking happy about
is just playing playing with my hair another thing i'm happy about is obviously if you
watched my last video i moved into this just beautiful little apartment and it brings me
endless joy to be here i'm in just this amazing area and like i i feel i feel blessed
i feel so blessed to be here guys no but for real i feel just like so thankful every day i
just wake up and i'm like ah life is good you know i am going to do something kind of weird here but
bear with me i just want to take off like some of this so i feel incredibly grateful to be here
every day um to be in an area that i've always dreamt of living in i'm thankful for my family
like my parents are some of the best people in the entire world they bring me so much joy
they're just like genuinely really cool they just follow what makes them happy
and i think that that's the most inspiring thing in the world like
would i be on youtube would i be an actor no probably not because
let's be real we're all kind of told
from everyone in our lives that oh you need like a a stable job and you need this and you need
that and and if i didn't grow up the way that i did i probably would believe that too this
is not going to be like a dramatic difference i'm literally going out my hair right now like i'm a
elementary schooler cutting their hair for the first time i remember one time who's
been a very creative kid you know um let me go get more coffee before i finish this story
so i've always been a very creative little monster and as a kid i really always wanted to cut my own
hair but then i also really wanted to cut the hair of the people around me so one time i accidentally
destroyed my neighbor's hair because i cut it while it was in a ponytail
because i was an artist and i was going for a very avant-garde look and it
was not um it did not receive the reaction nor the praise that i was expecting because i knew i was
going to become a master hair stylist one day uh and then i had to do a [ __ ] ton of chores and
work my little booty off for like a week or two it wasn't that long let's be real i was a child
but i had to pay for her haircut but you know here i am today cutting my hair on the internet anyway
i'm gonna give myself some layers my hair is like just in complete knots right now
and for anyone worrying about the health of my hair don't worry it's fine it actually
feels like okay it looks god-awful right now but that's because i slept with it wet and in a bun
and it's still like wet but then it's also like greasy it's but my hair can withstand a lot
and this this right here is not the worst that it's seen over this last year so um
yeah it's probably not a bad thing that my hair is a little damaged okay i want some more
like face framing i think we gotta we gotta adjust this a little bit what were we talking
about again all right things that make me happy um things that make me happy dogs
that's so basic um but no for real like i miss having pets so much so now every time i see
any animal out in the world it brings me just so
much joy like even if i just like walk past a dog on the street i swear it's like i light up like i
it makes me so happy like little things like that i'm just like oh my god it's a dog it's like yeah
[ __ ] like there's a ton of them out there but um but yeah no like just animals in general make me
very happy another thing that makes me happy is air conditioning which i do not have on right
now because it's really freaking loud because it's a window unit but i'm appreciative of ac because
i don't have it on right now and i'm getting kind of sweaty and i feel a little bit gross
also i feel like i can make these shorter right no when they're like that they're pretty could i hmm
let's see another thing that makes me happy is my birthday is coming up
oh another thing that actually reminds me another thing that makes me happy is
italki and all my italki peeps that i speak to each week like hi
one of my students remembered my birthday which was so nice i'm awful at remembering
like even like my closest friend's birthdays so the fact that like someone remembers my birthday
makes me so happy okay there we go that is what i'm talking about okay some of the pieces are way
too short but it's like singular pieces of hair so i think i'll be fine also i want to put like kind
of a disclaimer in here um i probably wouldn't recommend cutting your own hair if you have
hair that isn't like forgiving like i feel like my hair is incredibly
forgiving to literally anything that i do to it is brad mondo still like the top of like hair youtube
um because if he is brad mondo if you're watching this i'm not sorry
i'm having fun i'm gonna slap this in a ponytail real quick wow oh look at how cute okay i'm loving
this uh now i gotta clean all this [ __ ] up so some other things that make me happy are um like
rainy days uh days when the weather is just like a little bit cooler and it's not like you
don't feel like you're melting when you step outside when you're in like i feel like this
specifically happens in like women's restrooms but when you're in like the women's restroom
and then you're like complimented on something it just feels like such a like i feel like women's
restrooms just are like such a safe space like especially in a bar when like they're drunk people
i don't know there's just something about it it's very like specific and special and lovely
and warm feeling other things that make me happy um i love when like a space smells really good
or like i think just smells in general like the smell of like a nice like home-cooked meal or when
like you're you're a family member like a friend or whatever has like a very like specific smell
to them and then it just like i don't know the smell of like walking into your own like home um
when you i this smells when like you go into like a shop that has like a ton of candles in it and
then you like go through and like you smell all of them that makes me happy um the show survivor
makes me happy it's like my comfort show recently i just started watching it i never watched it
before um sitting down and focusing on something for like an extended period of time makes me happy
i like getting into that that like state of flow
um performing makes me happy being creative makes me happy
looking out into like the world and realizing that everything kind of feels like a a piece of art
that like makes me happy i don't i feel like that's that's very like weird
it's weird to like say these thoughts out loud because i feel like they don't make sense
but yeah especially since i started like bringing my camera more places like i just see
like the beauty and things but like in a different way not in like a it's just
like this very specific like lens that i see things through now um
and you make me happy
i don't know i guess i recommend also you can
cut your hair you can put on some makeup you can do whatever the heck you want but just like
be by yourself for a minute and think about all the things that also make you happy and make you
feel warm inside because now i definitely feel a little bit more a little bit more warm and happy
than i was earlier not that i wasn't feeling warm and happy but it just like improved it
improved everything so yeah i love you i'll see you guys soon probably on my birthday